“ Only our pillow knows the amount of emotions we hide from thr world” : unknown “I’ve had thousands of women, but that was, without a doubt, the best ever,” he exclaimed. “I’ve even had virgins before, but none of them felt asgood as that!”I lay on the bed, immobile, staring at the ceiling, wishing my life away.He stood and pulled up his jeans. “I don’t have to tell you this stays between the two of us, right? The consequences will be dire if you tellanyone about this.”I shut my eyes, not saying a word, not even caring about what he did or didn’t tell his father. My life was over. A monster had just stolen myvirginity. Nothing worse could happen.Except it could.“I’m not sure you know this, but I’m the one who is handing your brother logistics in India to study medicine,” he continued talking. “I’m the one who’s been liaising with the doctors at the Specialist Hospital over there in Jalandhar.I’m the one who controls the pa
truths are not to be told” Portuguese proverb Chapter 10“That’s okay. I’ll just come to you.” He sat on the bed, the tray on his laps. “Come eat with me.”I glared at him, still crying.“I don’t want to have to force you, zeynep. Don’t let me have to hurt you again. I don’t like seeing what I’ve done to your face. It would be so much easier if you’d just cooperate.”I didn’t move, but instead lowered my head, trying to wish him away.“You seem to think this is optional. You’ve forgotten what I told you about Orion,” he said, humor having left his voice. “I spoke with your father this afternoon. They now have a date for his resumption. It’s in another month. What a shame it would be to have to terminate everything!”That was all it needed to make me do his bidding. I rose to my feet and sat beside him on the bed, watching as he ate.“Madam Maria is undefeated. These eggs are delicious!” he remarked. “Are you sure you don’t want any of it?”I shoo
The tragedy of life is not death but what dies inside of us while we live Norman cousins chapter 11 I made a mental note to make sure to accompany the minister on any of his trips going forward. At no point ever again would I be left alone with his beast of a son. As I was dishing food to the minister bowl, I felt Ibrahim’s all too familiar breath on my neck. “I hope you are dishing some for me.” I tried to shrug out of his hold. “Please stop this. My husband is back.” He chuckled. “Your husband. You don’t know how ridiculous it is hearing you call him that.” I heard the minister's footsteps approaching and proceeded to summon all my strength to wrestle myself away just in time. Or was it? There was a look on Chief’s face I couldn’t quite decipher. His brows were furrowed, and he wasn’t quite as bubbly as he’d been only moments before. “You will love the food, sir. Ire we go again.” “Anyway, we can talk more of that later. For now, I just want to rest. It has
Not yet corpse Still we rot UnknownChapter 12Sleep eluded me.For hours after my return to my bedroom, I just lay there, staring into the night, watching as darkness slowly gave way to light. By the time dawn broke, I’d come to a decision. I’d married the minister as an exchange to my family, and I was determined to see the whole thing through and not to end up like my mother. I was going to fight for it if I had to, but by allah, I wasn’t going to return to india with nothing to show for it. Not after the minister and his son had already had their way with me. I came there to be a wife to the minister, and a wife I was going to be.Armed with my renewed determination, I rose to my feet, had a shower, and dressed up in my finest Salwar Kameez . I took the time to tie my brown head tie to give me a regal, more mature look, one that gave me an air of authority, one that could help me better pas
“I lost control when I was only a child, they world taught me angst when I deserved joy” Author of this storychapter 13“Knock knock”, I heard mimicking a Knocking sound before a head peered inside my room. “I made you some lunch,” she said, setting the tray on the table. From the aroma, I could tell it wasRogan Josh - Aromatic lamb curry with Kashmiri spiceI let out a long hiss, even as the smell of the food seduced me. I don't know where I gathered the courage from because papa would have landed me in the hospital if I hissed at him.I wished I was in a position to refuse the meal, but I was too hungry to.“Is something wrong?” she asked.“You’ve dropped the food, you can leave now,” I retorted. “I’m sure all of you heard the minister's insult me not only yesterday morning, but in the night as well. I’m sure I’m the talk of the kitchen, so don’t come up here pretending.”Madam Maria shook her head. “Zeynep, you became the talk of th
Chapter 14This world is too quick to judge and too late to understand Margaret Atwood I froze in my tracks, my pulse hammering in my ears. Seeing my father standing in the foyer of the minister's house was like watching the gates of hell swing open. His smile, the one that used to bring me comfort as a little girl, now sent cold dread spiraling down my spine. I instinctively shrank back, my steps faltering as my mind raced to make sense of his sudden presence.Why was he here? Did he know?"Zeynep, my daughter," he called out warmly, spreading his arms as if expecting me to run into them.I wanted to run, all right. Just not toward him.Every memory of his fury surged forward, unbidden: the sting of his belt against my skin, his booming voice tearing through the house, the way my mother cowered in silence whenever his anger flared. And now, standing here, I was no longer the little girl who had sobbed into her pillow at night. I was
Chapter 15“And she embraced the chaos as it painTed her life with purpose” JH.HARDWill I ever be happy? Will I ever be fine?I lost my hope within this time.I tried my best to be okay,But I never felt that anyway.I was on my way to a new beginning,Then this depression started getting in.Today my tears slowed for a momentAnd the words began to flow,so I want to talk to you mama about all the things that I think you should knowI miss you,I feels the painOf loss and grief and misery,Of never seeing you again.Sometimes l feel quite angryThat you left when you promised to stay,Sometimes I feel abandonedBecause you chose to go away.I worry that we failed you,I'm scared l let you down,And although you decided to leave meI wish you were still here now.I wonder if I could have done more,Even though I know that we tried,I understand this is forever,I feel empty, deep inside.If only i could have told youThat I love yo
Chapter 16 “Death is so strange, why is her room still intact like she would return” Unknown We rode in silence, with him reading his newspaper the whole time. Looking at him, I was certain he knew of my ongoing affair with his son. The same way he knew I was all too aware of his own numerous trysts. But apparently, putting up a show with a beautiful wife at his side was more important to him. I knew better than to try to make any conversation, so I just kept my mouth shut.It was only a 30-minute drive, but on getting to the venue, I immediately regretted wasting my beautiful outfit on such a local affair. Apparently, one of the minister's office workers was marrying off his daughter, and had made him the chairman of the occasion. We stood out like a sore thumb, with the locals captivated by the glamorous Mercedes Benz, but even more so by the beautiful wife.“Is that a human being or a spirit?”“You've got an eye for good things at
Chapter 79“There is no escape. Death will come, and it will come for us all.” — UnknownHe takes advantage of my shock to pull me back in the room.I want us to die in each other’s arms,” he says, his hands roaming my body as he lowers his face to mine. “Our naked bodies entwined in perfect union. That’s the way they will find us, loving each other even unto death.”Before his lips can claim mine, I reach for the now empty jewellery box on my table and smash it on his head with all the strength I can muster.He lets out an anguished yelp as he releases me, and I take the opportunity to run out of the room.Where ?, I have no idea. I run down the corridor towards the flames, hoping I can make my way downstairs somehow. But as I approach the stairs, the searing heat keeps me from attempting to go any further. The fire is raging furiously, obliterating the stairwell and, from what it appears, the entire lower floor. He must have started the fire d
Chapter 78"The most dangerous people are the ones who pretend to be your friend until they have the chance to become your executioner." — Unknown“That’s a nice hair style you have there. It seems strange seeing you without your head scarf,” comes a voice from the door. “I didn’t think I would find you here.”Even though the worst is over, hearing that voice still sends shivers down my spine.“Good evening,” I say to Ibrahim, as he walks into the room. “Something came up. I’ll be leaving tomorrow.”“May I join you?” he asks, smiling at my glass of wine. I shrug, and he proceeds to pour himself a glass. “I hear you were able to sell the place for a tidy amount of money.”I shrug again, not wanting to go into any details with him.“I’ve also put up the bakery and the house in New-York for sale,” he says. “My family and I are moving to Washington. With Dad gone, there isn’t much for me here anymore.”I don’t answer, and he sets his glass down. “Zeyne
Chapter 77."And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom." — Anaïs NinAt his lip’s touch, I feel myself blossom like the flowers that have now been discarded on the floor. Our kiss binds not just our lips…but our hearts and our souls. Cupping his face with my hands, I want to remain in that position forever. I want him to whisk me off my feet, take me to my bedroom, and make passionate love to me. And from his heavy breathing, I can tell he wants that as well.But then he pulls away and gives me a tender kiss on my forehead, bringing me also back to my senses. There will be plenty of time for us to explore each other…in every way possible. But not here. Not in this house.We walk inside, hand in hand, and sitting in the living room, I tell him about all that has transpired in the months since we have seen; my shocking inheritance from the minister and the even more shocking amount the r
Chapter 76 ."Out of difficulties grow miracles." – Jean de La BruyèreTears pool in my eyes as the contents of the note hit me like a slap in the face. Jacobi has left me, and despite what he has written, there is a high chance that he might not return. My heart, soul and spirit are crushed. Without him, what is there to look forward to?Early the next morning, Catherine eaves for New-York. By noon, the minister’s lawyer arrived. Barrister Evans is the minister's longtime associate, who was even part of the contingent that accompanied him to India when he came to marry me. A pleasant man who wears his age just as regally as his friend did, he is one of the minster's cronies who never lusted after me once, and was always genuinely nice to me. But today, sitting before us in the living room, he isn’t his usual humorous and playful self. He is here for serious business. He coughs before he starts to read.I, Omar royale wahah , a legal ad
Chapter 75 "“Some goodbyes are not farewells; they are promises to return or maybe not Unknown.But one thing I have not forgotten is the love of my life. Jacobi.The day after the manhunt for madam Maria i, I heard he was released from police custody, and I regretted afresh not having the wisdom to have saved his phone number when I had the chance. With madam Maria, the only person who could have helped me with it, I was even more regretful of the loss of the person I had once considered my closest ally in the house. As the days rolled by, but with no word from him, I have had to accept that he had probably realised I just wasn’t worth all that trouble. On my account alone, he lost his father’s hospital and was almost imprisoned for a crime he didn’t commit. Nobody would blame him for walking away from someone so toxic.But just when I have brought myself to accept that, this time, I have lost him forever, and that I will just have to m
“I am no bird; and no net ensnares me: I am a free human being with an independent will.” — Charlotte Brontë, Jane EyreThe call came at 4:12 a.m.I was already awake, lying rigidly atop the silk sheets he insisted I sleep on, staring into the heavy darkness. The phone rang—sharp, slicing through the stillness—and even before I heard the soft knock at my door, I knew.I knew but ignorance was a tool dangerous in the Right hands."The Minister has passed,and his burial will be held in the coming days" the news reporter whispered, her voice trembling.Maybe he was one of her benefactors too.Passed.Such a gentle word for a man who had been anything but gentle.Dead.Gone.Just like that.I swung my legs over the side of the bed and sat there, feeling absolutely nothing. No gasp, no collapse to the floor. No tears.Only a strange, hollow stillness in my chest, as if I had been emptied out long ago.The Great Minister. The champion of reforms.The man loved by the people — a
"And suddenly you know… It’s time to start something new and trust the magic of beginnings." – Meister EckhartHer eyes clouded with tears, and I turned back to look at the officer. “Can I speak with her in private first?” When he hesitates, I add. “I promise, she’ll answer all your questions later. Just give me the chance to talk to her first…to get her more comfortable.”That seems to do the trick, and he nods in agreement. I look at Ibrahim and Yusuf, and neither one expresses any reservation.Taking Catherine's hand, we enter the old vintage house. “Are you the only one home?”She nods, her body shaking like a leaf. “Zeynep, I didn’t know she was going to do it. Please, don’t let them take me.”“Nobody is going to arrest or take you,” I coax her.She wipes her eyes. “I know you’re angry with me. Angry because of…”“Because of the minister ? Catherine, you should know better. I wish you had trusted me enough to tell me. I thought we were friends,”
“Monsters are real, and ghosts are real too. They live inside us, and sometimes, they win.” — Stephen King“Poor girl, you don’t know how much I pitied you every time you came here, thinking she was your friend,” he said, still looking at me. “Almost from the moment you arrived, she did everything she could to get you out. I used to shake my head as she encouraged you to continue to receive that one,” he beckoned at Ibrahim with his chin, “in your bed, deceiving you that it was the only way to have some footing in the house, though she knew full well that the more accepting you were of his son, the more it angered Omar and pushed you away from him. She thought he would have sent you away years ago and didn’t anticipate you staying for as long as you have.”“But the minister had so many other women. Amanda, Clara, Lauralee, Clementina…just to name a few,” I say, my head still spinning. “I was the least of her problems.”“You were the one he ca
“The axe forgets, but the tree remembers.” — African Proverb“Where is maria?” Ibrahim demands.That soon becomes the question on everybody’s lips. Where is madam maria?Mary answers when she is summoned to the room. “I don’t know where she is. She hasn’t come upstairs today.”That in itself is an ominous sign, as madam maria has not for one day missed coming up from her basement apartment. Even when she hasn’t felt her best, she has at least ventured up to monitor the progress of work.“Let’s not get too hasty,” I pleaded. “Anyone could have intercepted the minister's meals. Let’s not jump to the conclusion that she did it.”“I agree,” Yusuf supports. “There’s no way madam maria could have done such a thing. Have you seen the state of her since he died? She’s even taking it worse than the rest of us.”“Nobody is suspecting her,” officer mark clarifies. “It’s just important that I ask her a few questions about who she believes might have had a