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“We need to talk.” He doesn’t look up, but his voice is cold, like ice. “You had your chance, Hera. You chose to lie.” Tears spill down my cheeks, but I swallow hard, trying to keep it together. I can't afford to show weakness,not now. “I know I messed up,” I say, my voice raw. “I took the hit without knowing it was you. When I found out, I couldn’t do it. I’ve been chasing leads, digging into Kade, trying to stop this. I should’ve told you. I’m so sorry.”

I won’t tell them anything. Telling them would only make them feel shitty. Yes, they’ll hate me but the knowledge of what I’ve done would only burden them. If I can, I hope they never find out about me and this terrible version of myself I’ve discovered here.

Recall when I said I could handle it? I lied.

“Is everything alright? You seem…I’m not sure.” “Everything’s fine,” I say, feeling stupid. I shouldn’t have come here. I should have been less impulsive. But at least I know the truth, this is what I tell myself. If I hadn’t come, I wouldn’t have known. “I’m sorry for coming.”

What will I break which is already broken. And now if I will try, too, it will not be like it used to be. “Mom...” I try to say. “No. What will happen if you tell him it has nothing to do with you. Logan deserves to know the truth. If you don’t tell him, it’s your fault. So tell him.” She says and I nod. I know it’s my fault. But am I not having the punishment of my fault? Then what is the use of telling him now?

I knew I couldn’t do that to my Mommy’s sister. “I am disappointed in you, Akemi. Then, what now... you will accuse my daughter of killing you? What the hell, Akemi!” Tita Ingrid’s voice, dripping with venom , ran through my mind if she were to find out the truth. “It is fine, Sean. Don’t be sorry about it,” Marl said seriously. I shook my head, guilty about it all. I couldn’t just say I had made a mistake by mentioning Marl. That would be suspicious.

"If anything goes wrong, you will be blamed," Oh no...

“They’ll come for you.” The weight of it settled fully then. Because I hadn’t just exposed her. I had sent the truth..to the wrong people.

"It's not my place to tell you this but one thing I'll be very clear about. If you lie, they'll know. They always know." Blake's words ring in my ear as a warning.

I let go of every doubt and let Benita in again. If only I had known better, I would have realized that was a grave mistake on my part.