Novel & Cerita All I've Wanted All I've Needed

Her last words haunt him till now …I don’t ever want to let you go, my love. Amore Mio, my heart. My life…” She needs to be alive. Even if she wasn’t, he will still find her. No excuses now.

I need you. ***** Loving and fighting Accusing, denying I can't imagine a world with you gone The joy and the chaos, the demons we're made of I'd be so lost if you left me alone You locked yourself in the bathroom Lying on the floor when I break through I pull you in to feel your heartbeat Can you hear me screaming "Please don't leave me" Hold on, I still want you Come back, I still need you Let me take your hand, I'll make it right

It was over. ¶¶ All I ever wanted was to be accepted, loved and cared for; just the way I am. ~ Emily James ¶¶

When it wasn't yours, yeah We'd always go into it blindly I needed to lose you to find me This dance, it was killing me softly I needed to hate you to love me, yeah To love, love, yeah To love, love, yeah To love, yeah I needed to lose you to love me, yeah To love, love, yeah To love, love, yeah To love, yeah I needed to lose you to love me I gave my all and they all know it Then you tore me down and now it's showing In two months, you replaced us Like it was easy Made me think I deserved it In the thick of healing, yeah We'd always go into it blindly I needed to lose you to find me This dance, it was killing me softly I needed to hate you to love me, yeah To love, love, yeah To love, love,

I turn around to face him before the answer rolls out of my tongue, “You still loved me even when you didn’t need me,” “Not really. I’ll always need you, Neffie even if you don’t realize it. I need you like the moon needs the sun to lend it the light in the darkness. I need you like the earth needs the moon for its seas to rage big waves to wash away all its miseries. I need you like fire needs the water to put it out so that it doesn’t burn everything down. I need you like a bird needs the sky to remind itself of the heights it could soar to. I need you and always want you,” When he finishes speaking, I am in a trance, lost in his words and tangled in his deep emotions and I am afraid that

"And I'm going to be better. I just wanted you to know that I'm walking into a new phase of life. You don't need to worry about me." I wiped a small tear from the corner of my eye and smiled at the stone. Dead people couldn't hear. I knew that. But I still had to do this. I needed to say it out loud to someone who had known me before all of this. Before I married Jason, before the weight I'd been carrying, before I forgot that I was supposed to matter. My mother would have been proud of who I was becoming. I was almost sure of it. I stood up, wiped my knees, and left.

“Tell me how bad you want me. Say it so I can feel it in my soul.” The car swayed gently around a curve, the driver a silent shadow beyond the partition, but nothing else mattered. I rocked against his hand, chasing the friction, my heart pounding with a mix of fear and overwhelming devotion. This man had dragged me through hell, bled for me, killed for me. And I would follow him anywhere. “I need you,” I gasped, my nails digging into his shoulders through his shirt. “All day, every day. In every breath, every shadow. You’re the only thing that makes this chaos feel like home.”

Take your gift and discover your own world. [Rose, we won't get in your way anymore... We hope you find the life you've always wanted.] Reading their words, I just stood there, stunned. It turned out that all the stuff from when I was little had been weighing me down without me even knowing it. I had always thought it was my fault that my adoptive mom did not like me and that I was not good enough for my parents to love me. Every time things got tough, I would be the first to doubt myself.

“I want someone who will make me forget my feelings for him and you’re the perfect man for it.” “Lana,” he whispered in awe and pulled me even closer until our chests were pressed against each other. “Be certain of what you’re saying, please.” I was a mess as my nerves spiraled. I didn’t know how to put my words for him to understand. I wanted someone to make me feel needed, to feel cared for. I wanted someone’s touches, someone's kisses and attention. “I want this so much,” I said as I looked into his eyes, hoping my emotions and wants were written in my eyes. “I need you to make me feel better, wanted, needed. I crave what will make me happy, if you know what I mean.”

“Fuck. You have no fucking idea how badly I want this. You’ve haunted my dreams. I think about touching you, being inside you, and I grow hard with wanting you.” His words caressed over me. I was done with the talking. I wanted him. I reached for the back of his head and held him steady, covering his mouth with my own. I needed him like a wheat field needed rain. I had felt myself wilting when I was away from him. Having him back in my arms made me feel alive, rejuvenated, and I wasn’t about to let him get away.