Waiting You To Love Me

"It is hard to understand that I don't love you?"

"How many times do I have to say that I don't love you!"

I can still hear his voice repeating those words over and over. I look at the sky where the raindrops were still dripping. It was as if it were sharing the sadness I was Feeling in those moments.  The sky witnesses how much I am hurting right now. The sky witnesses how it hurts.

I love him, I love him so much that I can forget to love myself. I love him even if he says he doesn't love me. I love him even if he says he loves someone else.

How can we stop ourselves from falling In love? If anyone knows, can someone tell me? So that, I can stop myself from falling In love.

Over the days, hours, minutes and seconds, he is still the one my heart wants to love. I can do nothing, but fool myself and give in to my hearts desire.

"Sunny!"

From behind I heard Easton's voice. A friend of my cousin and also a friend of the person I love. Nakita ko sa mata niya ang pag-aalala. Sana ganoon din ang makita ko sa mata ni Wesley. Sana gano'n din siya tumingin sa'kin.

I gasped. I want to physically hurt myself. I hoped again that he would follow me and retract what he said, even though I knew it was vague. I just hoped again, Damn!.

"You, ok?" he asked, when he could get close to me. I just nod my head even though, it could see on my face that I wasn't ok. I can clearly see pity in his eyes as he stared at me.

"Why do you always hurt yourself? Just let him go, Sunny."

I shook my head. 

Thanks to the rain, and he didn’t see much of me crying in front of him. Even though I know he saw me crying before leaving the bar.

We just went to the bar and this is what happened, I was hurt again. He hurt me emotionally again

"I-I hope it's easy." He sighed when he heard me sob.

Why do people always get hurt about love? Why do we love people who can't love us?

"Let's go. I'll take you home." I just agreed for him to take me. I don't want to see other people cry. Sunny Miles Enriquez, The woman who is stubborn and rude to everyone is crying?

What I don’t like at all is that other people feel sorry for me. I'm not miserable. I'm Enriquez, the ruthless Enriquez.

When I got in the car I saw a man standing in a tree. I took a deep breath, I don't want to assume again. Maybe I'm just kidding my self. And I just want Wesley to follow me and say, I'm the one he loves.

Really Sunny? Will he really say you are the one he loves? Even more clearly in broad daylight that he loved someone else.

Stop relying on yourself Sunny. That's enough. Tomorrow again.

I laughed at the thought. Tomorrow again? See! I'm so stupid to him. Even though he hurt me emotionally, tomorrow I will smile again and chase after him again.

I will chase him again and at the last hour of the night I will be hurt again.

Tama nga sila, ang hirap magmahal sa taong hindi pa tapos magmahal sa iba.