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42. I'm losing myself.
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Alpha's Mistress and the Beta 43. To Nadine-West.
Caleb’s POV I’m up before dawn. I didn’t get much sleep, just a few hours of tossing and turning, replaying Raven’s face over and over in my mind. The pain in her voice, the way she looked at me when I held her, when I let her go... it all keeps echoing. The sky is still dark, painted in shades of blue and purple. A thin mist clings to the ground like a secret. I’ve already packed my bag. The car is prepped, waiting just past the front gates. Elijah, Nashon, and Joshua should be here any moment. I step out onto the porch, pulling my jacket tighter around me. The wind bites a little, but it feels good. Clears my head. And then I hear footsteps behind me. Soft. Light. Hesitant. I turn, half-expecting one of my brothers but it’s her. Raven. She’s standing there in the early light, her hair braided back, a small backpack slung over one shoulder. She looks tired but steady, eyes fixed on mine like she’s already made her decision. “You’re up early,” I say, my voice lower than I mea
Alpha's Mistress and the Beta 42. I'm losing myself.
Beatrice’s POV The night stretches on like a ghost, it wraps around me, cold and heavy. I sit there long after Caleb leaves, staring at the stars above, searching for answers that never seem to come. The wind whispers through the trees, and for a second, it sounds like someone calling my name. But it’s just me. I hug myself, trying to contain the storm inside. Everything is falling apart, and I don’t even know why. I feel like something’s growing inside me, a darkness, a shadow I can’t control. First, the way I felt about Emily… and now this strange pull toward the woods. That dirt on me. The scratches. The way I wake up with pieces of time missing. What am I turning into? I want to believe it's just stress, or trauma, or exhaustion. But that would be a lie. Something is changing inside me, and I don’t think I’m going to like what I become when it finally takes over. I don’t know how long I sit there, but eventually I rise and walk back to my room. The hallways are q
Alpha's Mistress and the Beta 41. It hurts
Beatrice’s POV What’s happening to me lately? Just a short while ago, when I was with Emily, I barely felt any sympathy for her. I just… looked at her. It was as if I was watching someone through a thick, blurry window, disconnected. A cold wave had swept over me. Part of me, goddess, help me, wanted to strangle her. Just end it. That dark, horrifying thought flashed in my mind so clearly I could feel the weight of it in my hands. I had to fight with everything inside me to keep my cool. I forced myself to smile, to breathe, to walk away. And I did. Somehow, I managed to go out without doing anything to her. But that’s not all. Yesterday morning, I woke up covered in dirt. My clothes were stained, my nails packed with soil, and there were scratches on my arms like I had run through the woods or clawed at something. I don't remember a thing. I had to convince myself I was sleepwalking. It’s the only explanation that sounded... acceptable. But deep down, I knew there had to be an
Alpha's Mistress and the Beta 40. What is it?
Elijah’s POV The moment I see her crumpled figure on the ground, everything inside me break. A sudden fear grips me, a fear that I've never known it existed in me. I run to her side. “Emily!” I drop to my knees, ignoring the sting of rocks biting into my flesh. Her body is limp, her bags scattered like forgotten leaves in the wind. Her head lolled to the side, eyes closed, her breathing shallow but present. Her body is trembling. “Stay with me, baby,” I whisper , pulling her into my arms. Her skin is cold, her scent faint and trembling. Whatever got to her, it isn't a normal predator. It isn’t a bear as we initially thought . It isn't a rogue wolf either. It is something else. Something with no scent, something fast, fast enough to commit these atrocities without being detected. Something with an agenda, but what? All the shifters I've heard about, all have scents, but this one hasn't. And it had the audacity to touch her. I hold her tighter, listening to the fra
Alpha's Mistress and the Beta 39. Eerie silence.
Emily’s POV "I’ll take you back, hun, alright?" Elijah says softly, his hand tightening gently around mine. We’ve been dating ever since that night Raven and I went out to the club. That wild, impulsive night sparked something between him and me. Speaking of Raven … she’s been avoiding me lately, and I can’t help but notice. It’s like she’s deliberately keeping her distance. Something’s wrong, but she won’t say. "I'll be fine," I tell Elijah with a faint smile, trying to shake the weird thoughts off. "I’m a wolf, fierce, fiery, and stubborn. I’ll manage just fine." I say. "I can’t risk it, hun," he says, eyes narrowing in concern. "You just accepted to be my girlfriend. How could I possibly let you walk back alone, especially after all these bear sightings? Or whatever it is that’s out there… something’s not right." He mutters. He pulls me into his arms, wrapping them around me protectively. His scent is warm, earthy, comforting. But it’s almost too much sometimes. Like a
Alpha's Mistress and the Beta 38. It scares me.
Caleb’s POV ~Morning~ The first thing I notice is the quiet. Not the kind that comes from peace, but the kind that settles in just before the storm. Then comes warmth. Soft, delicate, alive. She's still here. Raven. My eyes open slowly, and I turn my head to find her curled against me, her cheek resting just inches away from my chest, her breathing deep and even. She’s still asleep, completely unaware of the turmoil storming inside me. I should move. I should get up, put distance between us before I lose whatever grip I still have on my self-control. But I don’t. Instead, I watch her. Her face is relaxed, more innocent than I’ve ever seen it. There’s no trace of the weight she carries when she’s awake, no sign of the fear, the trauma, the mystery that always clings to her. Just a girl, peaceful and quiet. She’s beautiful. Not in the polished, painted way most she-wolves try to be, but in a raw, real way that slips past your defenses before you even notice.
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