Actually I Was There Alone Novels & Stories

I was right here, by his side, and I wasn’t going anywhere. Just one chance. All I needed was one chance to hug him, kiss him, and whisper into his ears: You are not alone.

Softening for someone who wasn’t me. And I was here. Breaking in silence and alone.

I was so caught up in my thoughts I didn’t realize I wasn’t alone. There is someone else out here.

I feel so alone. --------------------

“Today?” “I haven’t been there since the accident,” I reminded him. “I should at least show my face.” He hesitated. “Is that… safe?” Safe. The word tasted strange coming from the only person who’d ever truly been unsafe for me. “I’ll be fine,” I said gently. “I won’t be alone.” “Who are you going with?” It was too sharp, too urgent. I frowned. “I didn’t say I was going with someone.” “You said you wouldn’t be alone.”

I only knew one thing. I was completely alone. And the terror was just beginning.

“I thought I was strong enough…” I paused. “But today…” “I heard my baby’s heartbeat for the first time.” “I saw my baby… for the first time.” I exhaled slowly. “It was magical… For a moment, nothing else mattered.” “But…”I swallowed. “I had no one to share it with.” “All the other women…” “They had someone.” “Only I was alone.” Adrian was quiet for a moment. “Sometimes it’s better to be alone than to have fake people around you.” I looked at him.

I knew this was just a dream because I woke up the next day in my bed, Alone.

That was the reason why I never wanted to pick that call because I know that if you heard that you were going to be mad , please baby please don’t leave me here alone all by myself, I already had a stressful day , you don’t really want to add to it . I begged him, holding on to his shut , I had never been so helpless . This was going to be my first time living all alone by myself and the last thing that I wanted was being here all by myself. I never wanted that to happen , I could never let that happen to me ever ever . It seems like my words had a very good impact , because the next moment he stopped putting on his clothed and turned to face and this time he had a smoke on his face .

Mapait na lamang akong napangiti dahil doon. Dahil alam kong katulad din ni tatay noon ay iniwan na rin ako ni nanay. Kung noon ay ramdam ko ang pag-iisa hindi dahil sa kakulangan ng presensiya ni nanay, ay iba na ngayon. Dahil ngayon ko lubusang nararamdaman na walang-wala na ako. I know that this day will be the start of my journey in this world, alone. There's no one that I can lean on to. No person that I'll be able to hold on whenever I'm in pain. There's no one. No one but myself. Alone.