If You So Desire My Despair Novels & Stories

Lucian (Luke) Wright is a billionaire who after an irresponsible act, tries to prove himself to his grandfather by disguising as an ordinary employee at Wright AutoTech Motors. Ava Williams is a smart and talented marketer who faces challenges in male dominated industry, and dislikes Luke. Luke and Ava are tasked with securing a major investor for the company, leading to a competitive and romantic, tension-filled journey. Complications arise as Ava struggles with a sexist boss and learns about Luke's secret. She feels betrayed and it leads to a dramatic confrontation. Will Ava and Luke work out their issues, clear up misunderstandings, and confront their feelings for each other??

After being saved from Mr. Stone, the one who used her as his personal slave, Clair faces days of PTSD. However she is too shy and anxious to share her problems with her well wishers. And to make things worse, she meets Levi, some one who she falls for. However, she refrains herself from dating him because she fears ruining it. Levi is adamant on winning the girl of his dreams, despite the hurdles in front of him. There was one moment that he thought he had won her. That his dreams had finally come true. However, life had other plans for them. Will they ever be able to over come her fear and face her troubles? Will they be able to overcome the troubles that life throws at them and finally be together?

They swore to destroy each other. Then he whispered: "A deal is a deal. Tonight, you belong to me." Hockey captains Damian Volkov and Sebastian Montgomery have been locked in a brutal three‑year rivalry. On the ice, they try to break each other. Off the ice, they trade threats in darkened hallways. But when Sebastian finally wins the championship with a bone‑crushing hit, he collects a secret debt Damian doesn't remember making. That night, in the shadows of the locker room, Sebastian reveals a blood oath sworn on his father's grave: One day I'll own you. The price? One night of absolute surrender. No rules. No safe word. Damian expects cruelty. Instead, Sebastian drags him to the abandoned rink where Damian's father used to beat him. He forces Damian to skate until his feet bleed—then bandages the wounds with unexpected gentleness. Every command is a twisted therapy. Every touch blurs the line between hatred and obsession. But someone is watching. A blackmailer has a video of their most intimate moment. Damian's father is faking a stroke to manipulate him. And the journalist who shot them is just the beginning. As the league tries to ban them, as friends become enemies, as a bullet arrives with a note that says "Game seven. You're dead," Damian and Sebastian must decide: Is their bond a trap—or the only thing that can save them? When hatred bleeds into obsession, who will be the first to surrender?

ASTRID YU, a washed-up, burnt-out former child actress, starts a YouTube vlog in an attempt to stay relevant in PH mainstream media. She collaborates with a local coffee shop, Brew Blends, so she could make her content for one of her vlog's many series (“Be a Barista with Me!"). However, she gains a following for all the wrong reasons—her viewers ship her with the coffee shop's owner, ENRIQUE LEE. Which would've been fine… if he hadn't been the infamous high school sweetheart she left behind for the sake of her acting career. Not to mention that after all this time, Astrid is still deeply in love with him. And Lee? Well, Lee hates her guts.

Cara is a first time divorcee settling down to a life of quiet independence, but a strange attraction to her friend's yummy son is threatening to make her lose her senses. 19-year old Lance is your typical teenager – raging hormones and all. He's stupid enough to get attracted to a single mom twice his age. Call it love or lust, but Lance's mother, Carol, calls it forbidden. Carol declares her son out of bounds to cougars, but her friend can't keep her hands off him. Eventually, it falls to Lance to decide whose side he would take. Will he choose his mother? Or his lover?

"You have been a very bad girl wife"...Alyssa Jones is in love with Carl Miller for as long as she can remember.Dalton Miller is in love with Alyssa for as long as he can remember.What will happen when their parents decided to marry Alyssa with Dalton who is her best friend and in love with her and Carl with Amara, Alyssa's sister?Will Alyssa accept her best friend as her husband or will she continue to love Carl?Will Dalton make Alyssa fall in love with him? Relationships will get messy. Hearts will break but among all these will Alyssa be able to find her one true love?

Opposites Attract? Maybe! This is a story where two totally opposite individuals come across each other. They start from cursing each other. The only thing which is common in them is their profession. Both are doctors. Let's see how far do they go. When one is absolutely fierce and outspoken and other is a man of few words who is never in the spotlight and likes his peace. She comes into his life as a storm and messes with his peace. Get ready to join Dr.Shanaya Oheroi and Dr.Aarav Kapoor on this journey from being strangers to everything for each other.

"Melonie Starling, I, Bolin Crescent, reject you as my rightful mate." His jawline tightened, and his arms rolled into a fist, squeezed angrily by each word. Every word that departed from his mouth felt like salt thrown into an open wound, and I became so weak that my entire body shook. Witnessing the pain of the rejection I'm going through, Alpha Bolin said, "You'd be a joke and unfit to be my Luna, so make it easier for yourself and also reject me as your mate." ******** Melonie is anxious to find her mate, the one who will give her what she has been longing for her entire life: to be loved. Discovering under the full moon that her alpha, Bolin, is her mate, she knows right away that he would never accept her as his Luna much as a mate. Alpha Bolin rejects her on the spot and uses his alpha voice, forcing her, against her will, to also reject him and flee from her, breaking every hope Melonie had in him. How will Melonie carry on, knowing the wolf she has been waiting for her entire life to give her what she has always dreamed of, choose to share it with another she-wolf who has made her life a living hell?

Synopsis: Tess, a 25-year old free spirited artist, lives in Willow Creek, where she owns a small art studio. She's always felt a connection to nature, and her art reflects that. One night, she meets Liam, the 30 year old alpha of the local werewolf pack, at a bar. He's brooding and intense, and Tess is drawn to him. They have a wild, passionate night together, but when she wakes up the next morning, he's gone. As Tess navigates her feelings for Liam, she's also dealing with the attention of Fred, a 28 year old human guy who's been in love with her for years. Meanwhile, Cath, a 27 Year old werewolf who's been interested in Liam for years, becomes increasingly obsessed with destroying Tess. As the story unfolds, Tess discovers she's pregnant, and she's not sure who the father is Liam or Fred. She decides to keep it a secret, unsure of how to navigate the situation. But when her life is threatened by Cath, her powers surface, and she transforms into a full white wolf. Liam, who has been searching for his fated mate, realizes that Tess is the one. He must navigate his feelings for her, all while protecting her and their child from those who would seek to harm

“I didn’t take you,” he murmurs, voice low and dangerous. “I claimed what was promised to me.” My pulse stutters. “I am not yours.” A slow, lethal smile curves his lips as he steps closer—too close—his shadow wrapping around me. “You were always mine, Ivy,” he says, each word deliberate, heavy with threat and something far more dangerous. “Your father sealed your fate the day he made that promise.” Fear should make me run. It should make me hate him more. But instead, my breath catches as his hand lifts to my chin, forcing me to meet his gaze. “And if I refuse?” I whisper. His eyes darken, voice dropping to a husky murmur that sends a shiver down my spine. “Then fight me,” he says. “Run from me. Try to hate me.” His thumb brushes my jaw, slow and possessive. “But no matter what you do… you’ll still come back to me.” My heart pounds—furious, terrified, and traitorously aware of the heat building between us. Because the most dangerous part of Tyrance isn’t his power. It isn’t his violence. It isn’t the secrets he keeps. It’s the way my body trembles when he’s near. The way his voice pulls me closer when every instinct screams to run.