If You So Desire My Despair Novels & Stories

Jane lived her entire life in the shadows. All this time, she only knew how to bend her head down, to make sure she wouldn't offend anyone or caught eyes as she worked for her aunt and uncle as a laundry maid. Until one day she was kidnapped and sold. "Our young master is blind." the butler announced to her. "And he would need entertainment." "Entertainment...?" Was this a child? "Without entertainment... our young master could get violent." Jane turned stiff as she saw beyond the closed door, a face of a man who was smiling back at her with his gleaming platinum blond hair. The way he looked at her felt almost as if he could see her even though he's blind.

When I was ten, Jonathan Cooper saved me and told me he would protect me for life. When I was 15, I met William Reed. He also told me he would protect me forever. Yet, the year I turned 23, the two men who swore to always keep me safe threw me into the ocean for the sake of their true love.

Marie Samantha Fortalejo was the average girl, with steady job as waitress and sharing an apartment with her best friend Linda, and living in Manhattan, New York. Iñigo Callan was a powerful cold man, then meant business when it comes to his powerful company. Iñigo never had a time for girls nor did he never want to get involved in one. But when her mother throws an ice ball party at his building, Samantha stumbled in a wearing blue beautiful dress. Iñigo couldn't help but feel captivated by the beautiful woman behind the mask.

The marriage of Marcus Stephen and Elysia Alice is a sale, for Marcus Stephen to strengthen his position in the Stephen and Stephen family. “Marcus Stephen, you are the one forced in this love… Me too. We go together for good. After a year, everyone went their separate ways, owed no one. ” The sentences and words that Marcus Stephen said were very simple, but he did not know that seemingly simple sentences were arrows that pierced her aching heart. It is often said: "Love is a game where whoever loves more loses..." And she was destined to be a loser from the very beginning. She secretly loved him, secretly loved him for a long time, a love that seemed forever without hope. Marrying him, I thought I was the luckiest person in the world. She thinks that she can have feelings for him, he will move and return her feelings even a little. When she had a baby with him, he thought he would turn to look at her a few times. But… it was forever just her thoughts, the word “thinking” would never come true. She was obstinate in her feelings, also stubbornly carrying the pain of leaving, stubbornly giving birth. People often say "Only when you lose it do you know what is important". When she goes to find her cherished love, that's when she disappears. What will this love story, two people who have experienced tragedy do to each other?

Ellie and Arthur played the role as siblings since they entered in the orphanage until the Eurwens adopted them. It didn't become so easy for them to pretend at all knowing Arthur has a growing affection for her. He sees her not a fake sibling but the woman who he wants to be with in the future. It became hard for Ellie to accept his confession where it left her no choice but to fly away in Canada. Due to their secrets and pretending, everything changed and turned their life upside down when Ellie returned after ten years.

Irina Madrigal, the youngest daughter of the Madrigals, is caught in between the wars of El Salvador when she is kidnapped by the ruthless maffia Lord, El Russo who is on a quest to avenge his father's death. Two families are known to rule El Salvador; the Madrigals and El Puerto (the Merchants). The Merchants and Madrigals had a pact for peace that they would marry from each other's family. And the oldest daughter of the Madrigal family was proposed to marry the oldest son of the Madrigal home, but after her sudden death on her way to visit the Merchants, Padre Madrigal, her father becomes upset. He swears war on the Merchant family, but before he can do anything, the Boys lose their father too. El Russo, the oldest son comes of age years later and is ready to avenge his father's death. He finds himself tangled in a love hate relationship with the youngest daughter of the Madrigal family. But the real enemy remains unknown... Will their love survive? Find out!

Kaida's life is a delicate balance of survival and secrecy. As the daughter of a fallen Alpha, she’s determined to carve her own path, unaware that her destiny is bound to the one person she strives to avoid—Alpha Atlas, her fated mate. Torn between her growing feelings for a mysterious lover who consumes her nights and the intense connection she feels around Atlas, Kaida finds herself caught in a web of emotions she can’t untangle. For Atlas, the choice is no easier. Protecting his pack means solidifying alliances, even if it means standing by Akira,the arrogant girl he is forced to make a luna. But his wolf’s relentless pull toward Kaida threatens to unravel everything he’s built, forcing him to question where his loyalty truly lies: with his pack, or with his mate. When secrets are exposed and passions ignite, Kaida and Atlas must face an impossible choice. Can they overcome the obstacles and embrace the mate bond?

In the fifth year of our bland marriage, I receive a message that my husband has booked a hotel room with a woman. Within the next second, seductive pictures of me show up in the work group chat. In the pictures, I seduced my husband but failed. My colleagues in the group chat mock me by saying, "She gave Mr. Reed an ultimatum and forced him to marry her. He was forced to break up with the woman he loves." "Mr. Reed put up with her for five years. It only makes sense that he could no longer resist and decide to reunite with his lover." My sick father dies out of shock, yet my husband does not show up to his funeral. That night, I inform Belinda that I wish to divorce her son. "Back then, you told me that I'm Caleb's blessing in life. You said that he'd have endless success if we were to marry. "As long as I married Caleb for five years, you promised to pay for my father's medical fees. Now that the time is up, you should let me go too."

Karina Leticia had just been accepted as an intern at Delux Corp. But she never expected that her boss would be none other than her ex-boyfriend: Saka Ravindra! Karina was shocked. Back then, Saka was just a nerdy guy she dated only to take advantage of. On the other hand, Saka had never forgotten what Karina did to him—and he vowed to make her suffer. When Karina found herself cornered, Saka offered her a secret affair in exchange for billions. But in return, Karina had to endure a life that felt like Hell. She agreed to become Saka’s mistress—despite the rumors that he was already married. Under Saka’s power and control, Karina surrendered—unable to run, unable to resist. So… what will become of Karina?

He's ruthless every man wants to be him or the fear him, every women wants to fuck him. He has the largest mafia he could kill anyone in a blink of an eye. She is the Beauty every girl envoys. She can seduce any man, what happens when she seduces the wrong kind of man. He falls head over heels For her. he would give up anything and everything. She didn't know what she's gotten into. She gets pregnant and flees never wanting that life for her child, she steels his money and heart. He will find her and he vows to destroy her. What happens when it's been years and he finally finds her, will he kill her in cold blood or will he see her and his child and decided to have Mercy. The meet when she was 19 and he was 22, she's now 24 and he's 26. ☽ I cum on his mouth and he slurps up every last thing. But he doesn't stop he keeps sucking and licking my clit harshly. My legs start to shake and I try to close my legs but he holds them open. "It's t-to much" my words come out shaky. "Your gonna take it like a good girl ok."