DOUBTMILESItell the guys to have a good night when we leave the restaurant after our celebration dinner and then walk to my car. It’s late and dark outside, and I wonder if Delilah is awake.Do I want her to be awake?I couldn’t stop looking at her throughout the game, but Lola is the reason everybody thinks I was doing it. I’ll let them think that, but Delilah stood out tonight. She’s beautiful and when she laughs, I can see the delight in it. Maybe it’s because we’ve been intimate, but Delilah is sexy with her big personality.Delilah is also my best friend’s sister, not to mention my nanny. What the hell was I thinking giving in to my lust for her?I see the other guys pull out of the parking lot and get into my car, warming up the engine. The other guys might wonder why I’m just sitting out here in the parking lot and think something is wrong. I don’t want to answer questions right now.I make the drive home, searching the windows as I park. It’s dark in there, but I don’t have
“He isn’t here with us. Nobody picked up on anything at the game tonight or dinner. You always look over at Lola.”“I think I did it a little more tonight, and it wasn’t always for her. It was you, and your laugh and that smile. Do you know how much that makes me want you?”I stroke her damp skin and watch as she looks at me. This is dangerous and we both know it. If we stop now, maybe we can recover from it. If we keep going, we’re going to get caught.Our families know each other and are together a lot, including her brother. Andrew isn’t stupid, and he’ll pick up on something eventually because he knows me so well. I don’t date and the obvious guess would be his sister.Then I’d lose a great friend and fuck up my team. I can’t let that happen.“We need to cut this off now, Delilah. So many bad things can happen if we continue.”I hate saying the words, but we both know it’s true. She’d pay for this as much as I would.“That’s what you want, Miles?”No. I want to be with her every s
HOW CAN THIS HURT SO MUCHDELILAHI throw on clothes without showering, eager to get the hell out of this house. Miles did me a favor by offering to take Lola for a walk and I am going into town to do something. I just don’t know what.Last night took a painful twist when he ended things. A part of me can see where Miles is coming from, but there’s another one that wonders if he feels this between us. It’s amazing and while it just might be sex, I don’t want to give that up.Is it, though? I’d probably get attached to sex that incredible, and there’s so many reasons that shouldn’t happen.I drive aimlessly and park in the center of town to wander. I can grab a coffee and some breakfast since I couldn’t handle food in his house. With Miles in the kitchen, I felt like I couldn’t breathe.Finding my favorite café, I order and get a table to wait. This place has shelves of books for customers to read, along with comfortable couches and recliners if you don’t want a table. That’s what I lo
“He’s outstanding. I have heard he’s rising in the league.”“I wouldn’t doubt it.”Colton orders and joins me as I set down my book, giving up on alone time. We chat about old school memories and our current lives and friends. It’s tedious since my mind is all over the place but also not awful. He’s a smart guy, hence his major, and we’ve always had pleasant conversations.“Would you want to grab dinner with me sometime, Delilah?”Everything crashes down as I comprehend his words, and I stare at him. Colton is smiling and looks hopeful. He’s such a sweet guy and easy on the eyes, so there’s no reason to say no.Miles. He rejected you.“Dinner? Sure. My schedule is a little crazy with the hockey season, but I can see what I can do.”“Are you a live-in nanny?”“Yes, because of the travel schedule.”We exchange numbers before he leaves to meet his sister and I stare blankly at the floor when I’m alone again. There’s no reason I shouldn’t go out to dinner with someone like Colton. He want
THE GREEN MONSTERMILESAfucking date?Delilah was in my bed on her hands and knees for me two nights ago and she already has a date lined up? I drive to the arena to park in the garage with the other guys so we can take our bus to the flight, telling myself to stay calm.I told her we’re done. Delilah is beautiful and smart, so why shouldn’t someone else snatch her up?“There he is.” Drew grins when I approach the private area in the back of the arena where fans can’t get to us. “Ready for these teams?”There are some skilled teams we’re going to battle with, and I need to have my head in the game.“You know it. We’ve been practicing for this, right?”I look forward since I don’t want Andrew to see right through me.“Is Del ready for a week alone with Lola?”He’s laughing and I take a deep breath, knowing I can’t blow it.“I sure hope so. She was active this morning before I left to come here. Mom said she’s there to help if needed.”“She seems to love Del. Lola looks at her like she
We go in for a pep talk from Gabe. He’s always positive and encourages the best in everybody, which makes him a fantastic captain. I drink water and rest for a few minutes, looking at the guys as they focus on Gabe.I know if I check my phone, there will be a text from my family cheering me on. Will there be anything from Delilah?We barely win the game with a 4-3 lead, and we all know how lucky we are when we leave the ice. It was a hard-played game for everyone, and my muscles ache from the long minutes spent out there.“Dinner meeting?”I look at Gabe, then the other guys, who all nod. We shower and dress to impress before leaving the arena and boarding the bus to go to a restaurant that offers us a private room so we can focus on hockey. There’s one or two in every city, especially the larger ones. The food is incredible, and I inhale it as I listen to the conversation, thinking about checking my phone.“Daddy win! Daddy skate!”Lola is happy when I call, dancing around in her jer
DATINGDELILAHI hide in my room, feeling so many emotions after sneaking into the gym to watch Miles from the top of the stairs. He’s just wearing shorts, his skin slick with sweat, and looking like utter perfection.I just want a cup of tea to get some much needed sleep, but I hear the music and give into temptation.I slide into bed, shifting as my body aches for him. I know all too well how he feels inside of me and press my lips together as I slide my hand into my underwear. I’m always wet for him, and I stroke myself, feeling my core grow slick with desire. I slide my thin fingers over my clit and give into the feeling that Miles gave me every time we slept together. Biting my lip, I stay quiet as the pressure builds and I’m finally falling over the edge.I have done this every night since leaving his room for the last time, and every release is explosive. It’s not enough, but it feels good on the surface, at least enough to get me through the day.I sip my tea once I’m cleaned
This just got interesting, and I don’t know what to do about it. There’s not a chance in hell I’d invite Colton to sit in the family section, but even being there with him sounds like a lot to handle.“Delilah? Are you okay?”“Sorry. I thought I heard Lola. That sounds good. Let me handle it on my end, and I’ll call you Wednesday.”We talked for a few more minutes and I set the phone down when he ended the call. I get that Colton is a fan, being from Colorado, but going to a game with him sounds like a special form of hell. It’s one I don’t know how to get out of since no excuse that I can think of makes any sense.I talk to Miles’s mom and when she asks me if I want to go to the game on Thursday, I counter with a request for her to take Lola since I have to catch up with a friend. They take as good of care of Lola as I do and love being with her.She agrees quickly and I thank her before hanging up.Now I can call Colton and tell him we’re on. First, I dial Alli’s number and she answ
“I haven’t wanted any lately and completely forgot to make some for you. I’m sorry. Let me make some right now.”“I can make coffee, Delilah. It’s fine. I’m just surprised you aren’t taking it in an IV these days.”“Sometimes, I just don’t want it. I’ve been trying different teas lately that Alli introduced me to. I made eggs and toast for breakfast, and I can make something else for you if you’re hungry.”I make coffee and focus on the tone in Delilah’s voice. Cooking is the last thing it sounds like she wants to do, and I wonder what’s going on.“I can do that, too. In fact, I can watch Lola if you want to take a nap. You’re probably tired after last night.”I feel her eyes on me and turn around. Delilah looks surprised and I arch a brow at her, just wanting to feel comfortable.“That’s nice. Thank you. She’s fed and playing, and you know her schedule. Are you sure?”“Of course. You do so much for me around here when I’m gone. Get some rest.”“Thanks.”The kitchen is empty a moment
REELINGMILESIarrive home two days later and find Lola and Delilah in the living room. It’s evening and they’ve probably eaten already,but I smell something delicious in the air.“Hey.”“You’re home. Long flight?”Delilah smiles in my direction, but she doesn’t meet my eyes and I wonder what is going on here. Lola makes up for it by grinning at me as she bounds across the room into my arms.“Daddy home!”“I’m home, sweet girl. How are you?”I hug her tightly, breathing in the sweet fruity scent of her shampoo as she babbles about life. I gather there’s been a lot of playing and there’s even a snippet about my sister in there, but I’m looking at Delilah the entire time while she’s still not making eye contact with me.“Did you go out with Auntie Brynn? What did you do with her?”That means that Delilah might have needed some time alone since I know how busy my sister is with school. Brynn adores Lola but she can’t find a lot of time to spend time with her, as much as she’d like. They’
“I am not pregnant, Alli. Just off. Now that you know the truth, imagine how crazy things are around here.”“I can only imagine trying to hide it from everyone, right?”“Yeah.”“So, you have time when Lola is sleeping because he is careful with her and then you lose sleep.”“Maybe that's why I’m tired. I didn’t do well in college on that schedule.”“A part of you doesn’t want to know? I’d need to clear it up to feel some peace.”“Well, it would be negative because that’s not it. I am like clockwork.”I pride myself on my discipline in life. I take vitamins at the same time every morning and pills at the same time every night. It’s a control thing with me.Wait. Did I skip them a couple of times before falling asleep on the couch with Lola? That wouldn’t cause pregnancy after being on them for so long. I added them to my morning vitamins.“Nothing is like clockwork. Have you been nauseous?”“Mildly when I make certain things, but not so much that it prevents me from cooking. I just ign
REALITYDELILAHGod, I’m tired. I know I have been pushing myself when Miles is home, but is it normal to want to sleep every time Lola is down?Maybe I am just catching up.I make sure that Miles gets his time with Lola when he’s on the road, but when she’s asleep, I generally am as well. The text chats are awesome and who doesn’t love getting off? I’m just tired at night.Come to think of it, I feel hornier than usual besides being fatigued. Great combo.The thing is when I watch games with Miles, I can see he’s not as good as he normally is out there. It’s not as though he’s causing losses, but he and my brother are a critical team out there.I try to think back and determine if he’s better when we’re keeping in regular touch. When he’s home, we don’t sleep a lot at all, and I know it affects both of us. I’d say we’re happy but just always behind on sleep, though I have the luxury of being home with Lola. I can nap and believe me, I do.Miles is practicing, working out hard, and pl
I go to sleep with her in my arms, warm and soft. I wasn’t a fan of sleeping in a bed with a woman before and Kim had been the only one in recent years when we were together. It was always sex and then I’d be gone, or they would because I didn’t crave intimacy.What is happening now?The next couple of weeks blend with practice, games, and home time. It’s always a rush and ends in my bed where we push ourselves even if we need sleep. The girls come to games and I fucking love it; I look over there more and more as the days pass.“How is it with Lola getting older and learning about the game?”Gabe looks at me after practice one day, and I smile.“Great. She wants to wear her jersey and cheer me on now, and it’s amazing. Obviously, she won’t learn everything right away, but she knows what a goal is. It’s a start and we’ll build on that. Delilah is good about teaching her as much as she can.”“You have a good situation there.”What am I hearing in Gabe’s voice?“It worked out perfectly
KEEP THOSE HOME FIRES BURNINGMILES“Are you seeing someone?”I look at Andrew from another hotel bed as I unpack a few weeks later.“No. Why do you ask?”I play back everything that’s happened to see if I find a spot he might have seen something happen with Delilah. We’re still secret, but behind closed doors when Lola is asleep, we’re explosive. I have noticed a difference in her sometimes when she’s relaxed, and this beautiful smile crosses her face.“You seem different, like when you’re with someone. Distracted, but you play like a beast, like everything is right in your world. Granted, I haven’t seen you with too many women, but it’s the way one of us gets when we’re dating someone new.”“I don’t have time to date, with this and Lola, so no. I’m happy with my daughter and when I get time with her, my world is right. Maybe Lola is the missing puzzle piece.”I need to get him off this subject. If he analyzes Delilah, Andrew will do the math. It’s obvious who I spend the most time w
“For the record, I didn’t know Mom invited him, but they are close so I’m not surprised. You did great apart from hiding for part of the night. Lola doesn’t need someone back there with her the entire time, you know.”“She wanted books, and I knew she’d probably miss them later. You know I can’t tell her no.”“I hope that’s how you feel about me.”Of course, it is.We get her home and Miles puts her to bed while I load the fridge up with the leftovers. As I stand, arms wrap around my waist, and I smile. Miles turns me to face him, kissing me with the same intensity I felt towards him all night.“Hi.”“Hey.”I smile at him, and he draws me closer for another kiss. I wrap my arms around his neck and tilt my head to deepen it, enjoying his moan in response. Miles taps my leg and I wrap them around him so he can carry me to his room. He has practice tomorrow morning, so it’ll be back to the routine, and we need as much time as we can get together.We’ve been in here a few times since he’s
PART OF THE FAMILYDELILAH“You’re here!”I look up to see Brynn and smile at her from my spot on the sofa.“Why are you in here? Is Lola okay?”I’d been lost in my thoughts and wondered how long I’d been here. Lola is fine, but I sat down and left the planet.“She’s fine. I just got comfortable.”“Tired?”I can’t tell Miles’s sister I had wild sex with him just hours ago after doing it the night before, but I can nod, so I do.“I guess. Isn’t that the norm with a toddler?”“Probably. I don’t need to know that for a long time. Come on. Dinner is almost ready, and I want to see my brother.”I stand and glance at Lola with her doll before following Brynn into the kitchen. Miles and his parents are chatting away in there as Linda stirs the chili, looking like she’s in heaven.Miles looks at me before Brynn bounces over to him.“You were awesome on that road trip. The team couldn’t have done too much better than you all did. Congratulations.”“Thanks. It was a long week, but worth it. How
Gabe stands near his car in the parking lot and a chorus of voices answer him in the dark. I slide into my car and start the engine, letting the quiet sound relax me.Smiling, I pull out of the lot and go home, where my heart and soul are waiting for me. Once I park and get out, I can see a light in the living room and I set my bag down in the hall to see what is waiting for me.Delilah is passed out on the couch with her phone beside her and the TV on. I assume she was watching a movie and maybe scrolling as she tried to stay awake; I smile as I take her in. She’s partially covered with a blanket, but I can see the edge of a black camisole that makes me hard.I grin and walk over, dragging the blanket off to find her in cotton shorts. Short ones. She shifts with a little moan as I slide them down, staying asleep as I listen for Lola. On the monitor, my daughter sleeps soundly.I spread her legs and crawl between them, inhaling her sweet scent before covering Delilah with my mouth. I