I Wanna Feel I Wanna Heal Novels & Stories

I just wanna free my mind and release the pain 'Cause I know now that if things don't change I'm gon' be broken, so out of place But for now, I'll accept it's okay not to be okay Now I fantasize what life could be Getting a hold of my anxiety Knowing I'm right where I'm supposed to be, oh (oh-oh) So sick of my emotions getting in the way Put 'em all aside and put 'em in the grave I don't wanna be too little too late Yeah, these emotions just can't stay Even if it hurts, I'll do all it takes I don't wanna make the same mistakes Don't wanna feel lonely, lonely So sick of my emotions, emotions Even when I'm lost inside I'm gon' let my fear subside I just wanna feel something tonight Life can hu

I want to forget about the fear and guilt and suffering we’ve been through these last several months. I want to find the mate they had taken from me. I want to rediscover her body and heal the broken little wraith we pulled from the back of that truck. I want to heal my own broken heart, and escape from the pit of despair I keep falling into when I think about our future. Maybe this is how we’ll do it. Maybe this is how we'll heal and forget.

"I miss Ethan. But I can’t run after him with broken legs. I have to learn to stand first. To walk again. Even if it’s slow. I’m not ready to ask for him back. I need to figure out who I am without him." I paused, then added: "I’ve spent so long being what someone else needed, I don’t know what I need for myself. Maybe that’s what scares me the most. Maybe healing isn’t about fixing what broke, it’s about finding something I’ve never had." I looked at those words for a long time. Then I added one more line. "I want to feel like I’m enough, for me.'' I underlined it twice and closed the book. For once, I didn’t feel like I was falling apart. I felt like I was beginning.

But you stayed patient, standing there, Gentle hands and steady care. No grand games, no cruel dare, Just quiet truth laid soft and bare. And now your voice lives everywhere— Inside my thoughts, beneath my stare. One forehead kiss, and I swear, The world felt lighter than despair. Maybe healing starts somewhere Between being chosen and being aware That love was never meant to tear— It was always meant to meet me there.

And I know it'll take time to heal, to move forward. ###############

All the times I thought I was alone, and I never really was and now I never will be again. As I feel my Empress Spirit surge, I push my healing light into every link that is tied to me. I feel it moving rapidly lighting up every thread like a Christmas tree and as the light reaches the people on the other side I can feel their pain and their injuries. Some minor and others more severe. I command the light to heal them all. Every cut, every bruise, every break, every wound. I feel them all healing at the same time and as I do, I feel myself getting stronger.

I told her about the guilt that followed me everywhere — guilt for leaving him when he was already broken, guilt for still loving him after the betrayal with Lila, guilt for feeling happy for even a few hours during our night market outing. “I want to heal,” I whispered, voice cracking. “I want to wake up one day and feel like myself again. Strong. Independent. Proud of the woman I am. But I’m terrified that healing means forgetting the way he looked at me. The way he made me feel seen. The way he loved me even when he was at his lowest.”

Jocelyn What did I want? "I want to be protected emotionally and physically," I stated. There were some very deep wounds and secrets I carried. Those characteristics were very important to me. If, after I had done my part in helping them heal, maybe I could rely and trust them to help me on my journey to heal as well. "Also, I've been caught in a limbo for a while. I am rather lonely and am looking to find myself again. I want to be able to have fun, to enjoy life and to explore my sexuality and desires in a safe and judgment free zone."

Engulfed by the height of fear Loud creeping mantra I hear In the midst of blowing wind Within the huge prison I seal A butterfly knocked on my empty garden Sprinkling gold dust on my dim den Nevertheless, I shunned From the colors offered in her palms Because I need healing From the monsters I was dealing Yet embraced by the wings of ease My world is now at peace She is my healing She is my cure She gives me feeling My pain I succeed to endure I found my remedy in her eyes

If I could choose anything I would be good and bad one day I would fall into love and stay Would fall into love And it's not fair I keep on writing a sequel to stories I know that are not there I don't wanna die but I don't wanna live like this I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel Something really real so that I can really Feel like a person again I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel Something really real so that I can really Feel like a person again If I am telling the truth Watching my friends break their hearts into two Makes me jealous, I know that it's cruel