If You So Desire My Despair Novels & Stories

As desire took over, only my ragged, low-pitched moans were heard in the cornfield. I rocked myself hard as the action sent jolts of pleasure straight to my heart and eased the core of my hunger just a little. Tears of lust slipped out from the corner of my eyes, driven by the torment of desire. My eyes were red-rimmed as I desperately clung to the thick stalks. Doing this out in the open furled a secret thrill. For a moment, it felt like the world around me vanished, while I was alone and recklessly letting go of everything I had been holding back.

“Live well so she can be happy there. So that her sacrifices for you all this time will not be in vain.” Hardin nodded. “I think I have to end it all.” He held Amel’s hand. “I don’t deserve you. I’m not a good man.” He then stood up. “Hardin!” Amel shouted. She chased after Hardin who had already walked away. “Is this what you said about wanting to take care of me? You said you liked me but is this all you like me?” Amel asked in disbelief. “Are you tired of me?” Hardin paused. He turned around. “As you know. I’m a mess. I’m an ex-addict. I don’t know where I’m going with my life. You’re going to regret it if you stay with me.”

“I am a sinner, take me Lord, I am ready to go…” “I deserve this… I’m sorry…” “I don’t want to live anymore!” Each voice thundered louder than the last, drowning me deeper than the water itself. My chest burned, my thoughts blurred… until everything went quiet. But just before the darkness claimed me, I heard another sound… a loud splash. Someone had jumped in.

My fingernails that used to flip musical scores were all broken. I clenched my teeth and used all my might to strangle the old man. However, I got slapped in return. He stepped on my abdomen and beat me with all he had. He cursed me for being disobedient and invited all the other single men in the village to his place. I was terrified and cursed them all to burn in hell. Days passed as my attempts to kill myself failed continuously. I was slowly going insane. Finally, my bodyguard appeared. He always looked so serious.

I burn with desire for him. His smile stretches. “I don’t give a damn.” His lips melt on mine. We're just horrible people.

I closed my eyes in despair. The ache of longing and the weight of unresolved emotions lingered within me as I sought closure. I still remember how much in the depths of despair I still yearned for him to visit me in the hospital, but alas, he never did. The memory of that day remains vividly etched in my mind, an indelible mark upon my heart.

All I desire is a life lived with you. ~ A. Gupta . VIOLET NO one told me that an unfulfilled desire can make you go crazy. Why am I saying that? Because I think I was turning into one. The smallest of things were making me angry and the barest of touches from him were making me mad with the way I hungered for him. All I wanted was to grab a fistful of his dark hair and lose myself in those sherry eyes and have all those fantasies that were keeping me awake at night come true. To finally have what I couldn’t for the last two years and for the days that I spent in my captivity.

It is in these moments that I feel alive, my soul dancing on the edge of oblivion. Call me the devil or a beast, but yearnings roaming like a hollow being made me lose my mind in the depths of despair. The pain and suffering I inflict upon others is a reflection of the torment I endure within myself, a desperate attempt to feel something, anything, in this desolate existence.

"Wonderful." I retreated, and soon I took off my underwear too, leaving me completely naked. This girl will now regret conspiring against me. I climbed to bed, hastily covering her petite figure, careful not to crush her now. She smelled fresh and soft. "You will regret coming here, girl." Anahita's pov I am standing in a desert. all by myself and thirsty A devilish laugh was heard from far away. "You will regret..." I didn't hear anything beyond that : "Aidan, Natalia, somebody get me out of here."