LOGINKarel Devan had everything planned. Football was his way out of the home that never felt like his. For a while, it worked. Until Ferdi DeVries showed up. The school’s untouchable psychotic captain. The boy Karel had been quietly watching for longer than he wanted to admit. Ferdi doesn't know how to handle feelings. He only knows how to take what he wants. And what he wants is Karel. So he does the one thing that hurts most - –he removes Karel's name from the team. Now Karel has a choice: hate Ferdi, or keep wanting the one person he should never have wanted in the first place. Because Ferdi is his stepbrother's boyfriend. As dark family secrets begin rising to the surface, Karel discovers that their connection runs deeper than either of them expected. They can't be together. They shouldn't even want each other. But blood and obsession rarely listen. #This book contains extreme power imbalance, dubcon element, and abusive triggers#
View More“Please don’t do this.” I begged over and over, but no one was listening. I thrashed against their hold, but nothing. “I am your luna.” I screamed at the top of my lungs, but then his laugh from the other room broke all the fight in me. “Luke please.” I begged once more time, my voice horse.
“Kill it once it’s done. Toss her out. She will have to survive on her own from here on out.”
He can’t mean that. This was our baby. “Our baby.”
“Is a mistake from the Moon Goddess. One I will rectify.” His voice called again from the other room. He wouldn’t even face me. “Now do it. That’s an order.”
“Yes, Alpha.”
It was a mistake to come here.
It was a mistake to give him everything.
“Oh, and doctor?” Her sweet voice called from the other room. My stepsister, Shannon. I gritted my teeth. “Don’t use any anesthetic. She should feel everything.”
“Yes, Luna.” The doctor turned back to me with sad eyes, but when he picked up the scalpel, I knew I was screwed.
I’m sorry, baby. Momma couldn’t save you. She wanted you so, so much. I tried to rub my stomach, but the nurses had strapped me down. When the doctor approached, I realized he was using a silver blade.
“Silver?” My whisper was almost silent, but he nodded. I knew then that Shannon didn’t want me to survive. She wanted my life so badly that she lied about me cheating on my mate, showing photos as proof. But I never touched another wolf, nor would I again, not after this betrayal.
Why, Moon Goddess, why would you give him to me just to take him away? My pup.
I cried silently as the doctor cut into my abdomen, and I felt my baby thrash inside. He knew it was too early to be born. This was a death sentence for both of us.
“Bring me the body of the pup.”
“Yes Alpha.” I felt every slice as he cut into me, and finally I could take it no longer. I started to scream, soon I felt the blood trickling down my side, every drip off of me hitting the floor. I thrashed against the restraints. But the silver had made me weak.
I’m sorry, baby.
They weren’t trying to keep me alive, which I expected, but I wished wasn’t true. I used to love my mate, but I felt the love die in me when I saw my pup being ripped from my belly.
“Please, let me hold him once.” I tried to move my arms to reach for him, but I was still tied down. The doctor, who was shedding tears, brought my pup and laid him on my chest.
He was perfect. I rubbed his scent on my face and mine on his. He would forever be a part of my soul.
My missing piece.
“Doctor, now.”
“Yes Alpha.” The doctor picked the baby up and rushed out, leaving me spread open to the elements.
I felt my life slipping away as the door opened and Shannon came in. Her smug smile was firmly in place.
“I told you I would take your life, Amy. I would have your mate. And I have, over and over, since he found out of your betrayal.” Shannon walked over and laid a kiss on my face as I snarled. “He is perfection. And don’t worry. I will give him another son.” She laid her hand on her stomach and I started to laugh. “What’s so funny?”
“I can smell the beta on you. That’s Derek's child, and it’s a girl. Nice try though.”
She snarled and raised her hand, growing her claws to deliver the final blow, but the door was ripped open and my mate, the man I now hated most in the world, stepped inside. His eyes were red, and I started to laugh again.
“You bitch!” He snarled and struck out, whipping Shannon to the other side of the room.
“Brandon!” Shannon shrieked as she hit the wall. “What’s wrong?” She staggered to her feet, but more blood dripped out of me and I closed my eyes.
“You lied!” He screamed, shaking the walls as his aura struck out, but I could barely feel it. I felt the silver travelling in my veins getting closer to my sluggish heart. “This was my pup. I can smell me on him. He was mine.” Brandon's eyes grew redder as the tears gathered. “You said she cheated on me and that it wasn’t my pup.”
“She did cheat on you. I guess I was wrong about the pup.”
“You said you smelt it.” From the sound of it, he lunged for her again, but him clutching our baby in his arm was the last thing I saw. And I wanted to never see it again. He did this to us. Not Shannon.
She played her part well, sure, but him not believing me, not waiting for a few more days to smell the pup, that was his fault. And all of our downfalls.
I prayed for the moon goddess to take me. I no longer wanted to be here. I wanted to be with my pup.
“Save her.”
“No!” Shannon screamed. “I am the Luna now, you marked me last night.” Ah, so that was the pain I felt last night. His betrayal had bile shoot into my mouth. “I am bearing your pup.”
I started to laugh again. I cracked my eyes to see my mate, Brandon, hovering next to me. “Stay with me Amy.”
“Beta’s baby. She is fucking…the beta.” I choked out the words and laughed as horror bloomed in his eyes. Blood flew from my mouth as I smiled again.
“Save her.”
“No!” I slammed out, putting all of my power in it. “Don’t move.” I used my Alpha strength to freeze everyone, including my mate.
“How?” Brandon looked down at me, pleading. “Let me save you.”
“I am descended from the Moon Goddess, and you don’t deserve to save me. You don’t deserve our pup. You were weak. And now you lost everything.” I smiled up at him as I felt my life from my body.
And then I was free.
KarelFerdi held me so tight, his body pressed against mine like if he let go, I might disappear or something.“Don't move, okay?” he said quietly. I heard his heartbeat in my ears.I nodded, still wondering what was going on.He freed me about five minutes later, then held my wrist and pulled me toward his condo.“What are you doing, Ferdi?” I asked once we were inside his cold sitting room.He turned briefly to me, then let go of my wrist. “Isn't that what boyfriends do? I was just trying to learn.” He almost pouted.Fuck, why did I find him cute?“Don't tell me you went to Google to search for that.” I hiccuped with laughter.His eyes were innocent, almost too casual. “What if I did?”I walked past him, shaking my head as he stood watching me.“You're insane, Ferdi. You think that would erase what you did?” I poured a glass of water for myself, gulping it down and staring at him through the translucent glass.He went silent, his eyes dropping, his long lashes casting a shadow on hi
Karel I stood at the pitch longer than I intended after Dael left. I couldn't get Ferdi off my thoughts no matter how hard I tried. I couldn't even tell if he was doing this on purpose or just me misunderstanding him. Does he know what Pedro had asked me to do? That even scared me more than I thought. I walked past the semi dark pitch with only a night light standing a loop. Then I stumbled into somebody. “Watch it.” I said calmly but my eyes widened hesterically. “Zayne?” I almost screamed at the top of my voice. Seeing him here felt more like a curse. “What are you doing here?” I fidgeted, feet shuffling on the ground. Stay still, Karel. I took a deep breath. Zayne looked pathetic, like something hard had struck him. Wait have he found out? My heart pounded roughly against my chest. No this couldn't be. The ground should just open up and swallow me. I couldn't imagine the shame. “Are you okay?” Zayne raised his brows suspiciously. “What? I'm fine.” I sta
Miguel “Do it however you want.” Karel shot the ball into the net, his body rigid as he performed. “But your style is the best.” Dael pouted, shooting another ball into the net with full strength that made me shut my eyes as I dived to catch it. My chest tightened as it slowly seemed like I was the third wheel. They just ranted things to each other, leaving me the shit out of it. Karel looked surprisingly smiley and a bit uncomfortable even though it was just the three of us. I couldn’t help but stare longer at him—now I understand why Ferdi and Caine are all over him. “Show me how you do it.” Dael grunted toward Karel when I tossed the ball back to him. “Just shoot with your legs like you did earlier, right? It’s not that hard. Come to think of it, you’re on the basketball team. What the hell are you doing on a football field?” Karel said with waggling eyes and a palm to his forehead. “I need to be in the team next month.” Dael cried, chasing the already running Karel
Karel I pulled away from the kiss when Ferdi had no intention of stopping. A slim strand of saliva broke between us, our panting breaths mixed together. His eyes opened a little, just the lids shifted as he stared at me—unsatisfied. “Are you going to put me back in the team?” I pressed the question out with a sore throat. Ferdi's grip on my waist tightened, he looked away. He looked out of place for the first time in my whole life and it made my chest sting— he doesn't have answers. “I'm sure you heard my question." My words were shaky and unstable. "You're not.” He said quietly, almost like he regretted it which I know was that dumb facade he'd built to make people think he cared. My throat ached to even swallow properly, my body felt too stiff, the right words didn't wish to form in my mouth. “You didn't?”He didn't look at me but his knuckles turned white. My throat bobbed. “You asked for my loyalty, Ferdi. You fucked me, you did whatever pleased you with my body and yet












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