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Chapter 37: Believe
“I’m sorry for everything I said,” tahimik niyang sambit habang hinahaplos nang marahan ang buhok ko.
Nakayakap pa rin ako sa kaniya at hindi siya bumibitaw. Every time I would try to move away from him, he would pull me back in embrace me more and tighter. It’s as if he doesn’t want to let me go.
Pero aalis ako. I have decided that I will leave for now. I need to escape for now. I need to prioritize my well-being and my mental health... and staying here... won’t help me achieve that. Staying here only caused me pain. It caused me to lose someone.
I need to leave.
Nanatili akong tahimik na nakahilig sa dibdib niya dahil ayaw niya akong pakawalan. Mas lalo akong mahihirapan nito umalis. Ayaw kong umasa pero sa mga ginagawa niya, sa ilang mga sinasabi niya... parang ayos lang na umasa ako...
I need to remind myself that he’s in love with someone else.
“I’m sorry... that Reese insulted your mother...” I shift on my position when he said t
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