MasukRicky loves attention. No—he is attention.
There’s something about him. An aura that pulls people in without effort. Everywhere he goes, people notice him. He’s the complete opposite of me. Bright. Dirty blond hair. Always laughing. Always surrounded by people—especially girls. He feeds off it. Lives for it. He walks into a room and somehow… everyone just loves him. “What’s for dinner?” he asks casually. “Whoa—whoa.” I stop him before he steps into the house, still trying to process everything. “You’re joking, right?” “And why would I do that, River?” The look on his face makes something in me sink. Ricky jokes—a lot. But this? This isn’t a joke. And that’s the problem. Why the hell didn’t Mom say anything? I blink, then step aside, letting him pass. I follow him in, stopping just a few inches behind him. He inhales deeply, like he’s taking the whole place in. “I’ve fucking missed this house.” He turns. He walks straight to Cortney, wrapping an arm around her neck. “Do you remember that time Aunty left us alone? Uncle was away filming, and we were stuck with that strict nanny?” He glances at me, looking me up and down, then laughs. “River was such a scaredy-cat. He was terrified we’d throw a party and mess something up.” He shakes his head, amused. “You’ve grown, man. Time really passed. You used to be gentle. Shy. Now, you are more popular around girls?” His smile fades slightly. “What happened to you?” “He got his heart broken,” Cortney says. “I did not,” I snap. “He did, Rick,” she insists. “He wouldn’t even tell me who she was. And I’m a girl—I know when a girl is involved. She really broke him. He was miserable. Lost a game. Dad was furious. The whole house felt it.” “Really?” Ricky lets out a laugh. “You got your heart broken? I wish I was here to watch it.” “I did not!” I glare at both of them. “And besides, why my school? What happened to yours?” “Well…” He shrugs. “Mom’s traveling to stay with her new rich boyfriend. I’m an only child. No dad. So… what do you think?” “And Grandma?” He pauses for a second, then shakes his head. “Nah. I missed my favorite cousins.” He spins slightly, looking around. “And this house? The city? Way better for my hockey career.” My stomach tightens. “W–what did you just say?” He grins. “I transferred to your school. Which means…” He taps my chest lightly. “I’m on your team.” “What?” He pats my shoulder. “Relax. You’re the captain—I heard. I was captain at my old school too. We were not just popular like yours, but I am very good, River. We could help each other out.” I immediately shrug his hand off my shoulder. “What exactly are you trying to say?” “Calm down.” He raises his hands slightly. “I’m just saying… imagine how proud your father would be. His son and nephew leading the team?” He smirks. “I could even be your alternate captain.” “What the hell is wrong with you?” I scoff. “My best friend is the alternate captain—and he’s doing just fine.” “Just a suggestion.” He shrugs. “I heard you’ve been slacking. Got a lot on your mind, huh?” “It’s about a girl,” Cortney cuts in. I shoot her a death glare. “Will you stop saying that?” My eyes return to Ricky. “And where did you—” “I have ears,” he says simply. Then his tone drops slightly. “Trust me… you don’t want to disappoint your father. Uncle can be ruthless.” Dinner is quiet. I barely taste the food. All I can think about is Ricky. Living here. Going to my school. Being on my team. Ricky was shown to the rooms upstairs. Of course, he picked the one right next to mine. When I tried to argue, he just grinned. “Where’s the brotherly love, River? The old you would’ve been glad I’m here.” He tilted his head, studying me. “You’ve gone dark. Not a good look. Might start affecting your brain.” I didn’t even bother responding. He got the room he wanted anyway. Of course he did. Ricky has always had it easy. He walks into anything and people like him instantly. If hockey doesn’t work out for him, he has options. I don’t. For me, hockey isn’t just a choice. It’s the only thing I have. Hockey is everything to me. It is my life. And the worst part? I already know what’s going to happen the moment he steps into that school— Everyone is going to love him. Before I take a shower, I call Mom. The first thing she says is, “Has Ricky gotten there yet, darling?” I go still. “You didn’t tell us he’d be coming. I mean—living with us?” “Oh, sorry, honey. It slipped my mind.” “Mom—” “Can I call you back?” “Mom—” “Take care of yourself, darling. I have to go.” Beep. I slowly pull the phone away from my ear and drop it onto the bed. She always does this. Always busy. Always rushing off. Always promising to call back, and never actually doing it. I groan and drag a hand down my face before heading to the bathroom. ~~~ I’ve barely stepped out of the shower when I hear a knock. I open the door to find Ricky standing there. “Is there a problem?” I ask, brow raised. “I just want to clear something up.” He leans against the doorframe. “I’m not here to take your place.” My brows furrow. “You can’t take my place. I’m River Dawson.” He nods slowly. “Yeah. You are.” A small smile tugs at his lips. “And I’m Ricky Norman. I wouldn’t even try. Nobody knows who my father is. I don’t even know who my father is.” I kind of feel sorry for him saying that word. “I’m just glad we get to spend our senior year together,” he adds. “Goodnight, cousin. I can’t wait for tomorrow—when I get introduced to the team.” Right. “Goodnight.” I shut the door and lock it. Take my place? I scoff. Why would he even think that? I’m River Dawson. I get what I want. And no Ricky Norman is coming in here to take that from me. After getting dressed, I slide under the covers, but sleep doesn’t come easy. My mind won’t shut up. Hazel’s father. My future. My career. And now… Ricky. He’s in my house. He’ll be in my school. On my team. Everything is changing. And I’m losing control. I hate losing control. The next morning, I’m called down for breakfast. Voices and laughter fill the dining room when I walk in. “What are you two talking about?” I ask, taking my seat. “Nothing much,” Cortney says casually. “Hmm.” I grab a slice of bread, spread jam over it, and take a bite. Cortney continues, “Okay, I was just telling Ricky about my best friend—” I choke. Coughing, I hit my chest and reach for water. “I do want to meet her,” Ricky says, completely unfazed, mouth full of waffles. I glare at him. “W–why? Why would you—” “Cortney says she’s quiet,” he shrugs, “but also knows how to have fun. I’m intrigued.” “I can tell for a fact that Chancé and Ricky will get along just fine,” Cortney adds. “He’s a nice guy.” I let out a short laugh. They both look at me. “You know Chan,” I say, leaning back slightly. “I doubt she’ll like him. She’s… plain. Quiet. Too quiet, actually. It’s irritating. And Ricky is loud!” “Sounds like you know her pretty well,” Ricky says. “Of course not. I’m just observant.” Cortney rolls her eyes. “Well, River, she’s my best friend. And I know the kind of guys she likes. She deserves someone good. If Ricky ends up liking her, I’ll be the first to give my blessing.” I scoff under my breath. Who the hell is Cortney to decide that? Chan can choose whoever she wants. And it’s definitely not going to be Ricky. Anyone but him. The doorbell rings, and Cortney immediately pushes back her chair. “That’s for me! I’ll be right back.” She rushes out of the room, way too excited. I frown slightly. She’s happier than usual… which is suspicious. Did she order something? Something about it makes me uneasy. “How do I look in my new uniform?” Ricky stands, spreading his arms like he’s on display. I roll my eyes. “You’re no fun,” he mutters. Then his gaze shifts past me, and toward the doorway. I don’t need to turn to know. I feel it. Her. Chan is here. I keep my eyes on my plate, pretending not to notice. “Oh,” Ricky says, his tone instantly changing. “With the way you carry yourself, you must be Chancé.” “I am. Hello. And you must be Ricky. Cortney said so much just outside.” “Nice to meet you, Chancé.” My jaw tightens. I’ve known Ricky my whole life. I know that tone. That’s the tone he uses when he’s interested. “Careful, Ricky,” I say dryly, finally looking up. Three pairs of eyes turn to me. “He tends to flirt with anything that breathes.” My gaze flickers to her. The look on her face tells me everything. She’s still mad. She should be. Cortney rolls her eyes, breaking whatever that moment was. “Coming from you? That’s rich.” Ricky lets out a laugh. “Jealous already?” I scoff. “As if.” Chan’s brows pull together slightly at my tone. Then she looks away. She walks over to Ricky, shakes his hand properly this time, and takes the seat beside him. Just like that. Like I’m not even here. Ricky says something—I don’t even catch what—and she laughs. A real laugh. Not the quiet, polite one she gives everyone else. This one is different. Easy. Free. She isn’t shy with him. She talks like they’ve known each other for years. And they just met. They’ve known each other for approximately five minutes. Five fucking minutes. I’ve known her for four years. I’ve never heard her laugh like that with me. For the first time since Ricky walked into this house, I feel it. Like things can be taken from me. Like I can be replaced. Like I’m nothing. And I hate it. Because it takes me back to four years ago. To that feeling I swore I’d never experience again. I can’t lose control. I won’t lose control.***~~~ RIVER~~~***I’m happy Chan and I are back together. Picking up that diamond necklace was a fucking smart move.I made tonight romantic for her on purpose, and I’m glad I did. She talked more than she has in weeks—more than she has since we started dating. It felt good hearing that side of her, the one my sister always gets to see.I’m just walking into the house when my phone starts ringing. I pull it out, see the name, and almost ignore it. I’ve been trying hard not to talk to Sophia. The guilt of me cheating on my girl is already heavy enough. But of course I answer anyway. I always do.I put the phone to my ear as I head upstairs and shut my bedroom door behind me, already searching for an excuse to keep the call short.I drop onto the bed. Her voice comes through, soft and tired.“A student confided in me about a boy. I’m really not the best person to be giving that kind of advice. Look at my life—I’m a mess. Single. Rough past. And I’m sure she’ll bring it up again the n
I can’t sleep. I’m too full of happiness. My face is stuck in a smile as I lie in bed, fingers tracing the little star pendant around my neck. My mind keeps replaying the kiss, the way he dropped the chain the way they do in K-dramas, how quiet and romantic the whole night felt.I told River about the concert with Cortney tomorrow before we said goodnight. I’m going to see Taylor freaking Swift for the first time. I might actually die.When I got home earlier, Mom was already asleep. I stare up at the ceiling, still touching the pendant. “Thank you, Universe. You’ve been really good to me today.”I want this feeling to last forever.By four o’clock the next afternoon, Cortney is already outside as planned. I check myself in the mirror one last time, tuck the diamond necklace under the neckline of my sequined top, and run downstairs.She’s leaning against her car when I step out. “Someone’s excited,” she says, smiling.“You know you could’ve just come inside instead of waiting out he
I watch his face after the question. There’s a flicker of hesitation before he jerks his head in a shake.“No. No. I’m not.”I could have sworn I saw it, that tiny pause.“Why would I?” he adds. “I only like you.”He takes my hand. I step forward and wrap my arms around him, pressing my face into his chest for a second.“You can’t like someone else,” I murmur. Because you have no idea how long I’ve liked you. What I risked. What I’ll lose because I liked you.He lifts my chin with two fingers and kisses me carefully, like he’s afraid of smudging my lipstick. When he pulls back, his eyes are warm.“Go. I don’t want them calling your name and finding you missing when it’s time for your award.”I’m taken aback. “How did you even know about the award? I never told you.”“Cortney did.”My eyebrows lift. “You guys talked about me?”“Not really. She was so excited she just… spilled it while we were eating last night.”I nod, a small smile tugging at my mouth. “Okay. But you have to be there.
It's been two days since River's eyes met mine in our homeroom teacher's office. Two days since I finally sent that reply back to him in class. Ever since, he's texted and called like something bordering on obsessive. He even showed up at my house once, and I pretended I wasn't home, watching through the curtain until his car finally pulled away.Cortney and I are walking down the hall when the loudspeaker crackles to life with the principal's voice. “Our annual scholarship fundraiser gala is this Saturday, as we all know and it’s organized as always by Mr. Mackline. Please dress your best and show your support. Miss Rhodes — please come see me in my office."I let out a heavy sigh."What'd you do now?" Cortney lets go of my hand, already smirking.I shrug. "No idea. I'll catch up with you later. Bye.""Bye."I head for the stairs toward the principal's office, knock once I get there, and step inside when told. The principal spreads her arms wide, smiling. "Here comes our star student.
I stare at my boyfriend, my heart slamming so hard against my chest. What is he doing here?My eyes finally settle after his do, and I don't say a word to him. I just look away.Miss Sophia chimes in smoothly. "Hello, Mr. Dawson. You came." She reaches into her locker, picks out a folder, and flips through it. "I looked into extracurriculars you could pick up while you're sitting out these two games. Unfortunately, there's no vacancy in any of them right now.""Thank you.""But of course, I'll reach out the moment something opens."He nods, then glances my way and smiles quickly before turning and heading out the door. I turn back to Sophia, who's already smiling at me pleasantly, and then my head snaps back toward. He never even mentioned any of this to me. I could've actually helped him find something.I push myself up out of the chair. "I should — actually, I should go.""Wait, Miss Rhodes—""I'll — come back." I'm already moving, rushing out the door, craning my neck down the hall
***~~~CHANCÉ~~~***Monday morning, I wake up to a text from my boyfriend. River is sorry he bailed on our date because his father called, was furious about the whole game situation, and he knows that's not an excuse, but he's really, genuinely sorry.I stare at the message for a while. Of course, because I like him so much, some part of me already wants to give him another pass. I want to. I really do. But I keep staring at the screen, and this time I make myself hold off. Last week was rough enough between us, and he has bailed on me more times than I've bothered to count.I've let it slide, over and over, but not this time. He doesn't get to skate through this one so easily.So I do one of the harder things. I flip my phone face-down on the bed, walk into the bathroom, and shut the door behind me to get ready for school instead.Standing in front of the mirror, already dressed, I run my fingers through my hair, catching the ends. It's finally starting to grow out more. Maybe I'll
*** ~~CHANCÉ~~ *** “Come here.” River Dawson’s voice slides down my spine like a slow shiver. I’m standing only a few inches away from him, but those two words still pull me closer, like I’m tied to him by something invisible. Maybe I am. I should feel embarrassed about how easily I obey
***~~~ CHANCÉ~~~***I’m still mad at him. But not the loud kind of mad. Not the kind where you slam doors or yell. The quiet, painful kind. The kind that sits heavy in my chest and refuses to leave.I feel sad. I felt hurt when he said the word “As if” to his cousin, Ricky. I know what we do isn’
***~~~ RIVER~~~***I notice her. I’ve always noticed her, and Chan has always been… naive. Quiet. Too soft for someone like me.I’ve been watching her for four years. Even before all these forbidden escapades. Before the lake. Before she saved my life.My jaw tightens slightly at the memory. If s
I feel used. Completely used. That’s been the way I’ve felt since the first time River came into my room. He didn’t even acknowledge it before he just took what he wanted.There was one thing I thought would change. I thought if I let him have my body, my virginity, he would like me back, but I gue







