By The Time You Read This, I'll Be Dead Novels & Stories

Suddenly I heard something, no, they were footsteps, I was right all along, am going to be meat to someone today...tears gathered in my eyes as I was feeling pains in my heart and body, this is how I die, at least I know I at least was useful to someone even at death and then become pop to the grass which I'll fertilize, at least I was not a total waste, I had to console myself as I cried silently, I'll be eaten and digested. The foot steps kept walking towards me as I remained still, I didn't know how many people there

I wonder if I could have done more, Even though I know that we tried, I understand this is forever, I feel empty, deep inside. If only i could have told you That I love you, one more time. If only i hadn’t lost you, If only this weren’t goodbye. Mama I miss you, it's really hard here. Death changes everything. Time changes nothing. I still miss the sound of your voice, the wisdom in your advice, the stories of your life, and just being in your presence. So no, time changes nothing. I still miss you just as much today as I did the day you died.

For now, let's wait for my death. Will this just end already. I'm exhausted. I'm dying and I know it. I drowning and It hurts. It's like I'm waiting for my own end. Will it just end already. This is it. I know it. This is the end of me, there's no saving me, not anymore. So be it. I'm going to die, I accept it. I have no choice anyway, so let it be. Just let it be over quickly, I don't want to linger.

up high in the sky. 'Sky, you like sky right?' 'Yeah, that is why when I get discharged in this hospital, bring me to a sky diving okay?' 'Sure sure, i can even bring you there thousand of times to you no longet want to' 'You promised that' 'Yes i promise' ... Life in this world is too short. You will never know when will be the time for you to go. You will never knew what will be the reason of your death. When you die, you die. You will no longer live in this world.

I am done running. And the world will have to reckon with me.

Not even if I die. Never.

If I die then everything will be finished. I will find peace. My eyes slowly close as my mind goes blank. It felt nice to die. Finally…..I could… meet…my……

The doc finally said I've three months left and if I tried I can get better. Brad and granny were heartbroken, but I knew how to cheer them up with my special yummy baking. Let it be for a day only. As the days passed a thought dwelled in my mind. Never once I lived for myself. Everything I did. I did for others so I made my 'to do' list. The things I wanted to do before dying and I will do them all in my last month of December. And well I'm writing this letter in October and it will get to you probably after two months of my expiry hehe. I sound creepy right ;)

"If you do this, you'll die," "Then so be it,"

The pain in my neck was gone. I realized I could fly. My body floated through the air as light as a cloud. Drifting upward, I looked down. Below the balcony, a boy in a blue winter coat hung from a strand of bunting. His body was swaying gently in the freezing wind. His face was a bruised purple, and his wide eyes were staring blankly into the distance. Why did he look exactly like me? That was when it hit me. I was dead.