So Let Me Just Give Up Novels & Stories

’’ Justin uttered and I do not know what to say anymore and I can’t focus neither to answer him and end up just nodding to him. This is so freaking tiring. This day sucks. I mean, all of my days sucks. My life sucks.

I'm giving in… Fuck all of it. I stop fighting for once and give in.

Because from the beginning, no one liked this relationship. Just because we survived and loved each other, maybe? So this is how far. Can I have the heart to give it up? So that these humans no longer tease me. But can I be a little selfish? Can't I deserve a little happiness? Oh my God, I gave up, and in the end, I knew I was hurting again. I was always hurt by problems from inside and out. Okay, I give up. I fall asleep and wake up I will lose with surrender and pain. I'm done.

I wanted to speak but the words couldn't leave my mouth. How do I say that I had decided to give up?

is all I can say in that moment. “It’s cool,” Juan shrugs, the expression on his face telling me it’s anything but cool. “It’s not like I didn’t know it wouldn’t lead anywhere. Not with who we are and where we live and all that shit. It’s stupid. I just… don’t know how to give him up. I am not sure I want to, you know?” “Yeah, I know exactly what you mean,” I say still able to feel Katerina’s taste on my lips.

It would be best to end this, I guess. I really love him but maybe this is the end of us. It was so difficult and painful. Maybe if my faith in the Lord is not strong, if my love for him is not strong, I don't know where to turn. Maybe I've gone crazy. I have to say "that's it". I have to protect myself from pain. It's really been so hard for me. I tried, but I couldn't. I have given up on the pain.

I want to stop everything. Though I also don’t want to give Bryce what he’s planning for, but I guess it wouldn’t hurt to admit that this time, I need to wave a white flag and say ‘I give up’. Fine, Bryce Tryst. You win. You now own the top spot, and I’m willing to let you have that for how long you want. I hate that I have to give up. But it’s evident enough that right now is not the right time to be the best of the best.

Mixed feelings overwhelm me as I strive to be stable in my place. "I'm not giving up. I'm just tired!" I hear him saying. "I can give up on my life, but I can never give up on us" Did I make it so complicated? So much? I don't know for how long he's worried about me and my concerns. But this time, I'm definitely not freaked out because of my issues. I'm pissed at the way things happened today. Was that my fault too? Am I doing something wrong by getting affected?

I said, my voice low and rough. “I’ll leave for now, but I am not giving up on you. I can’t. Not like this. Not ever.”

Too proud. And now she was doing the same to me. Karma's a bitch. I lay back on the couch. Closed my eyes. Tomorrow I'd try again. And the day after that. And the day after that. However long it took. Because giving up wasn't an option. Even if she already had. My phone buzzed. I grabbed it so fast I almost dropped it. Text from Mike. *How'd it go?* I stared at the message. Typed back: *It didn't.*