Novel & Cerita Unfeeling

Nothing seemed to be working. The worst part of all this was having to deal with the empty feeling in my chest. I didn’t feel pain or even humiliation, just a numbing feeling that had made a home in my chest. It made everything feel distant and unreal. Even my own emotions felt foreign, as if they were trying to reach me through layers of brick. I hadn’t even met him, not even once. And that alone made things bearable.

" He said. I was not ready for that. I was still getting use to the idea of being alone. I still need to heal. "My name Shunshine. I'm not really interested in getting to know anyone right now." I said. "Can't blame a brother for trying." He replied back with a smile. I almost gave in. He hand me a business call and told me to call him if i change my mind. i looked at the card and saw that he was a mr. fix it man. He fixed on houses and appliances.

When everything seems to fall in the end. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I can't even feel any feelings anymore. I can't feel my heart too as if I got numb all over my body and mind, physically, emotionally, and mentally. After moments of trying to feel my surroundings. I never felt one, including the atmosphere, and the water against the back of my head and my body. Hatred. My body and mind started to feel that thing. Hatred. ... After two years...

I just don’t care anymore, and I like feeling this numbness it’s better than all the emotions I felt before. My mama looks at me with tears in her eyes and shakes her head no "Please tell me your okay" "I said I’m fine mama" She just stares at me not believing me, I am ok, i haven't felt better in a long time, I don't feel sadness,anger,lust,pain, nothing and I love it, so why is everyone looking at me worried. The only thing is that I haven’t connected with Selena, I just hope she's ok.

"What the f*ck?" Lisa wandered down the corridors, passing the barbies, the jocks, the nerds, and the shadows, feeling like a science experiment as people seemed to stop and sniff as she went passed them. Another high school first day, it was safe to say she made an impression as she turned her famous glare on any that would meet her eye, but to her surprise, most would bow their head and show submission, except one girl.

Daddy…" She tried to push herself up, only to end up sliding off Linda's lap. Still, she knelt as she smacked the steel gates. "It hurts so much, Daddy… Can you please give me a hug?" And she really was hurting—her whole body seemed aflame but would suddenly feel so cold she would be left shuddering. Even with the thick down jacket she wore, she still felt cold, and her mind was muddled from her fever. However, she did not forget the routine to earn Henry's sympathy either.

Didn't react. Completely unfazed.

v. Fear... An emotion, I never thought I'll feel again, but today I did. And I never wanted to feel like that again, that helplessness. The realization that I'm useless, I have no power against that urge inside of me. How can I even think like that, How can the blood of my own daughter make me... fuck, was years of restraining, years of praying did nothing?

I feel like a wild animal. “What’s wrong with me?” I throw the carcass aside and wrap my arms around my legs, pulling my knees into my chest. Tears run down my cheeks. I can’t help but lick my lips and savor the taste left behind. I feel disgusted. Maybe this is what happens when a person has to survive. I let out a deep breath, wipe my face with my t-shirt, and prop myself up.

Now I'm sensitive, worn out, and covered in cum. Best birthday ever!