Novel & Cerita I'm Ready To Be Hurt Again

I didn’t care if I hated him—I wasn’t leaving those things behind. I still teared up sometimes, remembering the past. Not because I loved him or thought he loved me, but because of the betrayal—being deceived, being ignorant, being blind. I’d been caught up in the spoiling and the spending, not realizing I was being used. It was a bright, sunny day—the kind that carried hope and promises. I felt it just staring at the vast field across from my office window, and a small smile touched my lips. I’d come back to work ready to take on more projects, anything to distract myself and put my life back together.

“Stop being mean to me! Stop being mean to me!” I break down in tears. My chest is stifling. It cannot contain my frustration. Why won't anything ever go my way? “Kael, what do I do?” Kael pats my back with an assuring look. “It's okay. This is not the end. You can still shift another full moon. Pull yourself together.” “What do I do? What do I do Kael…I'm so confused right now…” She sighs and without speaking another word, she just pulls me into her body. I stay there in her hands and my tears flow.

again. I am capable of devoting my heart to one person... again. I should let him heal me... again.

I'm afraid no amount of liquor is going to give me courage. Beneath the sadness and sorrow laid a burning rage that I knew, once released, would have serious repercussions. I want to hurt someone, but who do I hurt when I'm the one most at fault? And how do I face myself in the mirror after this, let alone look at Gia ever again? She must hate me, didn't she say I'd lost her already? What a mess, what a horrible mess.

He probably chased her all the way here. And just like that, the pain of their betrayal came fresh. Like the wounds had never healed, and I only threw a bandaid over a bullet hole. I grabbed my chest, a deep pain nestled inside u couldn't even breath properly. It hurt. It hurt like all those years ago. Fucking hell. I thought I healed from this. What the actual fuck is going on with me right now?

" I am drinking because of people like you. Love ? It's just a useless thing. Why do I need to love someone if in the end they will hurt me badly? It's just the same routine over and over again. You can be happy at first but sad in the end" I bow my hear and let my tears drip. I sob uncontrollably and I don't care if people are looking at me and judging me without knowing why I'm sobbing and drinking. "I'm sorry for hurting you but I swear , I truly love you" "Bullsh*t that sorry Greg ! You can't just hurt someone thinking that ' sorry' would be enough . Well, at least you said sorry while him didn't. He just leave us without any explanation or goodbye". "Who is he Grace?.

I made a stupid mistake, I wasn’t thinking clearly, and I wanted to lash out at everyone. I’ll never hurt you again, I swear, just give me a chance to fight for you. I’ll never give you reason to doubt me again. I hurt the one person I love and need more than anything in the world. I won’t ever make that mistake again, being here without you is a torture, so unbearable I can’t breathe. I can’t get you out of my head or the way you looked at me when I told you what I’d done. It was like a knife being thrust deep into my chest and turned and I know what I’ve done. You don’t need to punish me, baby, nothing is as bad as this and no punishment could come close to the pain I’m in right now withou

“I don’t want to assume anymore, I don’t want to get hurt anymore… and I don’t want to hope that soon he will love me.” ---