I stood up properly, I'm wearing a cut out side bodycon that was evident in my side boobs. With an index finger, I curl my hair.
"Kanina mo pa ako hinihintay?" Hailey asked and laughed while hugging me.
I was about to roll my eyes but she already pouted so never mind. She's too cute to be killed. She's wearing a simple white dress and flat shoes. Not unlike mine, I'm wearing high heels and a very revealing dress.
I sighed, "They are already inside but I'm almost 5 minutes waiting here for my cousin." I sarcastically said.
I held my wrist watch and looked at it. I'm right, it's almost 5 minutes for her.
She slapped me a bit in my arms. Hindi naman masakit pero automatic na umirap ako sa kawalan. Narinig ko pa ang pagtawa niya ng mahina bago kumapit sa braso ko.
"Grabe ka naman! It's just 5 minutes! Akala mo naman pinaghintay kita ng mahigit ilang oras!" balik niya sa akin, laughing while slapping my arm.
I rolled my eyes "Whatever!"
We started walking. I walked like a model so we're getting others' attention because I was probably in my noisy heels. May kumakaway pa sa amin kaya nginingitian ko na lang sila. Even their faces are not familiar to me. I still smiled because why not?
"Chave!" Hailey shouted.
We wave our hands as a greeting.
"Bobo kayo! Bakit ang tagal niyo?" salubong sa amin ni Chave.
I looked at the girls around him. They just look like a flirt. Oh, no offense.
"We're not Bobo, Chave." I said and rolled my eyes.
Chave chuckled "Okay edi obob na lang. Oh, ba't ngayon lang kayo mga obob?" pilosopong tanong niya.
"Naipit lang sa traffic, Chave. Tara na nasaan na ba si Lonch?" Hailey asked and looked around.
Chave nodded "Bakit hindi ka napirat kung naipit ka?"
I stare at Chave, he's being a pilosopo na naman, such a weird guy.
"Are you really our cousin, Chave?" I asked.
Hailey laughed "He's always like that Heart."
Nandidiri kong tiningnan ang pinsan ko na magkabila ang hawak sa dalawang babae na nasa tabi niya. A flirt one too.
"Oh, Chave Eliziar Nazario the great philosopher," I teased.
Chave chuckled "Oh, Poena Heart Nazario the great brat," he fired me back.
I glared at him, I admit that his gray eyes can make girls worship him. He's so handsome, the reason why I can't blame some girls for liking him!
"Shut up, Chave. Just go with your girls," I said and rolled my eyes.
I sat down on the couch, where Chave was sitting earlier. Hailey also sat beside me still looking around for the birthday boy.
"Let's find Lonch, Heart. Bigay na natin itong regalo." sabi niya.
She even lifted the paper bag she had, I was able to look at the paper bag I held. I'm not sure if Lonch will like my gift or not but at least I made an effort.
"Let him come to us, Hailey. I don't want to stand up. Tinatamad ako mag libot-libot dito. Their house is too big," I complained.
Nag-dekwatro ako at pinatong ang paper bag sa aking gilid. The others were smiling at me so I was returning it to them. I also crossed my arm over my chest and took a deep breath.
"Oh, come on! Don't be like that, Heart. Malamang nasa pool area," she shrugged "Let's go," she stood up.
She even held me, tamad akong nagpahila sa kaniya. Ah, I hate it!
"Oh dear Hailey! Just wait," I grabbed the paper bag I had. "You're too excited masyado mo bang namiss ang Lonch mo?" I rolled my eyes.
Hailey giggled "Of course, I do! Bakit kasi hindi ka ulit mag jowa para maexcite ka rin minsan no?" she sarcastically said.
Because of Hailey's loud voice some visitors looked at us. I felt like my face turned red! It looks like Hailey announced that I'm single!
I held Hailey's hand and grabbed it "Come on, Your mouth is like a microphone!" I was irritated.
Naglalakad kami para pumunta sa pool area. As usual some of them are greeting us. I just nodded and gave them a small smile.
"Oh! My baby is here!" Lonch sweetly said when he saw Hailey beside me.
I chuckled bitterly "Happy birthday," I lazily said.
Inabot ko sa kaniya ang regalo ko, I'm not literally sure if he gonna like what I bought.
"Happy birthday! Love. Here's my gift!" Hailey said, sweetly.
Lonch nodded "Thanks, Heart!" kinuha niya ang paper bag sa akin at kay Hailey. "Thanks, Baby!" he said to Hailey.
"Your welcome," Hailey said while blushing.
I watched them hugging and flirting or whatever. Akala naman hindi nagkita kahapon kung makapag yakapan! I no longer bother interrupts any more of their talk.
I sat in the lounge chair while crossing my legs. I also barely crossed my arms across my chest. I took a deep breath while roaming around.
Maarte kong hinawi ang buhok ko. I examined this pool area. It's a pool party? Oh yes, I guess.
"Heart! Mag-iikot-ikot kami ni Lonch. You want to go with us?" Hailey asked.
I shook my head "As if I want to be a third wheel. Of course not, just go." taboy ko.
Hailey laughed "Ang sabihin mo you're just lazy, Whatever."
They turned and walked away, I just watched them while they did it. They been two years together? I'm not sure pero ang alam ko mahigit isang taon na silang magkasama.
Sa hindi kalayuan ay natanaw ko pa ang iba kong pinsan na kumakaway sa gawi ko. I just rolled my eyes reason why they laughed. Maybe sanay na sila sa gan'tong ugali ko kaya pinagtawanan na lang nila ako?
I want to talk to them and make some chika but I don't want too. Nakakatamad lang talaga tumayo at maglakad.
"Come here, Heart!" Sele shouted.
I shook my head and rolled my eyes again. I really don't want to!
They laughed because of what I did. I don't know, why? Bakit sa aming magpipinsan ay ako lang ang ganito? Lahat naman sila parang baliw at weird pero ako ganito na. I mean, what's wrong with me?
"Such a brat!" Neejan shouted or announced? "Let's go," he commanded.
Napaayos ako ng upo nang mapagtanto na palapit sila sa akin. I stood up and hugged them.
"Sele, you're too loud," I said and hugged her.
"She is," Neejan interrupts.
I looked at him using my disgusting look "What's with that hickey?" I asked while pointing at his neck.
Lami laughed "Oh, he's always had that Heart! He said it's a mosquito bite,"
"Guys, Don't ask me too many questions. It's just style!" Neejan said.
"Yeah, It's style. Look at mine," Denver proudly said while pointing his finger in his jaw.
I swallowed hard. "And you both are proud, huh?"
Neejan and Denver laughed and nodded, nag-apir pa sila na para bang mga tanga.
"By the way, we're going upstairs. Doon muna kami tatambay sa isang guest room nila Lonch. Hailey is with his boyfriend so do you want to come with us?" Sele asked.
I immediately shook my head "No, I'm going to stay here," pag-tanggi ko.
I don't want to spend my time there upstairs while staring at their white ceiling! Mas ayos pa sa akin dito dahil for sure mas mag-eenjoy ako.
"Oh sige, akyat na kami," paalam ni Sele.
I looked at my cousins who waved their hands at me like a goodbye gesture. I just nodded and smiled. I returned to sitting in the lounge chair. I could still hear the whistling of some boys and winking at me.
"Heart, Hailey said na pupunta siya doon sa guest room kasama ang iba niyong pinsan. She said, ``Go there and have some fun with them." Lonch said.
I craned my neck to see a better vision of the guy beside him. He's folding his long sleeve polo shirt to elbow. He stroked his finger to his hair. His head lifted and I could sense the superior look that he had. His dark eyes give peace but it seems something different. It seems like when you look at his eyes sooner or later you can immediately melt like an ice.
I don't know but my heart started to beat faster. My chest is pounding so hard. I can't speak even if I want to.
Seeing this guy made me freeze! Seeing this guy made me speechless! He's very attractive.. Good-looking.
"Magen, let me introduce to you my girlfriend's cousin and best friend. This is Heart," sabay turo sa akin ni Lonch.
Magen? What a beautiful name!
Magen nodded and smiled a bit, he force his smile! He examined my looked and what I'm wearing. I smiled at him but he just raised his brows and shook his head like I disappointed him.
I took a deep breath, "Poena Heart," I introduced and handed my hand.
My heart is going crazy, I think wala na sa tamang pagtibok sa puso ko? When our eyes met I felt like a bomb immediately explode inside my body.
He stare at my hand, medyo nangangawit na rin ang kamay ko at kung hindi pa siya sisikuhin ni Lonch ay hindi niya pa ata tatanggapin ang kamay ko.
"Dawn Magen," he introduced using his husky and super manly voice.
Dawn where a daylight first begin. Parang nag palakpakan ang mga ulap dahil sa kaunting pagsilay ng ngiti sa akin.
I giggled, I didn't allowed myself to release his hand. When he notice it ay nakasalubong na ang kilay niya. Inangat ko pa ang isang kamay para mapigilan ang pagkawala ng kamay niya.
"What the hell is your problem? Let go of my hand," he said with a frustrated voice.
I chuckled, "You can call me Heart or Poena," I said.
Hindi ko siya nilalayuan ng tingin. Nakikita ko sa aking peripheral view si Lonch na pinapanood kami at umiling-iling na tumalikod at iniwan kami.
I smile widely "But you can also call me mine," I sweetly said.
I made puppy eyes and bit my lower lips. He just sighed, still with furrowed brows.
He raised his brows and shook his head "Huwag ako, Miss," he slapped my hand.
I shook my head and giggled "It's Heart, Poena or mine," pagtatama ko.
I let go of his arm, agad niyang nilagay sa loob ng magkabilang bulsa ang parehong kamay at nakangiti habang umiling-iling.
He raised his hand and chuckled "Gotta go," sabay ngisi niya pa.
I panicked and grabbed his arm. His lips parted when he looked at me. I smiled sweetly and shook my head.
"Don't go away," I almost begged.
I shook my head and snaked my arm around his waist. I don't know why I'm acting like this.
He sighed out of frustration "Hey, let go of me. Hindi na ako natutuwa, Heart,"
Hinigpitan ko lang ang pagyakap. Without any embarrassment I lifted my head in his chest. His manly scent! His amazing scent punched my nose! It smells so nice.
"I'm not joking to make you laugh," sabi ko.
He held my arm, parang may kuryente na dumalo sa buong katawan ko ng dumampi ang kaniyang kamay sa aking braso.
"Are you flirting with me?" He asked still with an irritated voice.
I shrugged and held him tight "If you say so," I giggled.
"Oh c'mon, I'm not into a flirty woman like you. So, let go of me and find some guy who can entertain you," he mouthed.
I lifted my head to see his reaction. Nakakunot lang ang noo niya habang nililibot ang tingin na para bang balisa siya.
I shook my head, "I'm not a flirt to go and talk to a random guy," I explained.
He chuckled and remove my arm for hugging him "But you acted and dress like you are,"
Umayos ako sa pagkakatayo. Our eyes met but I can sense the irritation on it. Parang kinukurot naman ang puso ko dahil sa paratang niya. I didn't even bother to approach some guys! It's only him.
Siya palang ang nagsita sa suot ko. I mean, some of my guy friends are praising me whenever I wear a dress like this, even my cousin! They said that I look hot with my dress!
"What's wrong with my dress?" I raised my brows.
He shrugged and avoided my gaze "I can see your boobs, Heart," he said.
"It's only side boobs, Magen" I touched my chest but he already slapped my hand.
"Stop it, Heart. Maraming nakakakita sa mga ginagawa mo. Can you please act like a real woman?" he annoyed said.
I stroke my fingers in my hair "What's wrong with you?" natatawang tanong ko.
He sighed "Just stay away from you,"
"But I liked you," I confess.
His lips parted, hindi ko naman masyadong nilakasan ang pagbigkas noon pero tama lang para marinig niya.
Umayos siya ng pagkakatayo at hinarap ako. I can sense his intense gaze that can make my heart fluttered so real.
"But I hate you," he said seriously in my eyes.
Para namang kinukurot ang puso ko dahil sa binitawan niyang salita. It looks like he slapped me the whole world.
"I don't care basta I liked you," I bit my lower lips.
He sighed "I don't care too basta I hate you," he fired me back.
His eyes tell me that he really hates me but why? I mean wala naman akong ginawang masama sa kaniya. I just hugged him and held his hand for a few minutes!
He turned his back and walked away, my ears filled with my pounding chest. I held my chest and closed my eyes. Yeah, I guess many bombs explode on my body! I bit my lower lips when I realized that he rejected me?
Does Poena Heart Nazario, who was spoiled for almost twenty three years of existence and chased by many men, was easily rejected by that guy? By Dawn Magen?
Pinakatitigan ko siya, even though I was struggling with many people I followed him. Some of my friends intend to talk to me but nasa isang tao lang ang buong atensyon ko.I almost run! Para lang maabutan siya. His broad shoulder and manly posture will be caught by my attention. Sa paraan ng paghakbang niya ay minamarkahan niya ang lupa.I watched him sit in a couch where Chave my cousin was. Ngumiti ako bago hawiin ang aking buhok. I gulped, I swallowed the nervous I felt. In my whole life has never felt like this maybe in recitation only at school do I feel like this. Pakiramdam ko ay binalutan ako ng kaba.Chave smiled at him "Hey! Kanina ka pa nandito? I thought you couldn't come!" he said when Magen sat on the couch.I smiled widely, they didn't notice my presence. I immediately pushed the woman who intended to sit next to Magen. No! Bitch! He's mine. Tinaasan ko siya ng kilay, Ano papalag ka? Sampalan na lang?"Oh! My cousin is territorial, huh?"Chave teased when I sat beside Ma
Don't assume!Bumuntong hininga ako bago tuluyan na sumakay sa sasakyan niya. I closed my eyes because of the smell of his car. It seemed like his smell embraced my heart. Nobody wants to talk, I'm afraid that if I say something he going to be mad at me. Maybe ganito siya kapag nakainom?I just focused my attention on the road. I could only hear the vibration of my chest and the fluttering of my heart. I swallowed hard, I can't open my mouth. Para bang 'yung presence niya ay isang rugby na nilagay sa lips ko. I couldn't be able to look at him because I was afraid my heart would swing!He sighed "Are you hungry?" he asked like he's not mad.I blinked twice, Nanaginip ba ako? Do I imagining some things? I shook my head. Nanatili ang tingin ko sa daan. I bit my lower lips. Oh! Stop it, Heart. Your heart will be rotten as hell if you assumes some things.I let a heavy sighed escape, I played my lips. I even played my fingers. Sana bumilis na 'yung oras at makapunta na ako sa unit ni Chave
MovedI blinked twice and swallowed hard. I felt like there's a big rocks inside my throat. He's too much na ha?I pouted and sat on the couch. Hindi ko alam bakit gan'yan na lang niya ako tratuhin. Yes, He can say it.. na tinutulungan niya ako but is it hard for him to be careful to say those words? Like I have feelings too! I'm not numb.How can I fell for that guy?!How can I fell to the guy like him?!He's too handsome and charismatic!He's too mean and so now I'm problematic!How I can hook his heart if in the first place bawal? He didn't let me in into his barrier...If he can't give me a chance for him to know more about me and even get to know him.Gano'n ba talaga? That there is time that you will be rejected. You understand that rejection but you don't want to believe it because... it's so painful.Kala ko pwede na.. maybe love does not provide pain, expectation can.I just stood up and went into Chave's room. Maybe I must first take a rest?I hope tomorrow pwede na.Hindi ko
WorkWearing my white slide slit maxi dress, I looked at the brown envelope that I holding on. I took a deep breath, Abot ata sa korea ang kaba na nararamdaman ko. Every steps, Napapapikit ako. I pulled the glass door. This is the first time I'm going to apply and I don't know if how I can handle this. I hope Magen will go easy with me.When I already entered, the smell of coffee immediately attacked my nose. It smell so good! Parang hinihila ako sa counter para umorder. I examined the place, it was vintage theme. There is a high chair and table that looks like used by a wooden materials. Damang-dama ko ang pagiging makaluma pero mayroong dating. This cafeteria looks cool! Magen have a good taste huh?Some customers parted their lips when they saw me. Of course they will. I knew they already notice my tiny waist. Actually, Some of my friends saying that I looked like a model and a very stunning women. I have a thick and strong eyebrows that makes me look fiercer. My color gray eyes sho
WaitressWe ended up here at the Robinson manila and I'm still thankful because my designer is free. I don't know what she's up to.. but yeah. She's not a famous designer but her designs are goods. I want her to be my designer everytime I want something new, she's a good friend of mine. I remembered when we're at the highschool. Parehas ata kaming nagkamuscle because of our research groupmates! The guts that my groupmates have! I will never forget that.I immediately looked at her when she sat down on the side of Chave. She's beautiful and I admit it. Well, I'm beautiful too but in my own way. We all beautiful in our own way and our own uniqueness. The only one who makes us ugly is the judgemental society and the only person who can pull us down is ourselves. No one else.It's all started with ourselves not with anyone. If you love yourself then anyone can accept you because in the first place you already accept yourself. How can others love you if you itself can't accept who you are?
LeftThe way he held his hand tightened to my hand I knew he was angry but why? did I do something bad? did I do anything ? last time I check i'm doing my job well! Kinagat ko ang labi ko ng huminto siya sa paglalakad. Ngayon ko lang napansin na he's wearing a plain white longsleeve and black slacks. Nandito kami kung saan ang locker area ng mga employee. Ang iilan ay nagulat pa dahil sa pagsulpot namin na agad rin na nagsilabasan.My heart is pounding so fast. I played my fingers because of the nervous that I felt. I swallowed hard and hoping to swallow all the nervous that I have inside my chest.Nakatalikod siya sa'kin but I still can felt the fire of madness. Kulang na lang ay umusok siya dahil sa sobrang galit at inis.Tinupi niya pa ng maayos ang longsleeve niya hanggang siko bago tuluyan na humarap sa'kin. Halos mapaatras ako ng makita ang mata niya. He staring at me darkly. He licked his lower lip and combed his hair using his hand.He sighed "W-why? I mean what the hell? Ba't
AgainI lifted my head and stare to the white ceiling. I blinked, I blinked twice... thrice before letting a heavy sighed while closing my eyes. I was about to take a nap when I heard my phone beeped.Even I closed my eyes the image of Magen and his girl still popping up in my mind. Wow, his girl? It's sound good sana kung ako 'yon but nah. I don't know why I'm really affected about it. Like I liked someone too back then but hindi naman gan'to na umaabot sa point na pinanghihinaan ako kumilos.Is she his girlfriend? I thought he said it's not his thing. I shook my head because it's driving me crazy. I immediately answered the call without looking at it."Where are you?" Nagmamadaling tanong ni Lami.I looked at I.d caller and yeah, I'm right. I sighed bago ibalik sa tapat ng tainga ang cellphone.I licked my lips "Just here at my unit doing some weird things like staring at the white ceiling and letting a heavy sigh escaped. Why? Do you have any probs?" Umayos ako ng upo bago mag-indi
WaveLiking him is like reaching a stars. So hard, so impossible and difficult. I don't know what's wrong with me? He let me saw his flaws but still... siya parin. I cleared my throat so I can go back to zero where I'm not feeling like this... but it's impossible too.I want to reset myself so I can prevent hurting myself. Ayaw ko ng gan'to because I know kapag mas lalo pang tumagal ay mas titindi pa 'tong nararamdaman ko sa kaniya. I don't want to take the risk but I think... I born to take this risk, again and again.I stood up and find Lami. I don't have enough strength to walk properly. A guy who called Magen help me to stood up properly. I just gave him a small smile as a thank you. Hindi naman ako nakainom masyado at ang pag-iwan ata sa 'kin ni Magen ang nakapagpahina sa 'kin. I can't help it.I took a deep breath and stare at my cousin who's busy laughing and talking to her friend. I tried my best to approach and convince her to drive me to go home in my unit. At first she didn