Lahat ng Kabanata ng Lost Queen: Kabanata 21 - Kabanata 30

ADRIANAMum has been keeping a close eye on me. She tried not to make it obvious, but I still noticed. The training she had me go through made sure I was always on my guard.It has been three days since the weird dream about Xander. And I find myself reliving one part of it every time.His promise.I tried, oh, I tried so much to tell myself it was just a dream. My subconscious made it up because I was too worried about him and always thinking of him.Logic said, I should do nothing and I should stop giving it the time of day. But a more realistic part of me, the one in touch with emotions said there was more to it than that. And that the logical side of me was wrong.So, not only was I fighting all my other battles. I had to deal with a war within myself in the mix.It has been a busy week. Heck, a busy month.Just three weeks with Xander back in my life and it was already blowing up. If I didn’t know how big of a bad news he was before. I do now.Today, I decided to call Kian and go

ADRIANAWe stayed outside for a long time.I’d beaten Kian to the lake as expected. And he sulked for a while because of that. I celebrated my victory on the other hand, telling him I’ll collect my debt when I felt the time was right.I got a groan as a response.He suggested we swim. And while I normally would say no, I was running from the high of shifting after so long. My wolf was on board.‘Wait, we left all our clothes back there.’I mind linked him, just when he turned to walk behind a tree and shift.‘Shit. I totally forgot about that.’I groaned. A grunt-like sound leaving my wolf’s mouth.I’d actually wanted to go swimming. I was against it at first but after exerting my body the way I did. It would be nice to get into the cold water.‘It wouldn’t be so bad, would it?’I turned to Kian’s large brown wolf. Picturing the way I would be watching him with wide eyes if I were in human form.I could have sworn he rolled his eyes at me when he saw that.‘What? Nothing wrong with a

ADRIANAHappy chatter and laughter fills the place. There were smiling faces wherever I turned, which left me feeling like the odd one out.The week of the full moon is usually a happy one for everybody. They got to sit back and relax, letting the moon run its course. They let their wolves run wild and free. Then comes the full moon run.I was dreading it for some reason.I couldn’t bring myself to laugh or smile or enjoy the festivities like everyone else was. If you asked, I couldn’t tell you the reason for my bad mood. I just wasn’t feeling particularly happy or even eager to be alive.I have been feeling like this for a few days. Mum has done everything she could to help. But nothing she did felt right.So had Kian. The last time he came to me with books, I told him I needed a few days to be alone.This might be because of the incident near the lake. Even though I told myself it was not that. So many times. I almost started to believe the lie myself.I asked myself if telling mum

ADRIANAThank God no one died from the fire. but a lot were injured and property was lost.I was livid. I’m STILL livid.God, I want to get my hands and Xander. Preferably around his neck, then I’ll hold on until I’m sure he can never hurt anyone again.We spent the rest of yesterday trying to save the properties of the affected people.Just to show how heartless he was, the fire was started very close to residential homes. If they hadn’t noticed it early, the damage it would have done would be very ugly.We didn’t sleep last night either. We couldn’t, even if we tried.Kids were crying, those who were injured had it worse. Even with their healing abilities, it was a chore.We got a break from the chaos much later in the afternoon.Ursula apparently works with the pack doctor. Not really a nurse yet, but she came from a pack of healers and had an idea on how to mix medicines so she was needed on stand by.I would have loved to take the break with her. She wasn’t free though.I was abo

ADRIANAMum assured me that she was proud of me for coming forward and telling her what I thought about the fire. She said she already knew. In her words.“Alpha Xander is a ruthless monster. I should have expected a retaliation sooner or later after we went into his territory.”She tried her best to make sure I didn’t feel like it was my fault. But how could I not think it was when it literally is? If I had told her earlier, she would have seen it coming. And all those that were hurt would be fine. The families that lost their houses wouldn't have had to go through that.“There is one person to blame, and only one person.” Mum spoke sternly, seeing how I was still beating myself up. “That person is Xander. Nothing would have changed if we knew or not. We should just be happy no one got killed.”But a lot of people got hurt. And for that, I promised to make him pay.I urged mum to let me go back to his place. This time, I was going to come back with his heart. Even if it was the last