Killing Yourself To Live Book Novels & Stories

He is a man so ruthless that he was said to drink blood to soothe the monsters inside him. Now I had foolishly provoked a man who could kill me without thinking twice. But I told the truth. If I had lied to him… he likely would’ve killed me and I cannot die yet, I do not want to. I don’t even understand why I cling so tightly to my life anymore when I would be better off dead. I already lost everything, so what was the point of breathing? But still… I cannot die, I have to survive no matter how bad it gets.

“No one wants me anyway so if I die, Mama won't be mad anymore. If I die, my sisters won't have anyone to kick. Father won't have to look away.” I constantly thought about it…about jumping into the deep well in the courtyard, or swallowing the rat poison the servants kept in the pantry. The urge to slip into the quiet darkness was a seductive, constant whisper in my ear and it was maybe not such a bad idea considering the kind of life I was living. But why...? Why didn't I just kill myself back then? Even though I said I wanted to die, I still desperately wanted to live. It was a foolish thought but I…this broken girl that had never known warmth in her whole life wanted to live.

If I couldn’t hurt him, I could damn well destroy what he cared about. I couldn't stop. I pushed off the entire books lined in rows as I screamed. Each thud made me feel lighter as the books shattered to the ground, their pages flying around. Vanya's words about killing him. Which is what I know I must do. And his words about wanting me without the curse! The contrast was maddening. And here I am spiraling about the monster who ruined my life, and committed countless murders all in the name of waiting for a mate.

left me to die in this cruel world. I look down at the tattered pieces of paper on the floor. I had gone the extra mile of cheering up that notebook in a fit of Rage. The truth wasn't easily impressed by anyone and I wasn't going to be new in that latter. I wanted nothing to do with the promises and hopes I had built up for myself in the name of family. I plan to burn that old book, forgive her dress that had been left behind for me to buy for my nanny. I knew that I didn't have any other but if I was going to survive in this world then I might as well let go of the attachments that make me feel alive. If losing hope is how I was going to survive then I had better get on it.

[TCH! Little lass, Don't even think about dying. Erase those thoughts out of your brain this instant. Or else I will kill you, myself.] "HUH???!!!!" You just told me not to think about killing myself. Then on the next moment, you're saying at you will going to kill me yourself. Do you find it exciting that is why you want to try it yourself??? Are you a psycho or something???

**This chapter is dedicated to Jom Oyel for your amazing review and feedback. They are appreciated ♥️ Anna You know that saying, when you're experiencing pain that later leads to death, your life flashes in front of you. You see the life you ought to have lived. The life you longed for, the beautiful scenes you wanted, and the memories you wished to live through.

Peace I am at unease I am at unease Is suicide Is murder The only way we die Is killing a person Each day by hurt Agreed way that One can apply Or is this not murder Or is it sane Who will define Ill health Pain of heart It is enormous at times I won't survive In this surrounding For my current life Too for me It is a huge surprise This is life Is this is life For which I claimed For which I succeeded To fail, many deaths Many a suicide In return Do I get This is life Is this a life Or death? ****** Engaged with a few It becomes many It becomes a big As you practice There will, be hope Somewhere In something Hidden For me too I know the tragedy Way too old It didn't come my way When I practi

The materialistic things held no meaning to him and thus he didn't care about them at all. But still, he was trying to be better and more successful just because of her cause she wanted to feel more secure in life. He had lost everything and felt like his life had no meaning anymore. Unknowingly, he started walking towards the cliff; he wanted to die. Eli noticed that and ran up to him. She was freaking out as she figured how the story was going to end. "No no no!" She shouted and regretted that he couldn't hear her. She was terrified at that point and wanted to save him.

I flipped through the pages and I found it; "Life did not go as expected. Still finding the importance as to why I should live." "Great, I will the starting real school this session. Cheers to more pain." "I just live, not because I have a reason. But because death seems so far." Tears slpiued down my face. I could feel there pains behind those words. My life is messy too. The door suddenly opened. It was Kingsley's mother. I hurriedly closed the book and wiped my tears.

so I decided to die i know what I wanted to do is wrong but now I really dont have courage to live I always used to think how a person can end their life easily today I understood how it feels to be alive when we are already dead inside i wanted to see my prince for last time but I can't I know it so I took sleeping tablets and cutted my wrist iam shocked of my daring nature because I get scared of a injection but today I got dare to cut my wrist I know iam doing wrong but I have no other option I cant live like a living dead body blood started passing from my hand my eyes getting closed due to dizziness because of excessive sleeping tablets I only remember my head touched ground that's it @