Novel & Cerita The Words Get Stuck In My Throat

she grinds on her teeth, trying so much not to cry. "those hands, that I always feel secure in are the same hands that gave me the worse experience, the same hands that curse through my skin sending chills of electric sparks now piercing deep into my skin, sending chills of pain all over my being. And even when I beg, and cry and call out for it to stop, it doesn't"

I looked horrible. I swallowed hard. Then again. And fucking again. Trying desperately to force the lump lodged in my throat to disappear. It wouldn't move. Wouldn't budge. It felt like someone had dropped a stone straight down my throat and left it there, heavy and immovable. Every swallow hurt. Every breath hurt. Everything hurt. I bit down hard on my lip to stop the tears from falling. Hard enough that a metallic taste bloomed inside my mouth. I barely noticed it. "Just breathe," I whispered to myself.

My throat tightened. I suddenly feel out of breath. “Alex..”. I tapped on my chest. Choking on my own saliva.

My throat feels tight, too tight it feels like I'm being strangled. My goddamn engagement ring is gone and I had no idea of it until now that Nathaniel just pointed it out. “I…” I stammer, unable to come up with a good lie. “I… forgot to wear it.” Nice one, idiot. Nathaniel blinks. “Forgot? Meeka, you hardly forget things, especially your ring.” I swallow the hard lump suddenly stuck on my throat. It feels like trying to force down a brick.

They just don't understand the joys of all the different flavors. "Probably or maybe something else is growing." She giggles as she cuts up the fruits; oblivious to how still I've become. The piece of egg I had been chewing gets stuck in my throat, making me grab for the glass of water. I have to take a sip of water to push it down, causing it to settle in my stomach like lead.

This was the pain of something having been done to me rather than something happening inside me, precise and surgical and very, very serious. I tried to breathe through it and found something wrong. Something hard and foreign lodged in my throat, doing my breathing for me in a rhythm that bore no resemblance to the way I actually breathed, and the moment I registered it, panic arrived alongside the pain. I could not speak. Could not swallow. Could barely move.

I swallowed the huge lump on my throat. *Oh shit...I'm dead meat.*

"Thh...enn..." I don't want to tell anybody about this, but it is time to tell them. That's why I started to speak, but my tongue does not compromise with me and slips every time, also the words from my throat become so difficult to move and get out. But I try and swallow saliva and say:

My eyelids refuse to cooperate, too heavy to lift, my body unwilling to obey even the simplest command. The memory of something burning down my throat surfaces, vague and blurred, like a dream I can’t quite grasp. Swallowing. He begged me to swallow. Why? The thought slips away before I can hold onto it, lost in the murky haze clouding my mind. My thoughts are sluggish, tangled, refusing to piece themselves together.

I opened my mouth but a lump was suddenly in my throat, preventing me from saying what I wanted to. "Say it? Deny it," he urged, with a satisfied smug on his face. I found myself swallowing harder. It's much more difficult than I thought. Must it always be so difficult? "Why aren't you saying anything?" He probed again. I braced myself to say something. I won't let him conquer me like this. I'm seriously not going to give him the chance to.