ni-check ang cellphone ko sa pag-iisip kong tumawag na siya, pero bumagsak ang balikat ko nang wala akong makita. Sa bagay, malamang hindi pa sila nakakarating sa Moscow. Halos sixteen hours ang flight papuntang Moscow mula rito sa Pilipinas kaya mamaya pa ang dating nila ruon. Limang oras pa ang hihintayin ko.
Kaya wala akong ibang ginawa kundi ang magkulong sa kwarto habang hinihintay ang tawag niya.Mayamaya, kinatok ako ng kapatid ko, "Hoy, lumabas ka na raw sabi ni Mommy." sabi nito nang buksan niya ang pinto.Hindi ko siya pinansin.Bumuntong-hininga siya, "Alam mo, Ate. Kung hindi ka naman pala kayang mabuhay nang wala si Kuya Khalid, bakit mo siya hinayaang umalis? Bakit hindi mo siya pinigilan?""Dahil iyon ang tama."Sabrina rolled his eyes, "Tama pala, 'e. Eh bakit iiyak ka riyan? E-emo ka riyan? Lulungkot ka at magmumukmok ka riyan?"SinimaIt does not give me guilt. It disappoints me, as well, not because we might be repossessed by Meralco or our meter might be repossessed by them, but because she might not send money for Hanna's milk tomorrow, which she promised a week ago.Mj and I were both sad hearing Jano's tidings. Mj was worrying. She knew exactly what it would bring to us. We hoed for Mama's 'padala'. And, that's the only hope we have. Hanna's milk is good only for tonight. Tomorrow morning, I must buy early. But the real score is "Where can I get the money?" The budget is now only P160+.Haay!My partner did not want to go home because it is a shame. My in-laws knew that I was already working. Besides, I did not want my 'mag-ina' to stay there. It's my responsibility, not theirs. So, if possible, I want my 'mag-ina' to stay and live here with me and my family.Since Mam
If they listened to me, their fare would be saved.I was so ashamed of what bad fate I was going through. Hanna's needs would be provided again by my in-laws. It was such a shameful state of my life.Then, when I saw the jeep of Lolo Angel, it did not stop over. It means Mama has no 'padala'. Disappointment strikes again. Thus, I thanked God for Mj has decided to leave. Although I feel shame of doing so, I would rather prefer because that's the only way Hanna's needs could be provided.I always have been thankful to my in-laws who are very understanding. Despite of my lacking, they never condemned me. For them, I am still a good father to Hanna Margaret.My sleep was disturbed by several factors: itchiness, stress and warmness. However I have had dreams. They're memorable:"I have just arrived from Manila to Polot. On the way to our house, I was being invited in a 'kaffeekl
"No... unfortunately I was so busy that I just ignored it... I know it's irresponsible of me--"Uncle and I were both surprised when Math stood up suddenly. His expression is very dark. He went upstairs without saying anything. Hinabol ko lang siya ng tingin dahil dun. I heard my Uncle sighed so I turn to him."I'm really sorry for that. He might be really... shocked right now..." I apologized.Uncle waved a hand to me. "No, I totally understand him. He needs to know it sooner or later, regardless. Anyway..." he put his hand on my shoulder before standing up, too. "It's getting late, I will be going. Tell Mathieu that I'll go to your school's Sportsfest next week. I want to see him play basketball, as you said.""I'll tell him, don't worry. Let me send you off."Sinamahan ko lang si Uncle Joey sa labas nung gate namin. His car and the driver is waiting outside
Tsk! I smirked. And do you expect me to believe na nag-aalala ka talaga sa akin?"You said you will always be around to guard me. That's your job, right?" lalo akong ngumisi ng nakita kong naguguluhan na siya. Hindi na alam ang isasagot. "You're my guardian after all.""F-fine. If that's what you wish. Hindi na ako makikielam, happy?"I shrugged. Ibinuklat ko ang book na nasa kama ko. "Ba't ka nga pala nandito? Aalis na naman ba sina mama?""Well...trabaho ko ngayon eh," he hesitated. "And something happened to our place so your parents need to go there.""Mmm," I've focus reading my book."You're not asking for more answers?"Tahimik akong umiling. "No. It's okay."Hindi na muna ako magsasalita ngayon. Wala pa akong ideya kung ano talaga ang trabaho nila pero may tiwala ako kahit na patuloy parin nilang ililihim ito.Since alam ko namang ginagawa lang nila ito para pro
I have made an art piece. It's made from 'baging'. It is a multi-purpose artwork. It could be a 'patungan ng mga kaldero' kawali' and it would be an adornment because it looks like a house. For sure, it will gain appreciations from appreciative people who has an eye for aesthetics and arts.Past 12, I saw Rodea. Her arrival was unexpected. Thus, I called her. She replied 'Wala pa akong pambayad sa'yo." Actually, I was not asking for payment. I was just startled by her presence. Thus, when Flor Rhina arrived home, I took the opportunity to go downhill (at their house). I want to talk to her. Her life is interesting for me.There, I have told her about Flor's act of pushing Untang to Christian. She partially was shocked.Then, we went uphill.Here, we conversed. I enjoyed her presence, frankly. I don't know why. But the truth was I pity her. I want to be a ro
"Salamat ha?""For what?" naguguluhang tanong ko."Para dito... Niyaya mo kong makipag-inuman kasi malungkot ako, diba...?" mas lalong lumawak yung ngiti ni Math. Nakaramdam naman ako ng pag-iinit sa mga pisngi ko. He's unexpectedly perceptive. Paano niya nahalata yun?! Nag-patuloy siya sunod. "Ayos na ko, Ellen... N-Nabigla lang talaga ako dun sa balita kay Mang Joey kanina..."I nodded before sipping on my beer. "I understand, Math. Normal reaction lang yan...""Inom ulit tayo sa susunod, ha? Kahit tayong dalawa lang ulit..." mahinang sabi niya sunod.That made me smile. "Sure."He just smiled back at me, then suddenly, he lay down on the sofa. He rested his head on my lap while his eyes are closed."Saglit lang, pahinga muna tayo. Nahihilo lang ako...""Umakyat ka na sa kwarto mo kung matutulog ka na. Wag mo kong
"Badtrip! Akala ko pa naman makakapagpahinga lang ako sandali!" Nahiga ako sa roof kung saan talaga madalas akong nakapuwesto sa pagbabantay.Nang naramdaman ko ang malakas na mana agad akong umalis at nagbalik sa bubong ng bahay nila.Hindi ako puwedeng magpahuli ngayon sa mga Vergara. Hindi ko pa kayang pantayan ang lakas nila.Pero nakakabuwisit lang! Kelan ba ako makakatulog? "Anong ginagawa mo?"Walang gana ko siyang nilingon. "Pre, inaantok na ako pre."Gusto ko nang matulooooog. But the only response I got from him is blank face. "So?"Umupo siya sa tabi ko. "Anong gusto mo?""Matulog? Pahinga?" I sighed deeply. "Ilang araw na akong walang tulog. Man, patulong naman."Grabe nga naman ang concern na ipinapakita ng mukha niya. Grabe ang caring niya talaga! Parang naranasan ko na rin 'to noon. Kapwa lalaki ko
Naghintay pa ako nang ilang oras sa pag-iisip na baka busy lang siya, dahil sa mga oras na ito, nasa school pa niya siya. Pero lumipas lang ang ilang oras, wala talagang tawag na dumating.So, I sent him a message on messenger even though he was not online.Ako: I'm worried. Why you didn't call?Nakatulugan ko na lang ang paghihintay sa reply niya. Hanggang kinabukasan, nang wala akong makitang reply sa kanya sa messenger, mas lalo akong nag-alala sa kanya.Ni hindi ko nakitang nag-online sa mga social media nang muli ko itong i-check pagkagising ko kinabuksan."Baka may iba nang babae."Napasimangot ako sa sinabi ni Sabrina habang nag-aalmusal kami nang sinabi ko sa kanila ang tungkol duon dahil napansin nilang matamlay ako.Hanggang ngayon, napakamapang-asar niya pa rin ang kapatid kong ito."Stop it, Sabrina," suway ni Mommy sa kapatid ko bago ito buma