Novel & Cerita Within You Or Without You

She looked at her reflection in the mirror behind the bar, she looked at the woman staring back, and she realized, with a sudden, strange sense of power, that she had nothing left to lose, she had lost the man, she had lost the friend, she had lost the illusion of a perfect future, and in that loss, there was a terrible, dangerous kind of freedom, she didn't have to be anything for anyone anymore, she could be herself, whoever that was, she could be angry, she could be sad, she could be broken, and it didn't matter, because no one was watching. The door opened behind her, a gust of cool air sweeping into the bar, she didn't turn around, she kept her eyes on her glass, she was in a cocoon of

I sigh. “I don’t want to be a bottleneck,” I say. “Or a ghost.” “There’s a third option,” he replies. “What?” I ask. “Be present without being pivotal,” he says. That sounds elegant. It also sounds terrifying. Presence without pivot means influence without control. Contribution without indispensability. Love without ownership. I don’t tell him that part. But he sees it anyway. “This is the cost of what you wanted,” he adds gently. “You asked for coherence instead of dependence. You got it.”

And let myself be fully present in it. Without apology. Without absence. Without shadow. Just here. In the room I built. In the life I made. In everything that was mine.

I sometimes think my thoughts have its own thought, and it made me feel crazy thinking about it. “No, I’m not you. I mean, in a way.” “Uhm, yes you are.” And here I am, debating with myself. “Listen carefully Ell, I am not you okay. I also thought that you and I are one and that I am also talking to myself. But I figured that I am a different being. I am inside you, for starters. It’s like I am another version of yourself.” “What do you mean inside me?” “I can’t explain it, okay? I just woke up one day and I’m here. This is also new to me. I am confused as well.”

"Why should I do that?" "If you have some shy left in your body right now, you should leave. This isn't your mother fucking house for you to stay here like you're the owner and act like you own place when in fact in the first place you're not. She don't like almighty and leave this f****** house this instant before i'll drag you. This is my only and last warning."

Warming without blinding, illuminating without blinding. Thank You.

“I miss you. I miss touching you, holding you, just being with you without all this fear in the way.” “Then stop letting the fear win.”

His smile is meant to reassure me, but it barely registers. I nod, but it feels mechanical. Saying it is easy. Thinking it? Maybe. But actually doing it, actually trying to pull myself out of this dark place without King by my side, it feels impossible. I hadn’t realized just how much he’d become a part of me. He’s been my world, and without him, I feel like I’m lost in the dark, unable to find my way. Who am I without King?

After all these years—had he ever been with me out of love, or was it only because I was useful? He immediately frowned and said in a voice filled with reproach, "Clean up my mess? You're serving the pack. Shouldn't that be your duty?"

"How is it possible that each time I close my eyes, your face is the only thing I see? How do I tell you that when you are not with me, I get lovesick? How do I tell you that every second of my life is filled with thoughts of you? How do I tell you, Mr. Zach, that I have fallen head over heels in love with you?" - Paige ~~~~~~~ "From the moment I saw you, you became my reason for breathing. Even when darkness engulfs me, I only have to take one look at you and my world becomes bright again.