Novel & Cerita My Mind Went Blank

My mind keeps on turning up completely blank, and honestly, it leaves me very much frustrated. What do you want from me? I find myself asking at this point. All I'm doing is trying to get the conversation going and stall him for as long as I can while waiting not so patiently for my mind to start working again so that I can think of a way to get myself out of this very sticky situation. It really would be a pity if I were to die right now in a wrong run, old abandoned alley. Sorry, but that is so not the way that I plan to die - a deliberate slap in the face to me and the kind of humiliation that I can't bear.

My heart never stopped racing, each beat echoing the panic swirling in my mind. It felt as if my soul was slipping away, overwhelmed by a storm of thoughts that hovered relentlessly above me. I couldn’t contain the thoughts in my mind or even comprehend what I needed to do. The teacher's words kept swirling in my mind, heavy and making it extremely difficult for me to focus.

but his clearly visible clenched jaw state that he was getting angry. Before things may go out of hand, I started talking, "Actually, I was really not bothered by anything. Previously, I know what turn my life may take every second. But now, I don't know anything. Everything is so blank. Everything is so complicated. I seem to lose my existence,"

My mind went blank for a second. This was it. This was the crack.

That was definitely true. Ah, damn fvck. I really miss my best friend Gaia, the Buricat girls, and even my manager, who seems to be mad at me all the time. I actually missed writing. Wow, how did I end up falling apart like this? I closed my eyes, trying to think of what to do next, but nothing came. Absolutely nothing. My brain felt like a black screen. My mind is a blank slate. Only silence fills the air.

Emptiness swirled around my heart. And everything went blank.

I started to say and I watched as he nodded his head at me a little. I suddenly didn’t know what to actually say. This same thing happens to me a whole lot. It was as if each time I got asked about a particular thing, everything that was previously in my head was all going to fly out of my head in the next second, leaving me to my empty head and black mind, it always happens every damn time to my annoyance. Sadly, the only thing still in my head at the moment was the fact that I still wanted to go on my knees and take him into my mouth – but then there was no way in hell that I was going to be able to do that, I was going to have to faint before I’d be able to that to begin with.

What could I say that wouldn't make things worse? I was confident I didn't know what to say. My mind went blank as Axel's intense gaze bore into me. I knew I had to come up with something, but every possible explanation seemed to fall flat. I felt like I was trapped, with no way out. Axel's silence was oppressive, making me feel like I was drowning in uncertainty. I shifted my weight, trying to break the tension, but it only seemed to grow thicker. My heart pounded in my chest, and I knew I had to say something – anything – to defuse the situation. But what?

What was it going to mean for me, us, and our situation with Morel? I stood there, mouth agape, and the most amazing thing was happening before my eyes. My mind went blank; the very thoughts froze in astonishment. I felt as if I were seeing something impossible; nothing could contrive logic and reason. And then all went blank. Everything turned hazy; the sound suddenly faded away into a deafening silence.

I sat down because he had just described the last three weeks of my life with terrifying accuracy and I needed to know how. The blackouts had started small. I would be standing at the kitchen sink washing dishes and suddenly the water was overflowing because ten minutes had passed without me noticing. I would be engaged in something and lose myself with no memory of where my mind went. I blamed stress. I blamed everything with Thorne and Ethan.