Novel & Cerita Kenapa Belum Siap Aku Kehilangan Dirimu

But behind the mask of triumph, sadness lingered, an ever-present companion that whispered reminders of a love lost. "Anna, my love," I murmured, the words escaping my lips like a prayer. "I miss you more than words can express. I'm sorry for finding a flicker of interest in someone new. It doesn't diminish the love I have for you. You will always be my mate, my soulmate. But this loneliness weighs heavily upon me, and Lyza... she reminds me of you. I don't know how to explain these emotions, how to reconcile the past with the present. All I know is that I'll carry you with me always."

I drove there, desperation clawing at me as I unlocked the door, calling out her name over and over. The silence that met me felt like a slap. No reply, no sign of her warmth or presence. The stillness was unbearable. And the realization that she might be gone—truly gone from my life—filled me with an indescribable ache. The thought of losing her forever shattered something inside me, leaving a hollow, aching void in my chest.

I can't wait for her to leave so I can have my quiet room back to myself. I tried to reach my wolf, but she's not responding. Since that dreadful day, my wolf has been quiet and not even speaking when I talk to her. I know she is still somewhere in me, but she's not responding, and I know the reason. The loss of our mate made her weak, and I know that soon enough, I will lose myself too.

How can that be true when the only thing that counts to me just walked out that door with one final goodbye? I’ve lost her. I failed. I have nothing else to exist for.

" I do not know how. Do not know what to do. Do not know how to fix what I just broke. All I know is that I just lost her. And this time it might be permanent.

“But I couldn’t. I don’t want the pity. Or the looks.” I nodded. “We don’t have to tell anyone. Not until we’re ready.” “If we’re ever ready,” she whispered. The weight of her words settled on me. Would we ever be ready? Would things ever feel normal again? I didn’t know. All I knew was that something precious had been lost. And though we were still here—breathing, living—the part of us that had begun to dream of something more was now buried under pain and what-ifs. I stood and leaned down, kissing her forehead. “Try to rest,” I murmured.

Wait I’m not ready to lose you, I admit. I don’t think we’ll ever be ready, Lil but the time is coming. We must part for your soul to be changed. Her words are her parting, everything snapping back to black and quiet as I feel the loss of her.

she said slowly, “this won’t be gone.” “No.” “I’ll still have to face everything.” “Yes.” Her shoulders sagged. “I don’t think I’m ready.” Lucien’s hands clenched at his sides. “You don’t have to be ready,” he said. “You just have to come back.” She shook her head. “You don’t understand. Out there… I feel like I’m losing you.” His breath caught. “You’re not losing me.” A hollow laugh escaped her. “Then why does it feel like I already have?”

I stuffed the packaging of the sandwich inside of my satchel, and rummage for another, tucking in to one of the branches as I read the continuation of the letter, You’ll have no idea, that I’m waiting – looking for you – having no clue about your name or where you are. Life on earth brings me more sadness than happiness considering your lack of presence. I have – I squinted my eyes, trying to see the next words but failing for the paper was badly burnt, with some of the parts unreadable. Evidence your existence keeps blocking up my mind, I just wish that when the time comes, you will love me just how much as I have loved you,

It’s flat, still the same, yet not empty. My lips tremble as I whisper, “…Shen’s.” That’s when everything breaks. A sharp, violent sob tears out of me before I can stop it. My knees give way, and I collapse, the force stealing the air from my lungs. “He’s gone!” I choke out. “He’s gone, and I don’t even know where he is!” The words spill messily, broken and overlapping. “I waited… I kept waiting…” my voice cracks. “But he never came back!”