Actually I Was There Alone Novels & Stories

Right before it got sour. As I walked upstairs, I was reliving the moment all over again, but this time, instead of having Alexander by my side and those helpers all surrounding us and helping us to take things upstairs, I was alone. It did not occur to me ever how someone could feel so alone, even in a full room.

And most of all, I had Leo. The words left my lips before I could think of it. “I'm not alone.”

No one answered. And I.. was alone in the arms of my enemy.

That evening, I attended an event alone. Not because Adrian asked me to. Because I chose to. The looks came, predictable and curious. Questions lingered unspoken. I felt them slide over me like a current I’d learned to navigate. “You’re glowing,” someone said lightly. I smiled. “I’m grounded.” That felt truer. When I returned home later, Adrian was waiting in the living room—not pacing, not tense. Just present. “You didn’t tell me you were going out,” he said. “I didn’t think I needed to.”

And my heart clenched at the bitter truth. Because yeah, I already figured out that no one was coming for me. No one. I'm fucking alone.

I was a mate. And I was alone.

My parents both gone. “Look, I know this is all extremely new to you and believe me if I were you, I’d be scared too. But all I can tell you is this. You’re not alone. You have four wonderful mates who love and adore you and a friend who won’t let anything bad happen to you while he’s here.” “But I am alone. That’s the thing you guys don’t get. You guys don’t see the things I see when I’m alone.” “Then tell us. Let us in.”

It took several minutes to get to the surface, and by the end, I had walked so fast, without slowing, that I was panting. And it did feel good to smell the fresh air moving against my cheeks as we approached the entrance. And it did lift my heart a bit to step into the half-sun of a patchy-cloud day. But it also stopped me in my tracks when I reached the edge of the dirt outside and my footsteps were softened and muffled by grass. Because I realized… I was alone. Utterly alone. Even Rake was here because Cazz had told him to be. And it hit me so hard and punched so fast, that I lost my breath. The tears rushed to the surface and I was blinking, blinking, blinking trying to keep them at bay.

“Is that the word you’re looking for?” He leaned back slightly, his jaw tightening. “Something dangerous. Something that could’ve gone wrong.” I took a step closer, holding his gaze. “Caleb, you have to understand… there are some things I have to do alone. Not because I don’t trust you, but because they’re mine to face. And besides—” I shrugged lightly. “I wasn’t alone. I had Alice with me.” His brows furrowed, and I could see the flash of irritation in his eyes. “Alice?”

I had technically won a trip for two, but I had come alone. I lived by myself, had no boyfriend, and my older sister who was supposed to come with me had gotten appendicitis and had to cancel at the last minute. It was easy enough to cancel the reservation for her, but it meant that no one else was able to get the time off to go with me. I was on my own for this trip. I sighed and turned away from the happy couple. Valentine’s Day had only been a couple of weeks ago, and I didn’t want another reminder that I was alone.