Novel & Cerita It Hurt Itself In Confusion

It hurts so bad that those same two people saw that it was okay to hurt me like that. I still can't wrap my mind around everything that has happened. I couldn't stop thinking about how everything just fell apart in a matter of seconds. It dont make sense to me, and it will never make sense to me. Even when I think back about it all, I can't find where I went wrong.

How had I managed to fuck up so bad? Scarlett’s face haunted me, her hurt expression burned into my memory like a brand. I never wanted to hurt her, but my words had cut her deeper than any physical blow ever could. The realization of what I had done clawed at my insides, a relentless torment that refused to be silenced. I growled in frustration, the groist sound torn from the depths of my soul.

When I don't answer he gets angry and raises his voice. "Tell me!" He booms. "No one" I say honestly. "I did it to myself" His anger disappears and he looks like I just killed a kitten. "Why would you hurt yourself?" He says sadly. " I don't do it on purpose. It's to..... Well..... it's to keep me in" Hunter looks confused "I sleepwalk, so I handcuff myself to my bed at home" "You didn't sleepwalk last night" he states. "No I didn't" I say slowly.

~[CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE]~ Life’s hectic. Believe me. Some days it brought smiles, other days, it pulled confusion, Frustration, utter dejection. I wasn't the weakest, nor was I the strongest, but surely could feel. I could feel weak, hurt, and even now I still was hurt. Now, the reason for that being, I don't know, but I knew how much I hurt—I was hurt that there was nothing more that could happen in what I had found myself crossed in. More hurt that there was nothing I could do about it.

SERAPHINA’S POV WARNING: CHAPTER CONTAINS SCENES OF SELF-HARM I’m petrified for the first few seconds, unable to say or do anything but stand and be horrified by the sight of what I’ve done to him. I swore over and over again that this wouldn’t happen, that no one else would get hurt, and yet I did it. He groans painfully, pulling himself out of the indentation in the wall and dusting off the bits of wall debris clinging to his clothes before he looks at me again, more confused and shocked than ever.

I needed numbers to reshuffle, letters to rearrange themselves into something familiar, something that fit the life I’d lived for thirty-five years. “We already did,” the nurse said gently. “I’m sorry.” Sorry. That word did more damage than the rest. Something shifted behind my eyes. A fracture spreading quietly, methodically. Confusion crept in first, followed closely by doubt — thick, heavy doubt that pressed down on memories I’d never questioned before.

This confusion hurt; it felt like my insides were being torn apart piece by piece. As I slowly tried to sit up, I tried to turn my thoughts away. But the pain was too much to bear. It went from my back to my legs. It felt like my body was hanging on to the memory of what happened. It hurt so badly that I had to bite my lip to keep from moaning.

{Ragna’s POV} My head hurts. And my eyes were swollen without being physically swollen. They felt swollen while being normal. I don’t know if that makes sense. I haven’t cried heavily in a long time, you know. And I also haven’t felt this confused in a long time. But right now, everything around me was unclear. It was as if the world had suddenly turned gibberish and was mixed with Greek, a language I didn’t understand. Sigh.

My lips pursed to hide their trembling as I left, heart hammering so much it hurt. It hurt badly. Because I'd broken something I was already fixing.

His own reason was that he didn't know how. Alvaro was traumatized, although it was slowly disappearing. There was a time when it could invade Alvaro's mind. Alvaro spluttered in annoyance, hugging Kean's neck even tighter. "Where did you come from? Oh yeah, are you used to it? Or, brother, not coming home again?" "Anywhere." Kean cleared his throat for a moment. "Ordinary? I don't know; I'm confused." "Why are you confused?" Alvaro was surprised. "When you're with them, you must feel something, right?"