جميع فصول : الفصل -الفصل 5

( Two Months Later)The rink is loud with cheering—fans screaming and clapping as the players race across the ice. But the noise fades in the back of my mind the moment his eyes meet mine for a glimpse. Now all I hear is his voice from the night before. Low. Close to my ear.“How do you want to be fucked today, Chan?”I can feel my pussy get wet as he chases the puck, his strong build and tall height cutting across the ice, breath fogging in the cold air. But in my head, I can still hear the slow rhythm of his breathing, feel it warm against my neck like he’s still right behind me.River skates like the ice belongs to him—sharp turns, fast strides, shoulders loose with confidence. He knows exactly what he is doing, and he has been on the rink since he was six years old.My eyes follow the way his jersey stretches across his back, the way he pauses when he stops too quickly. I know things about him no one in these stands knows. Things they would never guess.Like how his voice sounds i

I feel used. Completely used. That’s been the way I’ve felt since the first time River came into my room. He didn’t even acknowledge it before he just took what he wanted.There was one thing I thought would change. I thought if I let him have my body, my virginity, he would like me back, but I guess not. I had tried to be what he wanted. Tried to watch porn in order to perform well for him but still the same result. We have fucked 14 times in the last three months of starting this forbidden thing, and each time, he always leaves immediately after sex. At least on Saturday he said good job, and I received a kiss on my forehead. I guess I satisfied him this time.But he hasn’t reached out.I’ve checked my phone for the hundredth time—still no messages, no calls.My eyes land on my last message to him after I cried. Did you get home safe?Delivered. Three days ago.My stomach twists every time I see it sitting there unanswered.My fingers hover over the keyboard. Maybe I should text ag