Kenapa Belum Siap Aku Kehilangan Dirimu Mga Nobela at Kwento

I knew the void would always be there, a silent ache that time couldn't heal. “We shouldn't –” “But why Oneka? Give me one good reason.” He looked devastated. “I need time to think. I have my issues.” “Alright. But know that I will wait. For you. Always.” Cameron gave me a lingering look, a mix of sadness and understanding. That was all I could bear to see before I disappeared into the forest. Alone in the moonlit night, I couldn't shake the feeling of loss. The unspoken connection, the stolen moments, were now locked away. The longing would always remain, a silent echo of a love that could never be.

I wasn't ready to let go of the mate that I had waited so long for, and so, For me, it was the former because I wasn't willing to let her go yet.

A tiny frown mars her brow, and she chews on her bottom lip, as if she’s stopping herself from saying something, so I continue. “For the last few days, I tried to rehearse what I would say when I saw you again, but nothing could convey just how miserable and unhappy I’ve been without you. Nothing I can do right now could ever take away what we’ve lost, but please believe me when I say that I will do anything to make up for what I’ve done. The apologies may all seem empty or come to mean nothing to you over time, but please-”

Because no, I couldn’t. “You still want her?” she asked suddenly. “More than anything.” She glanced at me. “Even now?” I nodded. “Especially now.” She sighed, long and low. “Then you’d better figure out who the hell you’re supposed to be without her. Because the man you were? He lost her.” Her words settled into me, heavy like the hangover waiting for me tomorrow. I leaned back, shutting my eyes again. The silence returned, stretching between us like fog.

All my happiness was gone, and it was replaced by a feeling of emptiness and despair. My cries increased as my thoughts drifted to the future. A future without him, my only love. I began to imagine myself attending an event and he won’t be with me. I won’t be able to talk to him about my day or my feelings when I’m down. “Why? Moon Goddess why?? He was my mate, he was mine. Why did you take him from me?" I screamed at the top of my lungs and my tears poured like a storm without an end. I just lost a part of myself and I didn’t know how to move on.

Relm instructs, waving his hand. Swallowing drily, I look down at the needle stuck in my arm. My blood slowly travels down the tubes, a horrifying sight. I have a limited amount of time before I start to lose focus then eventually pass out. I need to get out of here. "What about my mate?" Keo smirks, clearly not entertained by the mention of the term mate. "He has a long time to get over you." "At least tell him I love him..." I whisper. If I never see him again...I don't even want to think about such a horrible thought. We haven't even got a chance to truly be with each other knowing we are mates. This isn't fair.

I felt like if she disappears from my sight she will be gone forever. Wala akong ibang mahingan ng tulong kundi siya. I began to pray while holding her hand. Alam Kong hindi ako maka Diyos. Pero nagmamakaawa ako sa iyo na iligtas mo ang babaeng Mahal ko. Ayos na sa akin kahit mapunta siya sa iba, I'll accept even if it hurts, just don't let her disappear in this world forever, dahil hindi ko makakaya, hindi ko matatanggap.

I still hoped and prayed it was all a dream. “Maya.” Ken called. I was a lot calmer now, however, I wouldn’t let go of him. I was afraid he would disappear as well if I let go just the same way he disappeared many years ago. I don’t understand why I had to lose one person in order to see and be with another. Can’t I just have them both? “You ok?” Ken asked. “Yeah. I’m fine.” I sighed and turned around to see the open front door.

The woman I loved so deeply seemed to have no recollection of me. “Zara... please, I've been searching for you tirelessly. I miss you, our son, and our life together. Why didn't you come with us? Did I do something wrong? Let's talk about it. Don't just disappear like this, my love,” I pleaded, feeling exhausted and on the verge of kneeling before her.

“I just don’t know why you are playing it right now.” “Are you angry?” He swallowed. I shook my head. “No, I’m not.” “Then why don’t you seem impressed?” “Because the songs remind me of our past and I miss you so much.” The words left my mouth before I could stop them.