CHAPTER 4

Dairy ni Lhiam

the reason why ,paano niya na gustohan siya mea dahil simple lang siya babae.ito ang tipong babae na gusto niya sa Isang babae at Nakita niya LAHAT sa katangian ni mea.

National high campus, 18th of August on the afternoon under acasia tree, my world change completely of her presence. While I was busy sight seeing of our campus she passed by and directly told me, scaper! why are staying here alone during class hour? I was shocked and didn't get to answer her. she continued walking towards our school building, and I don't know why and what but was attracted by her simple presence. While she's walking towards the school her hair seems to like dancing with the wind and couldn't explain what I'm feeling that day...

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‎And yes I feel admiration, admiration of her looks, her attitude, her hair, just everything about her. at the age of 13 she was my first crush!.

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‎As I come home I couldn't stop thinking of her, her face is still in my mind, her voice, and I, what is this I'm obsessed of her already!.

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‎The next day in class while our teacher is calling are names for our attendance. Because of longing for her I expected her to be my classmate or perhaps same as my grade level since that day I saw her she's like at 8th grade too...

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‎For the first time I listen to our teacher calling names for attendance. I looked every classmates saying present, then at this moment our teacher said mea is Mea here? A familiar voice from the third row catches my attention. As I look at the corner slowly their she is smiling looking Soo innocent.

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‎My heart was like beating a million times, my mind is like that's really her. while I'm still looking at her for about 10 seconds my whole world was like in slow motion.

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‎From that day on i was always present in class, every afternoon I follow her home from a distance, while she's walking alone home like the world around her doesn't exist. I Was so attracted by her simplicity. Everytime I have the opportunity to take a picture of her I silently snap every little action she's doing saving each photos in my SD card and USB. Following her in campus just acting like na I was here for no reason, the fact that I'm stalking her every single day.

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‎I laugh and smiled at home in my room just by looking at her stolen pictures for hours.

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‎As days turns into month, months to years. we're now at our grade 10, surprisingly on our first day of class as I entered our classroom, their she is sitting on the third row again. I Was shocked that of all the sections were once again classmate but no you can't be noticed we have to stay calm.

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‎The stalking keeps on, the pretending to be mehhh is on. but that moment I know I feel something different I feel love for her, I get jealous everytime shes talking with other boys. I Know that I'm inlove with her but I can't confess my feelings. Im scared in full of what ifs in mind. so I was contend by just admiring her from a far as long as I see her every day that's enough and already completed my day.

‎As I becomes a scaper again and lack interest in school, cause you know during my high school days school is boring for me I have only one friend Alex. Later did I realized that we both have the same crush!

‎One afternoon as I seat on my chair I noticed a tinitiny folded envelope on my chair armrest. As I open, inside is a note saying "bakit kapo di pumasok kanina". my world freeze thinking who is this being concern...

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‎Days, weeks, and months went on every time I absent on a single subject a tinitiny notes is on my chair. Some times saying "pumasok kanaman po palagi" "bakit ba pala absent ka" I was so curious of who is being concern with me up to the point I become a detective agent of my own chair. I scape one subject and wait for someone to put notes or seat on my chair but it was nothing.

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‎Hoping and praying that it was MEA did that I wrote a diary of my grade 10. Years have passed mea seems like nothing. have no interest in me at all she's in school Bahay mode for years.

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‎As years passed by at senior high school my admiration for mea kept going on and my heart saying love her no matter what is getting stronger. I get jealous everytime shes talking to other, I always looked at her when she's not looking, I was being concern and already treating her as part of my life without her knowing.

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‎Then the COVID 19 pandemic shelter and separates people globally our mode or learning shifted from face to face to modular, so I have no chance of seeing her face again day by day.

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‎On my senior high school graduation I posted my graduation photo. out of no where after almost a year mea commented on my picture saying.

‎"oy crush ko to ehh matagal na"

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