เข้าสู่ระบบI had picked out a few dresses, along with Triston's suits to match. I had that one duty at least.
“This is it.” I told the stylist, "If I can have…” I picked up the short emerald dress, “This one for tonight, and-” I pointed at the tan suit, “and this for him.” I smiled, “I’ll need a green tie to match, if you can get that for me?” The man nodded,
“Yes, Mrs. Ballard.” I nodded happily with my pickings. I didn’t decorate the house, nothing but my garden, but at least he let me do this one thing.
“Shoes?” My finger moved up, “Some heel-”
“Mr. Ballard did say that you may not want to do that. Said some sensible flats-”
I rolled my eyes, “I’m wearing a short dress, I would like some heels.”
A cool voice rang from behind me, “But due to you being sick, we may not want to do that.” I turned my head back. Triston was standing there, his dark coat jacket missing. He looked at the clothes on the hangers. “How about it?” I stared at him.
“No. I want to look my best. The doctor herself said I should be fine.” I sighed, “But if you don't want me to be taller than-”
Triston snapped back at me, “Pick your shoes.” He took his phone from his pocket. “Just don’t blame me if something goes wrong.” I pursed my lips at him, “Dinner is at eight tonight. They’ll be here to do your makeup at six, alright?” He asked as if I had a choice.
“Thanks.” With that, Triston spun around and disappeared as quickly as he appeared. He was gone. My body felt at ease with this. It was so odd to see him so much.
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The day was dragging on, barely lunchtime, when I sat down for my food. It was salmon with veggies. The usual- what wasn’t was the man seated across from me.
“Working from home?” I asked after my third chew, Triston’s eyes moved up to my face.
“Took the day off.” I couldn’t even stop the gasp that left my lips. Even on my deathbed, this man would still be working. “What? “ Triston asked, quickly, and I gained composure.
“Nothing, just odd that you aren’t working.” I felt my chest clench. I was saying more words to him now than I’ve said in… Last year. Usually, our communication comes through someone else.
“Well, there is nothing more important to me than my brother.” His eyes were steel, “Remember that tonight. You will not ruin his night with your-”
“I would never do anything to ruin Marcus’s day. You know that-” Triston slammed his fist onto the table. My plate shook, my hands moving away from my food.
“I don’t know that!” His voice boomed, “This isn’t a fucking game. I need his time here to be perfect.” I felt my breath being held in my chest. “You won’t ruin another thing for me.” With that, Triston stood up and left me at the table. Triston and I were like fire and ice. He burned, and I melted with him near me. I gripped the edge of the table before I stood, my legs wobbled, nearly giving out from under me-
The doorbell went off. My eyes were large as I heard it. It was early- I looked at my watch on my wrist. Too early for the makeup artist, who could it- again, the doorbell went off. Behind me, Rosy walked to the door. I had a feeling in my stomach. I was going to have to start acting quickly. I steadied myself following behind Rosy. I had made it to the door, seeing Rosy open it up
A loud voice erupted from the entryway, “ROSY!” His voice filled the house, “How I’ve missed you!” I saw his arms, grabbing hold of Rosy and pulling her into a tight hug. I moved from the shadows, allowing him to see me. Marcus looked much like Triston, with blonde hair and the same blue eyes. These, however, didn’t hurt to have on me. They were so much like Triston’s when we first met. The kindness they always had, the look of wanting. “Iris?” I smiled as he made way, sorry, towered over me. One thing he and Triston were different in was height. Marcus was huge, and before I knew it, I was in his arms.
I struggled to speak, “I thought your flight wasn’t supposed to come in for another few hours.” I barely let out.
He chuckled, “It’s a private jet, sis, they leave when I want.” He placed me on the ground. Taking in my face. “Iris, you dying?” Well… He was as brass as always. “Ohh- I mean you look pale looking… smaller-” He looked me down. “And skinny. You okay?” I smiled at him,
“Marcus, I’m fine.” I waved him off, “Just on a no-carb diet.” He nodded,
“No pasta will make you look like you're dying. Got it.” His goofy smile made me roll my eyes. “Where’s Triston? Still working?” His laugh made me feel less offended. I took a step back,
“He’s in his office.”
“Still working like always…” Marcus shook his head, “I’ll go get him-” No. My mind screamed at me. If Marcus saw him, in the state he just left, to see Triston’s makeshift bedroom in his office, he’d know. They were only married on paper.
“Marcus!” I shouted back for him, “I’ll get him- just…” I tried to come up with something: “Rosy, can you please make Marcus a drink?” I moved past him, fingers on his arm to move him back. “Go sit down.” I urged him. Quickly, I sped to the other side of the house. I knew where he shut himself in. Mostly, to avoid ever being here. I never had a reason to be here. I tried to avoid him when he was around. I came to the large door, my fist moving up until I remembered.
“Fuck it.” I opened the door. The dark room is only being lit by a single desk lamp. His desk chair was spun, and smoke was coming from behind it. I stared at the leather chair, “Triston.” My voice must have been the last thing he expected, and the chair slowly turned.
“What the hell are you doing here?” His voice was raw and rough. The lit cigarette in his hand as I stared at him.
“I thought you quit smoking?” His eyes moved from the cigarette to me.
“I did.” He spoke slowly, “But you have no right in telling me what to do.” He always told me what to do. But that's the punishment of living the way I did.
“Something's come up,” I took a deep breath, “Marcus is here.” His eyes grew large as he stood from his seat.
“What?”
The room around me seemed to silence as I stared ahead. "Iris." Oliver’s voice was faint, a mere whisper that carried a weight of acknowledgment. He knew his presence was unwelcome. He recoiled his hand, a small, tight nod accompanying his retreat. "You don't have to look so scared to see me. I was only trying to help—the cameras have been waiting for you to arrive for quite a while." He seemed to try and overshadow my fear with a flood of words. "You probably should have come with bodyguards, or at least used the back entrance." "I was going to, but..." I trailed off, the words dying in my throat. "Triston didn't think anyone would be out here for me." A slow, curled smirk spread across Oliver’s lips. "He thought you'd have no one waiting for you?" He let out a light, calm chuckle, tipping his head back in muse. I offered a small, weary nod, my eyes already searching past him to see where we were meant to be seated. "Iris!" I snapped my head toward the door just as Trist
My hand shook as I pinned back my curl, I had developed such a bad tremor in the last years- perhaps due to my illness, or the countless medications I have to take due to it.Triston's voice cut through the silence of the bathroom, "What color are you wearing tonight?" I turned my head up, "Green. I laid your clothes out for you." I spoke to him from behind me, he was shifting, probably muttering curses as I faced forward. "Is it a private event?" There was silence as I spoke, until Triston returned to the bathroom. He stood behind me, his hands extended to show me two watches."Which is better?" My brow moved up in question, as I spun to face him. I looked between the two, pointing to the solid yellow gold one. He lifted it, strapping it on. "I called to make sure the restaurant was guarded, the only thing I wasn't guaranteed is the entrance." Triston sighed, "I could get you in through the back- but what so wrong with a photo or two?" My eyes moved up to him, "Being on the news and
I came to the office, my hand trembling as I knocked on it. I was terrified of the outcome that was going to ensue. “Triston?” My voice called out weakly. I felt my face grow red, waiting for an answer. No answer at all, was I not loud enough? I knocked once more and was greeted by the door being thrown open. I was alarmed seeing his face, as he turned back, already walking back to the desk- documents being spread across it. Triston was still on the phone not bothering to answer me, I was sure it wasn’t even day time back at home, so he was still working into the night time again. I moved myself into the room, standing in the corner of the office, “Triston-” He moved his hand up, silencing me. I crossed my arms in front of my body. “We’ve spoken about this," He was already a ticking time bomb as he spoke. "We need to rerun the numbers before the quarter ends.” I felt like a fly on the wall, just listening to this conversation. I felt bad for the other person on the phone. “
I heard Triston's soft snores as we finally landed. This was supposed to be our refuel spot then we would be taken directly to our private island. An attenedent came up to my side,"May I interest you in some late lunch?" I felt my stomach grumble at the notion, nodding to her. "We have a braised beef bolognese, miso-crusted salmon or duck n bao?" I stared out at Triston, trying to see if I could order for him. Then I recalled... Nothing I cooked nowadays, no meals were truly shared. He was always eating something else. Instead I answered for myself, "I will have the salmon." I rocked forward on my seat, placing my hand on Triston's knee. It was as if I had shot him, his eyes peeled open staring at me. His voice showed his annoyance. Maybe to others it was out of his drowsiness, but I knew better. It was my touch. "What?" "They are serving us lunch while we refuel. What would you like?" Triston readjusted in his seat, "What do you have?" He asked the attendent, who repeated the me
I couldn’t sleep. Not a wink, my head was throbbing, my legs were shaking, and my mind was unable to rest. All that I could think of was Triston. My hand moved up to my lips, remembering his. Remembering every touch and caress. It almost returned to how it was before. When we were still in love. I had no doubt in my mind that it was impossible. We would never return to that, not now, not in a year, and probably not in another ten years. I had accepted it, but my heart didn’t seem to. It ached, and cried out wanting him back. Wanting him in bed with me, his smell in my nose, his hands touching me. I was scrolling on my phone, just checking the weather for the day. “Mrs. Ballard?” I turned my head to the door, “I’ve finished packing your bag. Should I make you your morning tea?” Rosy came into the room, a small smile on her face. I moved up my mug, “Beat you to it.” She was astonished, “Thank you, though, please make sure Triston is awake… and have a cup of coffee ready for him?
We giggled as we were dropped off at the front of our home. My arms were held close to me, the cool of the night forcing a shiver down me. Triston held me by my wrist, a different look appearing on his face. Maybe the heavy drinking was getting to him, too. With haste, he pulled us inside our home. The warm air engulfed us, our voices loud in the empty house.I stared into Tristin's eyes. His deep, ocean-dark look in them threatened to swallow me whole. And I would’ve let it.Triston gripped my cheek, his thumb pressing softly into my skin, forming small circles on me. His other hand slipped down the center of my back, brushing over the zipper of my dress. The inside of the house remained silent. A long sigh of fabric gave way as he pulled it down with effortless precision. The dress nearly slipped off me, and my skin felt the warmth of him as he moved his hand to touch me. We were both in such an absurd mood, Triston's hand twisted on the back of my head, pushing me forward. My breath
Triston’s face seemed to be deep in thought, his hand stifling the cigarette onto his wooden desk.“Why is he here?” I refrained from a smart comment,“It doesn’t matter.” I reminded him, “He’s here- so get out there.” Triston smiled to himself,“He’s an idiot.” My eyes remained on him. He looked s
I had lain in bed all night, not a wink of sleep in my eyes as I stared at the wall in front of me. A mural of a train station. I hated it—just a reminder of things I couldn’t change. I sighed before leaving my bed. It was undone, but the moment I came out of the restroom, it would be made up as if
(Five Years Ago)I pressed my lips tightly,“Iris, don’t smudge that lipstick-” My makeup artist warned me, “I spent over an hour finding that perfect shade!” She yelled back at me.I giggled but nodded in compliance.“Calm down- later on it’ll be smudged to hell and back.” The smaller lady shook h
Spring was in full force, shining in through my bedroom window.I stared out, seeing the tree’s branches wave. It was gorgeous, and although it was so within reach, I felt as if it was never within reach. I reached for the curtain, darkening the room immediately.My chest fully exhaled. The darkness







