control
"If you believed that letting go wouldn't cause everything to fall apart."
"That's naive," I said.
"Maybe," Eli said. "Or maybe it's just faith. And maybe you're scared of faith because it means admitting you can't control everything by yourself."
I stood up because I needed distance. The editing suite suddenly felt too small, and Eli was too close, and I was too aware of every detail about him.
"I'm going to grab coffee," I said. "I'll be back in twenty minutes."
"Okay," Eli said, and he didn't try to stop me. "But Adrian? Running away doesn't change what you're feeling. It just postpones it."