Hate Being Alone Novels & Stories

The most stupid thing I've ever heard. "You are so funny. Oh my god. I haven't laughed like that in years. Go ahead ruin him but don't forget to call me to cheer. I don't care that you know about his other business or what you could do. Do whatever you want ruin me for all I care, just don't show me your face cause I hate it. Wait do you want to show me the consequences as well. Go ahead show and leave." I say with a smile. "You have mental problems I am sure about that. Consequences? What the fuck is that suppose to mean? Why do you hate me so much? Not that I care I am just curious." He asks.

Maybe I wasn't cut out for love, maybe I was destined to be alone forever. The lonely wolf, nice name right? If that's the title I was given then maybe I should stick with it. Afterall, it's better than getting hurt over and over again. It's really sad when I thought about it though, when I thought about all the things I have been through.

My heart seems to become nonexistent at the confession. His gaze lifts back to mine. "I am still new to friendship. I do not wish to be a child forever. I do not wish to anger you for I am slow to understand emotion. I am used to being lonely it is- so much so that I think it is a part of me now. I think it defines me. When I am sad I have habits. I stay in a place where no one can reach me. And then I bleed alone." Crack. Right there. I hear it.

Four years ago. I hate school and I hate people. Why can't people mind their own business and let other people live their lives? I mean, I know we should surround ourselves with positive people and be social, but we can also choose to be alone. I like being alone and minding my own business, but others seem to have a problem with that.

The white light beneath his skin flared brighter. “But everything you became lost meaning.” The abyss below the sanctuary darkened slightly. Interesting. Ethan continued. “You evolved beyond fear, pain, humanity… and ended up alone beneath a planet.” Lucian quietly muttered, “Damn.” Even Kael stopped working the systems for a second. Because the statement landed hard. The First Hunger remained silent for several moments. Then the mountain trembled violently. Anger. The creature felt anger. “Isolation was necessary.” The Hollow King suddenly laughed.

Her absence today highlighted how much I miss her company, reinforcing my resistance to building connections with others. The lingering sense of loneliness has been a constant companion in my life for an extended period, and I am hesitant to endure such feelings once more. The endeavour to retain self-control and lead a tranquil existence, free from perpetual fear and the need for constant support, has proven to be challenging. I am acutely aware that those who encounter me are incapable of comprehending the extent of my experiences.

What if someone planned this? What if this is punishment? I rub my hands together. Cold. It's always cold lately. He notices. He always notices. He slides his pinky toward mine. Just slightly. Barely touching. But enough. Enough to say: I’m here. Enough to say: you’re not alone. Enough to say everything without words. “Remember when we hated each other?” I whisper. He scoffs. “We were idiots.” “You called me spoiled.” “You called me heartless.”

No. Better than myself because maybe being alone was not the same thing as being unwanted. Maybe sometimes it simply meant I had finally stopped begging the wrong people to stay.

Is loneliness the reason why I am acting like this? "I'm sorry. I ... I am just tired of everything. I just hate everything. I went to the park alone today and I had no one to go with. I have no friends or family, I am all alone. I could not stay there so I came back home. I met Lea's father on the way and it made me more jealous. She has everything, even you. I can't... I can't take it." I broke down in tears.

He asked, urging me to reply. Sighing, I slowly stood up and faced him, crossing my hands. “I do hate you, but I want to do this. Not for you, but for myself. It's maddening every time, and everyday I wake up to realize that I am utterly alone. No siblings, family, friends, or even a lover. Why not end the ordeal?” I raised a brow as I inquired.