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42. I'm losing myself.

Author: Emiliana Wakesho
last update Last Updated: 2025-07-05 02:50:44

Beatrice’s POV

The night stretches on like a ghost, it wraps around me, cold and heavy. I sit there long after Caleb leaves, staring at the stars above, searching for answers that never seem to come. The wind whispers through the trees, and for a second, it sounds like someone calling my name.

But it’s just me.

I hug myself, trying to contain the storm inside. Everything is falling apart, and I don’t even know why. I feel like something’s growing inside me, a darkness, a shadow I can’t control. First, the way I felt about Emily… and now this strange pull toward the woods.

That dirt on me.

The scratches.

The way I wake up with pieces of time missing.

What am I turning into?

I want to believe it's just stress, or trauma, or exhaustion. But that would be a lie. Something is changing inside me, and I don’t think I’m going to like what I become when it finally takes over.

I don’t know how long I sit there, but eventually I rise and walk back to my room. The hallways are q
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