Bittersweet Panic Lyrics Novels & Stories

Emma muttered loud enough for me to hear and I was about to throw a comeback but another baby started to cry even louder. I ran towards him and carried him in my arms, shaking him and cooing him not to cry and that's when I realized the lyrics of the song that was currently playing on the bluetooth speaker was exactly matching my current life. 'Feeling used But I'm still missing you And I can't see the end of this Just wanna feel your kiss Against my lips..' The sweetheart in my arms slowly closed his eyes and I placed him on the cot and patted his head gently. I heard the door opening so I made my way back to the lobby, still focusing on the lyrics of the song.

Feelings I don't know how to identify increase the panic, I feel like I'm losing a part of me, and the last thing I see is Gia trying to get my attention. I need him, I think falling into a lonely darkness.

I lean against the wall taking a deep breath, trying to calm myself down, I’m on the verge of a panic attack… Why am I like this? just the mere thought of the past and I’m on the verge of passing out? that’s behind me, I’m not in Boston anymore. He cannot find me in Chicago. There is no way he could. =========== Two days later “If I got locked away. And we lost it all today. Tell me honestly, would you still love me the same? If I showed, you, my flaws. If I couldn't be strong Tell me honestly, would you still love me the same?” I sing and dance in the mirror while drying my hair.

What the fuck? My heart almost lurched out of my chest and it was truly a horrible feeling. I leaned backwards when I saw only few inches of distance between us. He was tall and very much blocking my only escape. Sudden panic surged inside me at that realization. Him coming up here did not mean good. He was going to do something. Oh God. "What...is it?" I asked him, nervousness creeping up in my voice as I eyed him. His lips twitched into another smirk and I realized that I might just have to slap him or punch him, if that was the only way to make it out alive. I wasn't good in throwing punches, but I could definitely try.

Something' feels broke, need to fix it I cry out for help, do they listen? I'ma be alone until it's finished This is the part where I tell you I'm fine, but I'm lyin' I just don't want you to worry This is the part where I take all my feelings and hide 'em 'Cause I don't want nobody to hurt me I can't breathe, I'm waiting for the exhale Toss my pain with my wishes in a wishing well Still no luck, but oh, well I still try even though I know I'm gon' fail

Anna Panic hits me hard, like a freight train running me over at top speed. Am I on drugs? Is this a dream? Something has to be happening because Blake can’t have just said what I think he said to me. “W-what?” I stammer as my throat begins to constrict and the tears begin to well up in my eyes. “You what?” Blake is hanging his head and not looking at me. I try to take a deep breath, but my lungs quiver and everything shakes. It feels like I’m choking on life itself.

*singing* Why is it so hard for you To properly See me trying I get shocked to see How much I get hurt because of you My days are a struggle Even my dreams are painful If it was you How would it be If these crazy days became yours If you break down as much as me Will you know? All the pain that fills me To the point where my heart is about to explode How much I want you If it was you I would just love me If you break down as much as me Will you know?

Her laughter still had sadness written over it but I was gonna do anything possible to wipe it out. Easier said than done. Well, start with the drive home which erupted her sadness more, playing Adele’s Someone Like You. I always paid her a glance each minute off the road. Her tension seemed to rise more as the song reached its climax. The climax--I mean, my climax. ‘Who would have known how bitter sweet this coulda taste...’

But again no one is me. I can't make it stop But I can't hold anymore. I'm losing myself slowly As days passing by lately I don't know Until, how long. I can hold on I can't sleep at nights The overthinking is not fine But I can't help it I want everything to stop please These days people scare me I can't look them into eyes These days I can't eat Because I don't feel at ease I know I'm not alone I have people around me But they don't seem to notice

But I know he is going to leave. But I don't want him to. Is it bad? It's good to have someone around and only want him around. What the fuck does it even mean? 'Strangers Killing my lonely nights with strangers And when they leave, I go back to our song, I hold on I, I, oh I Hurts like heaven, lost in the sound Buzz-cut season like you're still around Can't unmiss you and I need you now Yeah, I, I, oh I, yeah'