Mengatakan Sesuatu Saya Tidak Mendengarnya Novels & Stories

"Are you even listening to me?" My head jerked up in response to Lisa's frustrated remark. There she was, her lips slightly downturned, a clear indication that she was displeased with my lack of attention. "I apologize," I quickly responded, realizing that I had been absentmindedly lost in my own thoughts. "I wasn't fully present. Could you please repeat what you just said?"

Sumbat niya, hindi nakaiwas sa pandinig ko ang pagkabasag ng boses niya. "T-Tama ka, ate…” Pilit akong ngumiti sa kanya. Kahit alam kong hindi iyon ang gustong ipakita ng nararamdaman ko. “H-Hindi ko talaga mararamdaman, kasi wala kang pakiramdam! W-Wala kang puso!" Humihikbi kong sigaw sa kanya. Hindi ko na na-control pa ang sarili ko. "Hindi mo nga magawang makinig kay papa... kahit katiting na utang na loob! Konting oras lang, para pakinggan mo siya! Pero wala, masyado ka nang mataas. Hindi na namin maabot ang bakod mo!"

I only got more pissed when I couldn't. "What the fuck were you saying, huh?" "Didn't you hear me?" I shot my brow up. "It's not my problem that you didn't. Don't expect me to say the same thing twice. I don't do that." "You will leave just like that?" He sounded so offended.

I laughed out loud. "It's obvious. You're greedy--- arayyyy!!" I really lowered my voice so he wouldn't hear it, I thought he was going deaf, why is his hearing so sharp now? "I heard that you're crazy!!" He said annoyed. hmm, maybe he didn't hear that because he goes deaf when he eats. "What did you hear that, I didn't say anything." When I lie. "You said something stupid," I'm still stupid? I didn't really say anything, did I? Yes, you're right there isn't. I didn't say he was greedy because I didn't say that no.

There seems to be something odd here, "Could you repeat what you said again? I didn't hear it." ***

With no preamble, he solely says, "No." "If you could just listen for—" "No," he cuts me off. "I don't know what in the world brought you to that conclusion, but it's not happening. I don't care to hear any reasoning behind it." My lips remain parted as I grasp for anything to help me. "I know you don't understand, but—"

Patuloy kong sambit ''Pakiusap, huwag mo akong iiwanan. Dahil hindi ko 'to kakayanin'g mag-isa." Seryosong pahayag ko. Samantalang wala man lang akong natanggap na kahit anong reaksiyon mula sa kanya. Nanatiling nakapangalumbaba lang ito habang pinagmamasdan akong nakatayo at nagdadrama sa harapan niya. "Hey! Wala ka man lang bang sasabihin? Huh Beberly? Sabihin mo nga sa'kin kung ano ba-"

“What do you mean, can be?” My confusion turned to annoyance, I was right there in the room yet all he could do was speak to this Erik, who I didn’t even know. The man in the white coat brought his attention back to me, as if he had heard me. Wait, can he hear me? Is that what we can do. Whilst these thoughts were filling my head, they had both left the room. What had I missed, “Damn it TJ, pay more attention” I muttered quietly to myself. I could see them talking through the window, trying really hard to hear what they were saying I only managed to pick up the odd words, whatever it was I could feel anger rising through me, I am right here, why would they not talk to me.

"I never said you are a lunatic. I was talking about something I heard. And I never mention you in my conversation." "You said I'm agitated for your little mistake." "I said 'he'. That 'he' may not be you. Why do you think I'm talking about you? You were sleeping right? Then how did you hear what I'm talking about? Are you listening to me? Why?" "I didn’t listen to your stupid talk. You are disturbing my sleep with your peacock voice." He said my voice sounds like a peacock? Huh he doesn’t know me. I ignored him.

I think it might be me. Every pair of eyes presses down on me like lead. I try to speak, to force out anything, a word, a sound, even a lie pieced together from the fragments of my panicked mind. Nothing comes. I have no idea what the last thing he said was. I don’t remember what he said. I wasn’t listening. I can’t lie my way out of this because I don’t even know what the truth is supposed to be. "You don’t know what to say, do you?" Mr. Macaulay says flatly.