เข้าสู่ระบบ植田慎司(うえだ しんじ)によって精神病院に送り込まれてもう3年が経つ。私の中にはもう生きる気力なんて残っていなかった。 寒さの厳しい冬のある日、慎司の新しい恋人が現れ、やつれた私の頬を優しく撫でた。 「あなたが、慎司の奥さん?」 私は警戒するように山田智子(やまだ ともこ)を睨みつけただけで、何も答えなかった。 すると次の瞬間、相手は瞳に猛烈な殺意を宿しながら、私を階段から突き落としたのだ。 「あなたが消えてくれさえすれば、私が慎司の奥さんになれるって、みんな言ってくれるんですよ。だから早く死んでくださいね!」 咄嗟のことで一切反応できなかった私は、そのまま階段から落ち、頭から血が流れ出すのを感じた。 手術室で丸一日生死を彷徨ったが、何とか死の淵から這い上がることができた。 血走った目の慎司が駆け込んできて、私の手を固く握りしめる。 「日和(ひより)、約束する。君が助かった後に、智子がやったことを公にしないでいてくれるなら、過去のことは全部帳消しにしてやる。それに、これからは二度と君に迷惑なんてかけないから!」 私には、返事をする気力も残っていなかった。 その時、頭の中でずっと沈黙を貫いていたシステムのアラート音が、突然鳴り響いた。 「おめでとうございます。任務対象からの罪悪感ポイントが100パーセントになりました。この世界からの脱出が可能です」 私は小さく安堵の息を漏らす。 ようやく、家に帰れるのだ。
ดูเพิ่มเติมIf I was meant to be controlled, I would have come with a remote. Quote by no idea?
Noah glared at the frail old man standing before him, leaning on his cane heavily. “Let me get this straight. You want me to marry your seventeen-year-old daughter?” April had come along late in the old man’s life. He had been in his 60s when April had been born.
Her mother had caused a scandal by running off with the gardener when April was only 3 months old. Gail had only been in her early twenties at the time of April’s birth. She had been a city girl. Living in the country with an older husband and a baby may not have been the life she signed up for or thought she would be getting. Everyone believed she had been in it for the money. But hadn’t been able to stomach it in the end when a younger, sexy man had been available.
There was no doubt in everyone’s mind that William Harrington would have had April’s DNA tested after that.
It only proved she was the true heiress to the Harrington family because she hadn’t been farmed off somewhere and never seen again. But why was William trying to marry her off now?
Noah knew it was legal for a seventeen-year-old to get married with their parents’ consent, but in his eyes, it was nothing short of pedophilia. He wasn’t attracted to girls.
He had been nice to April when he had seen her. Her father often brought her to events. April had always looked uncomfortable, and he felt sorry for the girl. Often making sure he paid attention to her. Trying to bring her out in conversation. More often than not, she spent the evening looking at her feet, trying to hide behind her father, aiming to be as invisible as possible. Poor girl, she was chubby, socially awkward and out of her league with some of the bitches in society. He had seen how her cousin, Porsha Harrington, had spoken to her younger cousin. April wasn’t equipped with a mean bone in her body, so did fight back.
Now her father wanted to marry her off like she was a prized mare or something. “I’m sorry William, but I’m not marrying April.”
The old bastard eyed him. “I’m afraid that’s exactly what you will do, Noah.”
Noah laughed. “Unless a shotgun is involved, I’m really not sure how you think that will be possible.”
“I don’t want you to marry her until she is eighteen, which will be in one month’s time. But I need someone to look after her. I’m not sure how long I have to live,” William explained.
Tellling Noah without explanation, something medically was wrong. Because why the rush if there wasn’t? “William, while I’m sorry to hear that.” Noah really was. He liked the old man, the sly old dog that had been able to run his empire on his own. “It doesn’t change the fact I will not be marrying April. She doesn’t appeal to me at all. She isn’t woman enough for me.” After all, she was just a child. She still had a bit of puppy fat. Noah wasn’t sure if it was even politically correct to call it that anymore. And she had braces on her teeth. Her eyes were absolutely mesmerizing. They were a captivating shade of sea green, although her long bangs often obscured them when she wasn’t making direct eye contact.
April was coming in from the garden. As she headed to her father’s office, she thought she would freshen up his dark, masculine office with the beautiful flowers she had just picked from the garden.She noticed that his door was slightly ajar, and the voices coming from inside caught her attention, causing her to pause. She hesitated to enter, in case he was with someone important. However, just as she was about to walk away, she recognized the voice of the person accompanying her father. It was Noah. Her heart skipped a beat upon hearing his voice, and at first, she was so captivated by the sound that she didn’t even register the words being spoken.
When she did, and then she wanted to die. “It doesn’t change the fact I will not be marrying April. She doesn’t appeal to me at all. She isn’t woman enough for me.” It hurt. She had been secretly crushing on Noah for years. She knew he was completely out of her league. His next words made her heart break.
“She is socially incapable of holding her own. She is so shy, insecure and doesn’t even look like wife material, let alone act it.” Noah said from inside the office.
April clutched a hand to her chest. She wasn’t sure what her father was doing, but it didn’t matter. She had always thought Noah was her friend. But to hear him talk about her like this proved to her he had never been her friend. Had he using her to get close to her father?
Not wanting to hear him shred her character anymore, she left the house through the backdoor. April walked through the garden, thinking. She hadn’t ever thought she was in Noah’s league and believed nothing would ever come of her crush. Not when he dated women like Willow, a famous runway model, and before her, it had been that indie filmmaker and surprise - surprise she had been gorgeous as well.
Knowing she was out of his league hadn’t stopped her from daydreaming about him. His intense gaze had the ability to make her knees go weak. His smell could render her speechless. But she wasn’t woman enough for him. It hurt. She didn’t know why she let it hurt her, but it did.
Noah had always been so nice to her. That was until today. He hadn’t said it to her face, but did that really matter? He had voiced it to her father. Not realizing she was there listening to him.
It wasn’t like she didn’t believe he wouldn’t say it to her face. Noah was known for being honest and not always having a filter when he didn’t like someone. April drifted across the garden, not really seeing it, and she sunk down near a flower bed under a tree.
Putting her gardening tools and the flowers she had already cut this morning to one side, she automatically started pulling weeds out, forgetting to put her gloves back on. Not that she cared about getting dirt under her short nails.
Noah looked outside the office window, frustration humming in every line of his body. Noah watched as April moved past the window before sitting down near a garden bed. He felt sorry for the poor girl. He hoped he was the only person Harrington had approached with this offer. The man wasn’t selling frigging cattle here, but his daughter. Talk about a control freak.He couldn’t understand why William was so insistent on him marrying April. Noah had no interest in her, and he couldn’t fathom why her father couldn’t see that. He had always treated April with kindness, but that was out of sympathy, not a romantic attraction.
She reminded him of himself when he had first gone to university on a full scholarship and most of the students there had been blue bloods, rich and well to do. He had felt like a cuckoo in the nest. That’s how he saw April. She was a bookish young woman who had more interest in reading than parties.
“I’m sorry. You know I’m with someone.” Noah had no intention of talking about marriage to Willow, who he had been seeing for months now, but William didn’t need to know that. Willow was easy to be with. She wasn’t demanding of his time. Because she was often overseas modeling. She was hot property right now in the modeling world. Noah was sure he wasn’t her only benefactor in more ways than one. He hadn’t had a lot of time for her lately. Work. He was working fourteen to sixteen-hour days. Work was all he worried about lately.
William smirked at him, waving off his girlfriend as if she was unimportant in his eyes. “I know what worries you Noah and I can be your worst enemy or your father-in-law.”
Noah felt sick. He had told no one about his worries, not even his best friend, Ryan. “What are you trying to hint at?”
“How you expanded your hotel business buying up more hotels just before covid hit the world? The shut downs damaged your business.”
“Mine and thousands of others.” Noah wasn’t going to give the man anything. Let him play his cards first. Even though he had a sick feeling about where this was going. He had started in the investment world until the opportunity came to buy his first hotel. Which he had remodeled and then, as that had grown, bought another. Who would have guessed that covid would spread like it had, causing mass global shut downs and devastation not only emotional but financial.
“Do not toy with me, Noah. I have acquired your debt from the bank. I can demand payment immediately, or you can choose to marry April instead. In that case, we can forget about the debt, and you will become my son-in-law, securing a better future for April and yourself.” Noah had an intense urge to leap towards the old man and choke him, but he restrained himself. William was unwell. However, without uttering a word, Noah walked over to a chair and settled himself into it.
How had it come to this? Noah couldn’t believe it. If it wasn’t for covid, then he wouldn’t be in this mess. But he refused to let it defeat him. Why hadn’t his bank told him that William Harrington had bought his debt? The news had blindsided him.
William waited in silents for a few moments before saying. “I’m going in for an operation after April’s birthday. There is only a 10% chance of it not killing me on the table. She is eighteen in four weeks. If I don’t have the operation, then I’ll be dead before the year is out.” William sighed and moved around behind his desk and sunk down heavily into his own chair. Facing Noah across the large oak desk. “Even with the procedure, they have given me five years max. I’m an old man, Noah. I need someone to look after my daughter.”
“Why me?” Noah knew if he didn’t do what William wanted, he would lose everything.
“I know you Noah. I have had to deal with you in the investment world before you started buying hotels. It’s cutthroat out there, but you still hold a reputation of someone that can be trusted. You’re working yourself to the bone so you don’t have to lay anyone off within your company. Let me fix that for you.”
Noah sat in the chair, head down and elbows resting on his knees, his mind racing. He had worked hard to build his reputation in the business community, but he never expected it to come back to haunt him like this. The thought of marrying April, someone he had never been attracted to, was unacceptable. But did he have any choice? It was marry the chit or lose everything.
“I can’t just marry her because of a debt,” Noah finally spoke, his voice filled with frustration. “I have my own life, my own plans.”
William leaned back in his chair, his gaze steady. “I understand your concerns, Noah. But think about it. When I die, April will be a very wealthy woman. She has no interest in running a company the size of mine. She finds enjoyment in flowers, gardening, horses and the children in the village. It’s time you settled down.”
He had been living a relentless, work-focused life, neglecting any personal connections. His relationships had been shallow since his involvement with Ashley at university. April and Ashley both had the same initials, A.H Ashley Hamilton and April Harrington. One was a fucking slut and the other a fucking virgin. Talk about polar opposites.
But what about Willow? Noah didn’t love her, but he had been with her longer than he had ever been with anyone since Ashley.
“I need time to think,” Noah said, his voice heavy with uncertainty. “I need to talk to Willow. I won’t make any decisions until then.” But he knew he was backed into a corner. He just couldn’t ring his long-time friend and ask him to help him out. Ryan, like him, had been sitting tight since covid had hit. Ryan had loaned him the money to start out on his own after university. His best friend would help him in a heartbeat if he just asked. But it would hurt his pride to tell him he needed help again.
William nodded, understanding the weight of Noah’s dilemma. “Time is not on my side. April’s birthday is approaching, and the clock is ticking. I would like to have the operation as soon as she is married.”
Before looking out the window to his daughter as she knelt in the garden weeding. “Come to dinner tomorrow night. I will give you until then for your answer.”
Leaving the office, Noah’s mind was overwhelmed with conflicting thoughts. He felt trapped, faced with choices that were far from ideal. If he agreed to the marriage, he would be committing to someone he didn’t love. While he held affection for April, it wasn’t love. After Ashley, he wasn’t even sure he was capable of love. On the other hand, refusing to marry her would result in William calling in his debt, leaving Noah financially devastated. Fuck! this was a mess.
However, Noah acknowledged that it wasn’t April’s fault; she was an innocent caught in the midst of her father’s manipulative games. He needed to consider the consequences of his decision not only for himself but also for April and her future.
Walking through the garden, Noah glanced at April, who appeared lost in her own thoughts while tending to the plants. He made a solemn vow to himself that he would never reveal to her the truth about her father’s actions, believing it would only upset her. Who would want to know that their own father was essentially selling them? Noah saw himself as an honorable man and made a firm decision that he would never lay a hand on her. She would remain pure and untouched.
智子は通話を終えると、墓石の隣に座り、慎司の肩にもたれかかった。風に乗って、かすかに鈴蘭の花の香りが漂ってくる。閉じられた智子の瞳から涙が溢れ、彼女の頬を伝った。「私ももう生きていたくなんかない。無名の新人だった私を、トップスターまで引き上げてくれたのはあなただった。だから一生、あなただけのものになるって決めてたのに……なんで一度も私を見てくれなかったの?」警察が駆けつけた時、智子は抵抗することなく、大人しく両手を差し出した。手首に手錠がかけられた瞬間、彼女は一度だけ後ろを振り返った。慎司の手は、墓石に刻まれた私の名前にそっと添えられたまま。風がそっと彼のシャツの裾を翻す。その瞬間、空の上からその光景を見ていた私は、まるで自分が抱きしめられたかのような錯覚に陥った。でも、皮肉なことに、生きていた時は一度も彼に抱きしめられたことなんてなかったのだが……すると、突然システムが無機質な声を響かせた。「帰還ゲートが開きました。今すぐ元の世界へ戻りますか?」私は最後にもう一度だけ、下を見下ろす。墓石の前に倒れた慎司から、魂がゆっくりと上空へ浮かび上がってくるのが見えた。まさか、こんな再会を果たすことになるとは思ってもみなかった。「日和?日和なのか?」魂になった慎司との再会に、私は少し居心地の悪さを感じた。だが、そんな私とは反対に、慎司の表情は歓喜に満ちている。「やっぱり、君は俺のことが忘れられなかったんだろ?まだ俺を愛しているんだよな?もう一度やり直そう!あの頃みたいにさ!」慎司は抱きつこうとしてこちらへ走り寄ってきた。私は横に避けて、冷めた目で見つめる。「まだここにいたのは、あなたがどうやって死ぬか見たかったから。でも、あなたも私と同じような無残な死に方をしたようで、よかったわ。これで、心置きなく帰れるもの」慎司は驚きに目を剥いた。「君に死んでほしくなんてなかった!智子がやったんだ。君はずっと見ていただろ?真相を知っているなら、俺が悪くないって分かってくれるよな?」私は鼻で笑った。「『俺は悪くない』って言った?あなたがあの女と関係を持たなければ、こうはなってなかったんじゃないの?まあ、あなたみたいな男は、山田さんがいなくても、別の誰かを選んでいたでしょ
しかし、ドアは開かない。それでも智子は一晩中、ドアの前から動かなかった。翌朝、ドアが開いた。だが、出てきたのは圭太だった。彼は表情一つ変えず玄関に立ち、ボロボロになった智子を見下ろす。「社長からの伝言です」顔を上げた智子の目は腫れ上がっていた。「なんですか?」「あなたは奥様の足元にも及ばない、とおっしゃっています」ドアが再び閉ざされた。智子は立ち尽くした。それから、ふっと笑った。笑えば笑うほど、涙があふれてくる。「私があの女の足元にも及ばない?」立ち上がろうとしたが、足がよろめいた。「違う。あの女の方が私の足元にも及ばないのよ……死んでなお、私から慎司を奪うなんて。私はこれだけ尽くしてきたのに、結局、何も得られなかった」ふらふらと歩きながら、智子は同じ言葉を繰り返す。「諦めない……諦めないから……」それから3日が過ぎた。慎司は、私の葬儀を執り行っていた。お墓も南向きで、日当たりのいい場所を慎司が自ら選んだ。慎司は墓石の前にしゃがみ込み、墓石を磨く。新しい墓石だから、どこも磨く場所などないのに、慎司はひたすら磨き続けた。そして、墓石に刻まれた私の名前に向かって呟く。「庭のリフォームが終わったよ。君が好きだった鈴蘭を植えたんだ。でも、二人でやろうと言っいたのに。君が約束を破るなんてさ……」墓石を磨いていた慎司の指先が急に止まり、わずかに震えだす。「君が帰ってくるなら、この命なんてくれてやるのに……」すると、背後から足音がした。慎司は振り返らなかった。「放っておいてくれって言ったはずだろ」しかし、足音は止まらない。一歩ずつ、確実に近づいてくる。嫌な予感がし、慎司は勢いよく振り向いた。すると、そこにはナイフを握りしめた智子が立っていた。瞳は赤く、涙を流しているが、その唇は歪んでいた。「慎司。そこまであの女に会いたいなら、会わせてあげるよ」鋭いナイフが、慎司の胸を突き抜けた。彼は避けなかった。慎司は自分の胸に刺さったナイフを見下ろし、次に智子を見つめた。その口元が微かに動く。どうやら、微笑んでいるようだ。「これでもいい」そう呟いた瞬間、彼の体が力なく傾き、そのまま墓石の前に崩れ落ちた。目
智子が去ったあと、慎司は3日間、私のそばを離れなかった。彼は食事もとらず、ただ冷たくなった私の手を握りしめ、ベッドの横に座り込んでいた。4日目、圭太がドアを開け、部屋の入り口でおずおずと慎司に話しかける。「社長……」しかし、慎司は振り返らない。圭太は手元のファイルをぎゅっと握り、深呼吸をした。「社長、調べていた件についての報告があります」圭太は慎司に歩み寄り、ファイルをベッドサイドテーブルに置いた。「3年前、奥様が見た社長と山田さんの写真ですが、あれは山田さんがわざと人に写真を撮らせ、その後山田さん本人が匿名の小包として、奥様のもとへ送りつけていました。さらに、撮影現場でのキス動画も、山田さんが裏でお金を払い、メディアに流したものでした」慎司の背中がこわばる。圭太の声は、より沈痛なものになった。「奥様が精神病院へ送り込まれた後も、山田さんはしつこく奥様の居場所を探していました。山田さんの取り巻きの証言によると、奥様が消えない限り、自分はいつまで経っても本物の植田夫人になれない、と愚痴をこぼしていたそうです」慎司が弾かれたように振り返った。その瞳は血走っている。「本当か?」圭太は続けた。「間違いありません。山田さんは社長を尾行させ、奥様の居場所を突き止めると、今度は奥様を亡き者にしようとしていました。社長。その証拠として、振込記録、やり取りの記録、目撃者の証言がすべてこの封筒に入っています」寝室は凍りつくほど静まり返った。慎司は目を落とし、ベッドの上の真っ白になっている私を見つめた。慎司が勢いよく立ち上がった。その勢いで、椅子が床に転げ落ちる。「今、智子はどこにいる?」圭太は即座に答えた。「自宅マンションにいます」慎司はスマホを手に取り、SNSに短い投稿をした。【本日をもって、弊社は山田智子さんとの契約を解除します】投稿完了。慎司が顔を上げると、その目は真っ赤に充血していた。「全てのメディアに速報を出すように、指示を出せ。智子の広告、契約、すべてのプロジェクトを打ち切る。この業界から、あいつを消す」圭太は短く頷き、部屋を出て行った。慎司はその場に立ち尽くし、全身を激しく震わせた。そしてゆっくりと床に崩れ込み、顔を両手で覆う。肩が激しく
智子が私の訃報を知ったのは、それから3日目のことだった。彼女は退院したばかりだったが、そもそも気絶などしておらず、ただの芝居だったため、健康体そのものだった。智子にスマホを渡すマネージャーの様子が、どこかおかしい。「あの……智子さん。実は、植田夫人がお亡くなりになりました」智子は化粧直しをしている手を止めた。「なんて?」「植田夫人が、病院で自殺したそうです。ニュースでも取り上げられています」智子は2秒ほど呆気にとられたが、すぐに笑いを堪えるのに必死になった。彼女は急いでうつむき、泣いているふりをする。「なんてこと……本当に痛ましい……どうしてそんな、自ら命を絶つなんて……」智子は顔を上げると、必死に目元をこすり、わずかに赤みをつけた。「慎司に会いにいかなきゃ。きっと今、彼が一番辛いはずだから」智子は病院を出ると、早足で車へと向かった。車に乗るやいなや、バックミラーで表情を作り始める。眉を寄せ、唇を引き結び、悲しみに寄り添うような瞳を作り上げた。死んだのは恋敵だ。悲しみすぎても嘘っぽく見えるだろう。「慎司、大丈夫?そんなに自分を責めないで。そんな姿を見せられたら、こっちも辛いの。でも、亡くなった人はもう戻ってこない。今のあなたには私がいるから……」何度か練習を繰り返し、智子は満足げに頷いた。エンジンがかかり、シートに身を預け、指先で膝を叩きながら鼻歌を口ずさむ。助手席のアシスタントがバックミラー越しに智子をちらりと見た。智子は瞬時に笑みを消し、溜息をつく。「はぁ、日和さん……本当に残念ね……」慎司の邸宅に着くと、智子は深呼吸をし、ドアを開けて入った。リビングは見るも無惨な状況だった。物が散乱し、カーテンは閉められ、室内は薄暗い。慎司は床に座り込み、女性用の服を抱きしめて小さくなっていた。「慎司?」智子は声を潜めて歩み寄り、彼の前でしゃがみこむ。慎司からの反応はない。智子は彼の肩に手をかけた。「慎司、大丈夫?そんなに……」次の瞬間、慎司が勢いよく顔を上げた。充血した目、痩せ細ってしまった体、無精髭……「日和?」慎司は智子の手首を強く掴んだ。それは、悲鳴が出そうになるほどの強さだった。「帰ってきたのか?」智子は一瞬笑顔
ずいぶん経ってから、私は慎司の秘書・鈴木圭太(すずき けいた)によって精神病院へ送り戻された。病室に閉じ込められ、鍵をかけられたその時、スマホが震えた。力なくスマホを手に取ると、すごい勢いで流れてくるトレンドの投稿が目に入る。【#植田日和、山田智子に嫉妬して逆ギレ!植田日和による突き飛ばし騒動】【#植田社長夫人、精神に異常か?】【#植田日和に突き飛ばされた山田智子、意識不明で搬送される】コメント欄は私を罵倒する言葉で埋め尽くされていた。【この植田日和って、頭おかしいんじゃない?自分がやっておいて被害者ヅラなんて最低】【植田社長も災難だな。こんな頭のイカれた女を嫁
私は言葉を失った。記者たちも呆気にとられている。智子は袖をまくり上げ、青あざだらけの腕を記者たちに見せつけた。「日和さんは慎司を愛しているから、私と彼が一緒にいるのが許せないのは分かっています。でも、奪うつもりなんて全くないんです。なのに、どうしてここまで私を追い詰めるんですか?」智子はしゃくりあげて泣き続ける。すると慎司はすぐに駆け寄り、彼女を支えながら眉間にしわを寄せた。私は口を開こうとしたが、誰かに喉を締めつけられているかのように、声が出せなかった。彼女を突き飛ばす体力なんて、私にはとっくに残っていないというのに。記者たちのカメラが一斉に私へ向く。その眼差
慎司は笑みを浮かべている私を見て、歯を食いしばりながら言った。「俺のそばにいることが、そんなに嫌なのか?なんでそこまで智子を毛嫌いする?俺と智子がいくら一緒にいようと、俺の妻は君一人だけなんだぞ?」私は視線をそらした。「あなたの妻だからこそ、私はこんな目に遭ったんだけど?それに、あなたの妻でいることがそんなにいいことなら、いっそ山田さんに譲ってあげるわ」その言葉で、慎司の顔は怒りで真っ赤になった。彼は私の顎を力任せにつかみ、自分の方に向かせる。「今、何て言った?もう一度言ってみろ。そう言えば、俺から逃げられるとでも思ったのか?」私はまっすぐに慎司を見つめ、一
植田慎司(うえだ しんじ)によって精神病院に送り込まれてもう3年が経つ。私の中にはもう生きる気力なんて残っていなかった。寒さの厳しい冬のある日、慎司の新しい恋人が現れ、やつれた私の頬を優しく撫でた。「あなたが、慎司の奥さん?」私は警戒するように山田智子(やまだ ともこ)を睨みつけただけで、何も答えなかった。すると次の瞬間、相手は瞳に猛烈な殺意を宿しながら、私を階段から突き落としたのだ。「あなたが消えてくれさえすれば、私が慎司の奥さんになれるって、みんな言ってくれるんですよ。だから早く死んでくださいね!」咄嗟のことで一切反応できなかった私は、そのまま階段から落ち、頭から血
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