Semua Bab Beauty and the Beast: A Dark Arranged Marriage Mafia Romance: Bab 61 - Bab 68

His father wasn’t innocent either. He thieved my father’s business, had my father killed, promised his son my hand in marriage…For a marriage I never fucking wanted or agreed to in the first place.Not to mention that Aurora had been such a bitch to me.Luca might not have been completely innocent himself.He may have done some fucked-up things in his life.He may have done things that he regretted.But at least he didn’t exploit women.People ask for drugs…But nobody asks to be raped.For me, the two things can’t even be put into the same bracket. Drug addiction and sexual abuse are two completely different ball parks…And I was just so glad that Luca had the heart in him to help me, from the minute he laid eyes on me.Knowing that something was wrong.He wasn’t like other people, who wouldn’t intervene, who would be too scared to lose their own lives. Who would just stand by and watch, feel guilty, but do nothing about it, claiming that it was ‘none of their business’.Luca risked

Feeling like I’d lost all of the sanity I had left inside of me.Wishing that I was dead in this moment.The man that I was so madly in love with couldn’t be responsible for my sister’s death…He couldn’t…I sweated profusely, fitting together the jigsaw.I remembered that Luca told me he operated in Manchester, taking care of the Cosa Nostra’s operations there.I rocked myself backwards and forwards, screaming and sobbing.Feeling utterly and completely numb.At loss.A void.Empty.Hollow.Weak.Not wanting to believe that Luca was responsible for this.He’d made himself out to be such a genuine man…He made me believe that his enterprise never killed innocents.My sister was an innocent fucking woman.Not just my sister…But her kids, too.I read more on her husband, Tariq Iqbal, and realized that he was a criminal, a sick-minded fuck who owed the Sicilian Mafia debts, which was why they went to his apartment in the first place.But that didn’t mean that my sister had to suffer for

Maybe I was stupid…Delusional…A fucking fool…To believe that happily ever after’s existed for bastards like me.For criminals like me.I could feel Evelina’s words burn into the back of my mind, as I remembered her walking in on me fucking a broad the night I shot down Tariq Iqbal.“You bastard,” she whispered coldly, slapping me hard across the face. “You deserve everything that’s coming to you. You killed your father. Don’t you ever fucking forget that. A man like your father dead, and a monster like you alive… It isn’t right. It isn’t fucking right.”I screwed my face, burning. Feeling utterly and completely at loss.“I’ve been dancing with the devil for too long, and in the end, I got burned,” Evelina mourned. “You had your chance with me, Luca. You’re going to die alone. Die miserable. Die with nobody loving you. You push everyone away. Ruin every good thing that happens to you. I’m going to find a man who treats me right, loves me for who I am. Doesn’t expect me to conform to

“You’re right, Zara…” I whispered, through tear-filled eyes. “I am a monster. I am a fucking monster. I killed my father. Fuck. I deserve to die. I deserve to die…”Zara continued to scream and sob, rocking her head backwards and forwards manically.I couldn’t bear the pain anymore.I couldn’t bear the heartache anymore.The hurt.The anguish.Knowing that there would be no point in breathing if I didn’t have Zara by my side.The only person I had left who made me feel like my life had a purpose…Who made me feel like I had a reason to keep pushing forward.Who made me feel like I had something to look forward to…My future looked empty without her.Hollow.Like I was trapped in limbo.I didn’t want to live my life like this.I didn’t want to live my life suffering…Constantly hating myself.Despising myself for my fucked-up mistakes.So I did something.I did something I never thought I would do.Shakily, I got to my feet, my whole body convulsing.Trembling into a frenzy.“Shoot me