The Substitute Bride Of The Blackwood
Then nothing, the line dead before I’d finished setting the phone back down.
I sat there for a while after, the city going quiet outside and the tower holding its lights steady against the dark, and I thought about patience, about the particular discipline of wanting something for long enough that the wanting itself stops feeling urgent and becomes simply the condition you operate under, the weather of your interior life rather than a specific emotion you have to manage.
I had wanted this for a very long time.
I was close enough now to almost stop wanting it and start simply expecting it, which was a different feeling entirely, quieter, more certain, the feeling of a man who has done the