Self Loathing Synonym

Lily Collins is what you could consider as a girl with a purpose. By purpose, I mean to avoid trouble and to stay away from a certain blue eyed boy, with the means to torment her. A boy she can't help have undying feelings for...Asher Grey has everything, girls,money, people kissing at his feet so what more could he ask for? Other than the girl he finds pleasure in bullying, a girl he's in love with. At some point he won't be able to hold in his feelings any longer, it'll start to peek out.______________________________"You look like you just got banged!" He teased as he glanced at my state."What, no I don't?" I said, well more like asked uncertainly as I passed my hand through my unruly hair. I felt the disheveled strands as my finger tugged at some knots.Niall chuckled "Your hair is a mess and your shirt is inside out." He pointed out. My hand automatically went to my shirt as I tugged it and looked around at the prying eyes of the other students."Oh shit!" I muttered once I realized that indeed it was inside out. Gosh this is embarrassing. I pulled down my skirt suddenly feeling self conscious and pulled my shirt higher as I saw a little bit of my boobs peeking out."You also have a lot of love bites." He pointed out again louder than needed, making me give him a lethal look. If looks could kill he would have been dead right now. Maybe I can arrange that."Shut up don't point it out!" I hissed. I'm gonna kill Asher.

13 years ago, she was a naive, innocent, bubbly girl who fell in love with her senior and wrote a love letter to him in her diary, 'You are the most handsome person I've ever met. Uhm... My brother is also handsome but he is my brother. So, let us get back to the point. Since you are so good-looking, I feel like I'm in love. How about I marry you after growing up? Won't you consider yourself lucky?' 13 years later, she was referred to as a demoness; she was way too cold, no longer the naive girl she used to be, she has become a mystery that people spoke of but no one has ever seen. But in all these circumstances, what remained the same was that the little girl in her memory was as narcissistic as the adult who proposed to a stranger, 'Let's get married, I'm a goddess, you know?' So, where did her usual aloof self go? Was it because handsome men were her weakness? Or was it just that one man?! ... Out of nowhere, Tang Li proposed marriage to a stranger she’d met just 15 minutes ago. Confident and quirky, she called herself a one-in-a-million goddess and offered him a carefree life as her househusband. Stunned but intrigued, he asked, “Why me?” She simply said he pleased her pretty eyes. His heart skipped a beat as he replied, “Only if you take no concubines.” Tang Li, a beautiful woman with breathtaking black long hair and hazel eyes, everyone talks about but no one’s seen, just stunned Mo Yuhan, the hot and happening CEO of Mo Empires and the most eligible bachelor...Cold? No, he is a thousand-year-old iceberg..... But what happens when Miss Mystery proposes to Mr. CEO...?

“You can play Priest for as long as you like,” he spat, ignoring my protests, “but you will never find salvation.” His words struck like a curse, but that wasn’t the reason my chest heaved, goosebumps littered my skin, and definitely not the reason I felt hot despite the chilling dip from the lake. Ezreal’s eyes widened momentarily, noticing. I winced as his hand shifted, pressing against the stiff betrayal straining against my soaked robes. He stilled for only a second, then a wicked grin overtook his features. “Well, well,” Ezreal drawled, his voice taunting “Look who’s getting excited,” “Stop,” I gasped, squeezing my eyes shut as the humiliation dug deep. “Please….” He leaned forward, his breath hot as his lips ghosted over the shell of my ear. “I will taint you so bad,” he whispered, his hand tightening against my crotch. “So bad you won’t have the courage to stand on the altar you abandoned me for.” ****** At sixteen, Ezreal Vossell took the fall for a murder to protect the only boy he ever loved—Baron Lander, the timid son of the town’s high priest. A known delinquent, the bastard child of the mayor, but the only one who saw him for his true self was Baron. Ezreal made the ultimate sacrifice, and all he wanted in return was Baron’s support. But alas, on the day of the trial, Baron betrayed him, casting him aside to please his father. Ezreal was sentenced to life in prison, his heart shattered beyond repair. Fifteen years later, he was released, but gone was the naive sixteen-year-old. He’s returned as the ruthless leader of a mafia syndicate, and with all the power and wealth at his fingertips, he yearned for one thing alone. Revenge.

People hope not to date an abusive partner but wouldn't it be worse when you are already married? She was used, abused and stepped on. All hope was lost and she vowed to only live for the sake of her children, no more hiding in the shadows of others ...Work hard and repay. Meet Eleana Osas, a single mom of two who vowed to get her revenge on her ex husband and shun all men. What will happen when she cross path with the soon to be biggest boss, Shawn Dele, who is handsomely mysterious. Will he be able to untie the knot in her heart or would he make her hate men more? Curious? Then follow up and don't forget to add it to your library. Anticipate!!!!!......... Excerpt: "So you vow to never love, never be with another man? Is this the kind of control he has over you?", Shawn asked feeling waves of emotions; anger, disappointment..... "It's the kind of control I have over my self, I will never, ever submit myself to any man again, never", Eleana replied, gritting her teeth in anger, not directed at Shawn but herself - she only spoke those words because she need him to let her go, else she fall more than she already has..... Seeing as Shawn didn't reply, Eleana walked past him but Shawn was having none of that, he turned around and grab her arms, pulling her closer to him making sure she could feel his breathe on her neck as he whispered mischievously. "Are you so certain you will be the one submitting and not me? Hmmm?". His words rang warning bells in Eleana's head as her legs went wobbly under his teasing and nearness.... Oh god! She swore, when she felt his lips on her earlobe.

“How could you both do this to me?” Matilda's voice trembled as her eyes darted from her best friend to her husband, whose sweats were dripping, obviously from the adulterous act he just committed. Her disappointed self wanted to hear an explanation, an excuse, or something and wished all was just a mistake but..... “You came in just in time.” He uttered with no iota of remorse as he fixed his pants and belts. “What? Eduardo!” “You've seen and heard it all, so what now? Want me to start telling some boring story and silly excuse? Hell no, young lady!” He raised a brow, and Matilda couldn't believe her eyes and ears. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ After being betrayed by those she loved and trusted so much, Matilda Smith wished nothing but to vanish from the face of the earth. Her five years of marriage was ruined in a single day by those she thought were on her side. But they didn't end there. Despite taking everything she had inherited from her family, they still wanted her dead. And that was when their paths crossed. Xander Hamilton, authoritative, charismatic, confident, and ruthless, was the sole heir to the number one company in America and a rival to many businesses. ~~~Extract~~ “Please, help me. I'm willing to do anything. Just help me get revenge and my inheritance back.” “Your life became mine from the moment you witnessed that man's death. What makes you think I'll help the life which I want to end badly even at this moment? I just need two reasons.” He smirked dangerously. His presence screamed danger, yet she was drawn to him like a magnet. However, will she be able to face the danger in his world? What if their destinies have been intertwined from the beginning?

After the kidnapping incident, seventeen (17) year old “STILES,” lost his memories. The memory loss He had wasn't a sweet romantic dream, but an horrible nightmare. The torture he received from his kidnappers warped his brain and made him a psycho, a freak; a “MANIAC”. He was agitated by almost everyone and everything. He could hardly control his emotions. Stiles was like a volcano, ready to erupt at anytime. Just a little trigger, boom! he'll explode. Releasing tons of cusswords, striking out at anyone who loved him. He couldn't help it. His fleeting thoughts were tormentors, a torture He could hardly escape. He lived in hate and anger. He never wanted to be that way. Deep down his guts He simply wanted to be kind to everyone. He had a loving heart. He could still take the right choice, but his brain, was a tormentor. When ever it is triggered He loses self control. He is doing the actions, but deep his guts, He wanted it all to stop. but He just couldn't. As time went on. Poor old Stiles discovered he had telepathic and telekinetic abilities. Gradually he also regained his lost memories. He fully regained his “MEMORIES” the day he came face to face with the leader of his Kidnappers, the heartless punk who transformed poor old stiles into a “MANIAC.” Stiles wanted to take revenge on the Devil incarnate. But frustration hits Stiles when he discovers that the man who made his life a living hell was no other person but the father of his Girlfriend. “LOVER” So what is Stiles gonna do? Go ahead and his take revenge on his kidnapper, or just let the old dog lie.

Miss Jane has always fantasized on a wonderful romance, one that will make her happy at her everyday life, with sadness out of her life. After her last breakup with the mayor's son, she vows never to fall in love with anyone ever again that she even tries to shut herself from everyone. Her life goes into a complete void without happiness or livelihood, but that was the only way to keep her self from being hurt by any so called man again. But a time came, when everything in her life, was about to take a turn, and that time was when she witnessed an alien ship on earth. Cities were ravaged and towns were turned into pieces leading to her blacking out. She wakes up and finds herself in her house, saved by an unknown man, and Jane heard her heart beat once again, but she only saw him for the first time. Explaining everything about himself, Jane agreed to let him stay at her house for just a month, and it was settled. But as time went on, her love increased for this unknown man and she was forced to confess her love for him and this act, brought her romance back to life, as she discovered her fantasies were been fulfilled by her new lover. Everything was going fine, much fine. Not until, earth was marked for destruction, and now the alien amongst humans must save the planet from the evil plans of his people. But this might also be the end of his romantic life with Jane who felt devastated the moment she discovered the whole truth. Will the alien risk his love for her, by telling her everything? or will he just let his people take over the planet like they've always wanted? A Romace fantasy Book.. DO ME WELL TO READ!

"She's too young, she's too naive, she's my friend's daughter, she's a virgin, she's innocent. she's everything I shouldn't want yet everything I've ever wanted!" Luca is a twenty-four old billionaire who has lived nextdoor to seventeen year old Lily and loved her forever. Even after escaping Italy for many years, demons from his past still reminds him of the sexual and physical abuse he suffered as a boy and a teenager making him DARK! He never lacked women to warm his bed but the moment Lily is about to turn eighteen, the only thing he craves is her in his bed, but she's too young! and he's too bad for her. He discovers the only way to kill his dangerous desire is to ignore her... still she's the object of his wildest fantasy! Lily is constantly rejected by Luca making her question her self worth. What happens when Luca find out the urges are mutual and he is due to return to Italy to settle some scores. Will he leave New York knowing he's eterna is a hot virgin that can bring any man to his knees in just three seconds? Or will Luca damn the consequences and give in to the sinful temptation threatening to consume them both even when he knows it will be their downfall! When love, betrayal, secrets, lies, lust, rejection and heartbreak comes to play, will Lily and Luca love blossom or will it wither away as if it never even existed? This is a love that will make you cry, and make you laugh. A love story that will definitely change you. So grab your popcorns and start reading! Don't forget to support me with your reviews and gems.

Khalia Meaztrix Johnson is a girl who loves to play baseball since she was 5. She admires her Dad and siblings when it comes to the baseball field. But when she turned 10, Everything changed. She was no longer allowed to play baseball,but she was just stubborn and continued to play without her father knowing it. She was upset because of the fact that her Dad didn't bother to tell her the reason why he don't want Khalia to play Baseball. Khalia being hardheaded left their house to fullfil her dream. To be a Great Pitcher ... To be an Ace. In fulfilling her dream she met various people who changed her perspective. She is undeniably Beautiful inside and out, so men are obsessed with her. She met different men but she had no interest with them, she was too focused in achieving her dream. But she didn't expect to know her father's secret. Her father had a child with another woman... She didn't know what to do. Her feelings are mixed. She felt sorry for her mother, she was hurt for her. She began to have trust issues. She attempted suicide. She turned her back on everything. She forgot even herself. Until she realizes what she lacks... Self-love. She started again. She built herself and love who she was. And loving herself is not easy. But The process helped her a lot. She realized that she is gradually accepting people in her life again. She's finally reaching her dream but at the same time she starts to fall in love with unexpected person. Is it wrong for her to fall in love with that person? Will that person be the way for Khalia to achieve her dream? Or this will be the reason for her to return to her former self?

Natasha Raymond’s life is upended when her father’s failing empire forces her into a marriage of convenience with Lucas Salvador, a self made billionaire determined to rebuild his family’s reputation. Their arrangement is simple; save her family’s legacy, maintain a public facade, and in return, she becomes his wife in name only. But Lucas has darker motives. A decade ago, his parents died in a tragic accident one orchestrated by Clifford Raymond, Natasha’s father. For years, Lucas has plotted revenge, and marrying Natasha is just another move in his game. As they spend more time together, their fake marriage starts to blur. Genuine feelings develop between them, complicating Lucas’s plan. Just when Natasha begins to feel at home in Lucas’s world, a mysterious flash drive arrives, exposing a web of lies, including a birth certificate connecting her father to a woman named Amelia Raymond. With her identity in question, Natasha begins investigating. Her search brings her to Derrick Watson, her childhood friend now working as a physician at Silver Point Medical Center. Derrick uncovers startling genetic similarities between Natasha and a patient file from years ago Amelia Raymond. Natasha’s world shatters as she learns the truth, she’s not the daughter she thought she was but a pawn in a family legacy of betrayal, tied by blood to the very family Lucas is determined to destroy. As Natasha and Lucas grow closer, they must confront the lies that bind them. Lucas’s resolve weakens as he falls for the woman he intended to destroy. Natasha faces an agonizing choice cling to the man she loves or expose the truth that could tear their worlds apart. The Billionaire’s Dark Side is a gripping tale of love, revenge & the devastating cost of betrayal.