Novel & Cerita Story Of Self Harm

I argued back. "Mates fight. Both our brains are fucked up, baby. That's why it gets so explosive. And I wish--I wish we had some way to control ourselves in the moment, but we don't. So you need to promise me that even after we fight, you won't go off and do something stupid. Like saying that I only need you for your body. Or--or hurt yourself," My eyes widened, my head jerking up. I never told anyone about the self-harm."Y-you know?" I asked, my voice shaking.

She had gotten clean for awhile and it would be a habit but not half as bad as it was right now. Her self-harm was the only reason she got up and went to work everyday. If she didn't, she would just quit and tried not to go back there for anything ever again out of shame. The constant agony inside was the other silent killer. Her heart was freezing itself to death until it would eventually break from heartache. The heartbreak would be the one thing that would release her of this suffering. Or would it?

It was usually caused by the people who came into my life, took whatever they wanted and left me to put myself back together again. Things would seem okay for a while and I'd reach that moment of hope, for my life to turn out good, but fate had other plans for me when it was no more people harming me, but it was me doing that. I was now the one harming myself unknowingly, until my eyes opened up almost too late and I found myself fighting for my life in a hospital.

I had no superhuman strength, I was cold all the time, and my body didn't heal as fast. Not knowing how to deal with the emotional pain and all the stress in my life, I started to self-harm. At first, it was minor cuts to my wrists. Then gradually, the cuts became deeper and deeper. The physical pain helped me to cope with my emotional one. In a way, it helped me forget. Till one night, things went too far.

No scars either. They probably weren’t that deep to vanish within days. I can't help but think that she might have done it last time because of stress. A tough way of coping up with sadness. People's coping mechanisms vary, and maybe to her--it's cutting. Self-harming would never be right but we do wrong all the time anyway. People do shitty things to cope with pain. Some resort to drinking alcohol, some do drugs, some smoke cigarettes, some would even inflict pain on someone else and some just hurt themselves. Either way, everyone's intoxicated.

I felt numb and detached from my surroundings, lost in a sea of self-pity and despair. Tears streamed down my face as I tried to recall the events that led me to this point. I remembered feeling overwhelmed by the stress of my life, the weight of responsibilities and expectations crushing me . I felt alone, abandoned by those I loved and unable to find solace in the world around me. My mind was consumed by thoughts of self-harm, and I had reached for anything within reach to try and hurt myself. The sharp edges of a broken glass, the metal of a razor blade, anything to feel the physical pain that would somehow ease the emotional agony that I had been experiencing.

Voices that always pushed me to the break of my psychopathy, voices that were always there anytime I tried to end this fucking suffering and kill myself, even though I always end up chickening out at the last moment. "Anytime I tried to end my fucking suffering at last" Repeating the words and letting it fade away from my lips, indeed that was the horrible truth and this was never my first attempt of trying to do this, Oh God it wasn't. Shifting my gaze back to the object that would take me away from reality, with a painful grin creeping up on the side of my lips, the bitter truth to this one guy story was that not only have I held a knife up across my wrist, but also have I slashed it and w

"Self-harm is not a disease. It's a spell that is cast on us in the weakest moments." [Jacqueline] .... [Jacqueline's pov] Sometimes I love that time passes. That it won't stop for anyone. Because sometimes getting through a night alive is the most audacious thing. Like last night I felt the need to just kill myself. The need to remove the pain of these sufferings. Is death that horrible? Or is it because people have never been able to get through the real hidden secret of it that they blubber against deaths. Have you ever felt that? The feeling of just get the day over. So you won't have to stay in the same place that is hurting you? Huh. What I am even asking, everyone, does feels that. No

“She left because I was obsessed. I didn’t know how to stop. I beat up her boyfriend. Put him in the hospital.” Damien didn’t move. “They locked me in rehab,” I continued, voice trembling. “I escaped. I went back and did it again. I ruined his face.” My breath hitched. “I almost killed her.” Silence filled the room. I laughed weakly. “I’m not proud of it. I hate that version of me. But it exists.” Damien finally spoke. “And?” I looked up, confused. “And you lived,” he said calmly. “You got help. You survived yourself.”

“I don’t… I don’t do that anymore if you're curious. When I want to relapse I only just hold it as a way to distract myself but there are times where I want to do it and if I keep having it here it’ll just convince me to continue to harm myself.” I can tell Elliot was still confused so I continued. “I haven’t done it for a year and I don’t want my mom to see me like that. She can barely handle me now and I’ve been in worse states that I really can’t be handled.” I tell him and I look down at my hands. “I’m only telling you because I want to trust you. I want to be normal and do things that everyone can do.”