Destroy Myself Just For You Novels & Stories

After doing so, I immediately strip my body down and stare at myself in the mirror with hatred. Why can’t I have the body of all of those I*******m models? Why can’t I be pretty? Why is my body shaped this way? "You're disgusting." I say to myself before stepping into the shower. I grab my sponge and pour some VS body wash onto it as the song life is worth living by Justin Bieber starts to play through the speakers.I sing along to the lyrics as I scrub my body clean while discarding away all of my thoughts. This is my favorite song in the whole universe, Justin's music seriously speaks to me.

She closed her eyes as she played and sang ”...I kept my head above the water 'til the moment...When all the elements aligned....And I could fly away to heal my broken spirit....And leave my demons far behind...You always said that I was weak...But the bravest thing I did was leave..So I will forgive myself and start to let it go...Accept that who you chose to be was out of my control...And though it might be hard to begin again...I'll write myself a brand new story with a happy end...I survived, so tonight I am taking back my life...And I'll show you that I am not nothing...Looking up at the sky...I think I see the start of a sunrise..And I will forgive myself and start to let it go...Accep

I never deserved you in the first place nor Mom, Dads and your whole loving family who accepted me unconditionally. I want to die and free everyone from my sins. “I love you, San. I love you. Please forgive me,” Ryder’s chants in a weakly voice kept echoing but I could not bear the pain that everyone was going through because of me. I forced myself towards the sink and let out my claws grow completely while I tried to support my weight against the basin. However, before I could claw into my heart, the door smashed open and I watched Jax stare at me wide eyed while catching me in action to kill myself.

My body has become so numb that I can no longer feel pain, as the day goes by I’m becoming a whole me person, I can't even look at myself in the mirror, I don't even love myself anymore, the only thing I feel for myself is hate and disgust, my past is now hurting and hunting me more than ever, I cannot continue to live like this, there's nothing left for me in this world anymore, I’ve made up my mind, it's now or never, it's better to be dead than to be alive, and wish I was dead, I rather die maybe in my next life, I will get the chance to live a better life, after all, if I die no one is going to ask of me, it's not like anybody cares about me, I stood up and walk straight to the bathroom,

If I could choose anything I would be good and bad one day I would fall into love and stay Would fall into love And it's not fair I keep on writing a sequel to stories I know that are not there I don't wanna die but I don't wanna live like this I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel Something really real so that I can really Feel like a person again I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel Something really real so that I can really Feel like a person again If I am telling the truth Watching my friends break their hearts into two Makes me jealous, I know that it's cruel

I had never felt something like this before Life had always kept me at peace You came and opened the doors of pain And gifted me with solitude Your poison tainted my heart Leaving it in complete darkness And instead of forgetting you I ended up loving you even more And now you're here Watching me suffer Tell me, how should I go about forgetting Your kisses and erasing you forever From myself From myself From myself From myself I knew it the moment I saw you Loving you was going to hurt me deeply But I looked at you again and understood That I would go with you until the end And now you're here Watching me suffer Tell me, how should I go about forgetting Your kisses and erasing your name From

Oh, I wanna give you everything I wanna give you everything, oh yeah yeah I wanna give you everything I wanna give you everything, oh I'm not going to wait until you're done 'Cause you pretended you don't need anyone Can't you see that I'm naked (Naked, naked) Oh, you see that I'm naked (Naked, naked) I'm not going to try 'til you decide You're ready to swallow all your pride I'm standing here naked (Naked, naked) I'm standing here naked (Naked, naked)

" My shattered heart seemed to collapse in an instant. I had thought that dying once would give me enough courage to face him, but his words still stabbed me in the heart like countless sharp knives. It hurt so much that I was losing the strength to breathe. I propped myself up and pulled open the oversized coat I was wearing, exposing my flat stomach to him. My lips curled into a smile. "Look. Your child really is gone."

There is nothing for me in this world, there is nothing for me to live for but this anger, it's the only thing keeping me moving on and if I ever let myself feel; if I break down that wall, I will break myself too. I had the sudden undeniable urge to break something, to hear glass shatter and I did my best to ignore the desire to seek a release, to destroy and ruin. I swallowed hard and my hands trembled. I scoffed, mocking my life, my fate, myself; "I'll break down and come back into this place." I looked around me, at the white walls that kept me hostage for years, the ones that trapped my brain in a maze; still there, still lost, still trying to figure a way out. Tears went unchecked down

Caspian stayed three paces behind—not as a guard, but as my shadow, letting the world know that the power I wielded was entirely my own. Edward looked up, his eyes bloodshot and hollow. "Save... save me," he croaked. "I saw a dream, Sonya. In that dream I hurt you a lot. I burnt you everyday. I-I can't bear the sight of that dream. I now understand why you moved on from me. Why you stopped loving me." "But... You loved me before... the Vow... we were meant..." "We were never meant, Edward," I said, my voice cold and clear as a winter bell. "In one life, you destroyed me. In this one, you destroyed yourself. The dream you are mentioning is the hell I went through, but in this life, I won't."