Hate Being Alone Novels & Stories

ELIAS …. Third stupid year started some weeks ago, and men! I feel on top of the world, cause not only would I be out of the fucking hellhole soon, but also because of the fact that am all alone, just like how I like it. Alone? Why on earth would anyone like to be alone? To give a brief flashback, let me take you back to my pathetic damn sad story.

I am nothing but pain and suffering and she is peace and comfort. “Good thing you wised up,” I tell her. “Monsters don’t get to be loved.” She looks back out at the sunset, saying nothing as she plays with a small twig in her hands. I want to move closer, to sit where my leg will rest against hers or my hand may gently brush her skin. I used to think living alone was the hardest thing I could ever do. Now I know it’s choosing to be alone when someone wants you, and you want them too.

I felt bare in his presence. "I am not running from anything; I just want to be alone." "That can't be it." "You are right. That can't be it. Do you want a reason? Then maybe I want out because I am sick of having to deal with packs, family, and people; I just want to be alone; that's all I've ever wanted." "No one ever wants to be alone, so I don't believe that either."

"I actually think the sa—" "I don't care what you think about it, it's happening," he interrupts me. I narrow my eyes at him in annoyance. I was trying to agree with him, "Don't give me that face, this has been horrible. I hate that fucking apartment, I hate being away from you, I hate knowing you're living alone, I hate everything. Bobbie and I have been bonding harder than ever, you know why? Because we're both a fucking emotional wreck every day, just hoping you'll give us some form of attention and then breaking down when another day goes by and there's only silence from you."

This New Year, which is tomorrow, I’m going to be completely alone. No calls, no laughter, no “Happy New Year, Holly!” Just silence. And the unbearable weight of what I’ve done. I close my eyes, letting the tears fall freely now. Fuck! I hate my life right now as everything just keeps falling apart.

I've been gone from California for nearly 48 hours and now I'm just here, all alone. Does anyone know what its like to feel completely alone? Even around people you have known for years but know that they don’t give a damn about what’s going on inside. That even when you feel you’re at your best you can’t seem to do anything right. Everything you do just doesn’t work out. You try your hardest and still fail. And no one is there to pick back up the broken pieces. Loneliness is a horrible thing. It’s a cold feeling. No one should ever have to feel lonely. It consumes you slowly shaking you.

I said, turning my back on him. I heard him get to his feet. "Aren't you tired of being alone? You've made all these billions but all you have is hate in your heart. You have no one to share all that you achieved with, no one to call your own, no one to fucking love you. I think by now, it should be clear to you that being successful, and achieving so much in a short period will not make you happy".

I didn’t want anyone to think I was here to cause trouble, so I kept my distance from everyone! The solitude was nice, but after a week on my own I started to feel the emptiness of truly being alone. For the first time in my life, I could understand how a wolf could lose their mind and go feral. We’re pack creatures by nature and being alone for too long is not healthy. I hated to admit it, but I might need to find someone to connect with, just to keep my mind sane.

Sometimes his best friend could be a pain in the ass. “Well obviously I am, now where is the way out of…. wherever this hospital is?” Flynn said looking around as Xander shook his head. “I know you might be going through a lot now, but suicide isn’t the answer. You will fix your problems. Do you have any relative that I can call to inform them when you are and your condition?” He asked as Flynn shook his head. “No, I am alone. Lost too much to actually have someone by my side.” Flynn responded with a heavy sigh as Xander and XD gave each other quick glances before directing back to him.

I point at the three bags on the living room floor. "No. He is finishing up" I nod staring at the fash disc in my hands. I pray it has what I wish to know. "You know why I hate relationships?" I glance at him but remain quiet. "You are not allowed to be yourself. If my partner is not understanding, enough then I would rather be alone"