Lahat ng Kabanata ng Something On The Inside: Kabanata 181 - Kabanata 190

Writer's POV "Will I ever have my old life back? Will I?Will I step outside, without having to turn back to look over my shoulder in fear, that someone is coming to get me? To end my life?" She wailed out loud. Attracting stares and attention from the people around.It hurt her so much. That she just wanted to scream the hurt out, to see if she could feel better. She looked at Alex, just in time to see him watching her with concern."I'm tired! Fucking tired! I want to be free again." She cried into his chest, shuddering violently.

Writer's POVWhen she opened her eyes later, she saw herself in Alex's arms, and it looked like he was taking her to where he had his car packed."She cried this morning." Mia said so suddenly, her voice laced with highness. And Alex shot her a look, because he thought she was still asleep. "Who cried?" Alex asked, with confusion slamming through his senses."Your not so girlfriend." Was her reply. And then, she let out a sigh, before a breathy moan.She was recalling what had happened with Alex's girlfriend, earlier on that day. Alex's girlfriend was an elegant woman, who seemed flighty rich. At first, she had been jealous when Mia had open the door to her, on that morning. And was demanding who Mia was. Until Alex came and did the introduction. Yet, the woman was restless. She still went to meet Mia in the kitchen, and wanted to know more. And Mia had got pissed, and told her she was crazy. That was how they exchanged comebacks.

Writer's POVJust as Alex thought she had gone to sleep, he heard her said so suddenly."You're a good man, Jinsu. A good man. Yeah, you might be annoying at times. Even your silence gets on my nerves, you can use harsh and hurtful words that you don't mean, to chase people away from you. I know this about you. And I know that you're a good man."Despite that she was drunk, she felt he deserved to know."Loosen yourself up. Because life has so much to offer. Tomorrow isn't promise. One can fall ill, or Godforbid, die anytime. So why not live life to the fullest, now that you have the chance to?" 

Writer's POVShe let out a yawn, then carried on. "You can do all these, when you stop giving access to your past, to hunt you. We are in the present, whatever made you this cold and frigid, is in the past. And should be kept in the past." She took a slow, careful breath. Looking like she wanted to loose conciousness."I want to know more about you." Were the last words she told him, before she fell asleep.Mia woke up and saw Alex buckling her seat belt in the car. "You smell so clean, and good. Like rich fresh lemons." She couldn't help telling him those words.Then she fell back into her sleep.After that, she barfed on him when he carried her into his car. Before returning back to sleep. Apparently, this made him so pissed. 

Writer's POVThe night he, Alex had found her in the bush at the side of the road, and had saved her.Hearing all these made me clenched his fists, because he felt the strong urge to punch something, or someone.Mia finished with tears streaming down her cheeks.And she watched how Alex grew still, breathing heavily.Hearing all what she had been through made his blood boil. He wondered how could such a young and innocent woman suffer this much? And they were still looking for her to take her life.Alex was angry, mad and furious that if he could lay his hands on those men, including her boss, he would be charged for murder.He couldn't breath, he wanted to kill them all with his bare hands. To make them suffer like she did.He wanted to beat someone to pulp. He wanted to kill someone so badly that he was finding it difficult to breath.His body was vibrating from rage, making his teeth to chatter inside his mouth.