Free To Focus 소설 & 이야기

I need freedom to build my own life. I need clarity.

I feel so relieved and excited. “There is nothing to think about, Liam. I will do it. I really need something new to focus on, and I think it’s time to invest in myself and actualize my dreams,” I admitted. I truly needed something to divert my attention from all this chaos, so there was no need to waste time contemplating it. I would do it.

"Focus. The power, it's not something you force. It's emotional. Primal. You don't think your way to it... you feel your way there." "That sounds like something out of a bad movie." "Maybe," he said, stepping closer, "but movies don't usually end with someone accidentally setting the ground on fire." My eyes snapped open. "What—" "Relax." He grinned slightly. "Didn't say it was you. Yet." I exhaled, half annoyed, half unnerved. "You're impossible." "Focus," he said again, his tone suddenly soft but commanding. "Breathe. Think about something that stirs you. Anger. Fear. Desire. Whatever it is, let it in."

My dear focus on destroying Bella Calamida. I was not chasing a “new me” or counting macros like half the people here. I wasn’t a fitness junkie obsessed with calorie burns and heart rate monitors. The gym was just… neutral ground. The one place I could move my body hard enough to quiet my brain without it feeling like work. Quieten my brain to distract me from Bryan and keep my focus on Bella, seduce Bryan, destroy Bella.

I couldn't afford to let my guard down or be distracted by anything other than the end goal. I retreated to my own space and allowed my thoughts to consume me. I had to stay strong and see this to the end. Lucas's charm and physical presence might be a little tempting, but I couldn't let it cloud my judgment. This was a business transaction, and I had to play my part with undivided focus.

He studied me for a beat, then nodded. I smiled, a little shocked that he’d agreed so easily, then gestured to the materials I’d brought. “We’re going to try something different today. These exercises are designed to help with memory retention, but they also help redirect attention when your thoughts start to spiral. I think they might help with… focus.” His brows lifted slightly. “You mean when I can’t stop thinking about things I’m not supposed to?” I didn’t answer that. I simply handed him the first worksheet.

I can’t threaten much worse than that. Focus. I need to focus. Worry less about what could be behind the curtain and more about getting free. I continued looking for anything nearby. I smiled as I realized they had left a tray near my table. And in true buffoon movie villain fashion, they left something sharp on the tray.

But free. Finally. Completely. Impossibly free.

His closed fist stopped inches away from my face. We were close to each other now as he looked at me in confusion while I looked at him with a blank expression. Suddenly, I felt the need to defend myself as I said firmly “I was a little distracted for Irena, let’s try that again” He lowered his fist and said in the same tone I just used on him “You need to focus on yourself only. Even if she got hurt by mistake, you can’t get distracted with anyone but yourself, otherwise your opponent will take you down easily when he notices that you’re not fully focused, in a real life situation I mean”

Just want, freely given. And this time, no one was keeping score.