If He Had Been With Me Novels & Stories

"But you are with me now", I told him suppressing a smile. "Yes. I was supposed to run alone and leave you at home. But now we are here together because of you", he said to me. "Are you sad that you are here with me?", I asked him. "I'm not sad. How can I be sad? The only thing I wanted in those lonely days was you. Now you are with me. I don't care about the consequences. But I know that there will be hell to pay for this", he said closing his eyes.

If only he were by my side all these years… "To be honest, I am not but…." I was still speaking when he interrupted me. "I'm coming." My eyes widened in shock as I stared at him. Was I hearing things or did he just decide to come with us? "What?" I wanted to make sure what I heard was right.

before? At that moment I realized that if I had Keir in my life from the beginning... everything would be completely different. ⋅• ♱ •⋅

“Fine. Okay. Let’s do this.” Deep down, I was scared. But Caspian would be with me. And as long as he was by my side… maybe I didn’t have to be afraid.

I had missed him deeply. And in that moment, I knew…he would not face this alone. Not with me, not with all of them by his side. For now, that was enough.

Even when I woke up, I knew he was with Miles, and I was grateful that he was. And that pain… it didn’t just go away.

Wondering why he couldn’t shake the feeling that he knew me. He would remember. I believed it. And when he did, I’d be ready.

But now, I was consumed by the feeling that my departure was the reason he died. What if I had stayed? What if I had been there for him? Would he still be alive? Even if he died, would he have died happy? Tears streamed down my face as I relived the memories we shared. I remembered his smile, his laughter, his unwavering support. I felt like I had abandoned him when he needed me most.

It felt like he was finally paying attention, like maybe he was ready to be a part of this. "You didn’t have to come with me," I said, glancing up at him. "I could've managed alone." Kai shrugged, his hands casually shoved in his pockets as he walked alongside me. "I wanted to," he said, his voice surprisingly soft. "It's... my child too."

I wanted to ask what he was thinking, but I didn’t push. For now, I just wanted to enjoy this—this moment, this day, this life that I finally had. And with him by my side, I knew I would.