I Can T Decide Lyrics の小説・ストーリー

Unshakable. “And now…” A slight tilt of my head. “You need to decide if you’re smart enough to walk away.”

Siri was not wrong, this whole thing will spiral out of control soon enough. “Siri, please sit down first. I know what you mean, and you are right, I just don’t see how we will get out of this situation, or achieve what we want without a lot of disagreements and heartaches. Maybe even disappointments that might stay with us all our life.”

He said, "Of course! My heart's aching for you right now. It stopped when I saw you unconscious! Jazz, promise me one thing—don't get hurt again. It breaks me to see you wounded." His words seem to make the needle marks on my arm throb all at once.

But just before he stepped out, he turned again. "You're really okay?" I parted my lips. Suddenly, a thin thread of hope rose inside me. "If I weren't okay… would you stay with me?" He paused—only for a heartbeat—then smiled. "Cammy, don't be ridiculous. Rita's still waiting for me at the hospital. Go to bed early. I'm leaving." The door closed. And I finally broke. I cried for choosing the wrong man. I cried for how foolish I was—still holding out hope for someone who had already shown me the ending.

YOU THINK ITS EASY YOU THINK I DON’T WANT TO RUN TO YOU BUT THERE ARE MOUNTAINS AND THERE ARE DOORS THAT WE CAN’T WALK THROUGH I KNOW YOU ARE WONDERING WHY? BECAUSE WE’RE ABLE TO BE JUST YOU AND ME WITHIN THESE WALLS BUT WHEN WE GO OUTSIDE YOU’RE GONNA WAKE UP AND SEE THAT IT WAS HOPELESS AFTER ALL NO ONE CAN REWRITE THE STARS HOW CAN YOU SAY YOU’LL BE MINE?

Her eyes softened as she looked shyly at Zack, her expression full of affection. My stomach twisted violently, and nausea surged through me. So this was what it felt like when heartbreak and anger numbed you so much. All that was left was the urge to throw up. However, as I listened to Zack’s inner voice, one thing became clear: I couldn’t waste time arguing. I had to escape. If these people—my so-called family—got their hands on me, my future would be nothing but darkness. Forcing myself to sound calm, I said, “I just need to step outside and cool off. I’ll be back in a minute.”

Don't what tomorrow is going to bring for us. I don't know what I'm feeling. It's all different and new and I don't know. I just hope I'm doing right. I just hope I don't regret my decision. __________________________________________________________________________

Guess, I have no other choice, huh? *****

“Are you sure about your decision? We need to prepare for any fallout.” I leaned forward, determination flooding my veins. “I’ve thought about it long and hard. It’s time to move on, for both of us.” The room fell silent, and I could feel their eyes on me, assessing my resolve. “Stay strong,” I urged myself. “You’re making the right choice.”

Please. But I don't call. Because some decisions have to be made alone. Even when alone feels like falling. Especially then.