Hidupku Hancur Karena Cinta Novels & Stories

“Please don’t take him away again.” “Sebastian, no...” I saw his lifeless body fall to the ground. I broke down, tears streaming down my face as I pleaded with the universe to give him a second chance. “Please... take me, not him. Not him. I... love him. Take me. I don’t want a life without him in it.” My voice cracked. “Can anyone hear me? What’s the purpose of living... if he’s not part of it?” My eyes became unbelievably heavy to keep open, so I let them fall, leading me into darkness. I had finally lost everything.

I've been holding it all in for years, months, and now, finally, the dam had burst, and I couldn't stop the tears from falling. I was finally allowing myself to feel. My heart ached. It burned. One fucking mistake, and my life has been ruined. How could I let this happen? Why was this happening to me? Would I ever find someone who loved me like she did? Could I ever love someone like I loved her? It was impossible. I wasn't the same man she fell in love with. And she was no longer the same woman who would do anything to make me happy. It was all over.

And now she'd cut the line, leaving me adrift. I feel like going crazy right now, “Why do I love you so much Kianna? Why!!!!” I've always told myself I would never cry over a girl, but this particular one has me broken…my heart keeps calling her name. Tasting water felt bitter on lips, all I did was to help someone in need, and it cost me my relationship. My phone buzzed on the coffee table, slicing through the silence and the uninvited voices that kept whispering evil in my mind like a knife.

“We were all terrified… we thought we would lose her, but the world doesn't really want her to die yet. We bring her to the hospital with her wrist bleeding so much that she will still be saved. Even though she tried to die many times, maybe God doesn't just want her to die yet. I just don't understand why the world always wants to hurt her,” Hearing all those stories again shatters me. My Faith experienced those while I was waiting there for her. Every day that I spent living while thinking about her, she was actually dying. Each day is a torture to her and I was not beside her. The worst is, it was all because of me. I shattered the woman I loved the most. I destroyed and ruined her entire

He might find the love of his life there. I found the love of my life here. And he makes me so happy. The past few months have been full of bliss. All that wouldn't be possible if Brandon didn't cheat on me. Something so beautiful came out of something so ugly. Something so wholesome came out of something so heartbreaking. A younger me seriously believed that I couldn't live without Brandon. I couldn't survive that kind of heartbreak. But my life didn't end when my heart got broken. Infact, I think that's when I started living.

My knees buckled, and I went down, but he caught me before I landed, and when he put his arms around me, I lost it. I kicked and scratched and yelled as my heart broke into a million pieces. "Katarina, what the f*ck?" I beat against his chest and back until my arms gave out. I looked up at him with dead eyes as I felt like the life was draining out of me. I just wanted to die. "How could you, Colton, how could you?" I never thought in this world that I would ever know pain like this, that the man I'd loved and who I thought loved me could ever be the orchestrator of my destruction.

Why do I keep losing the people who genuinely love and cared for me? "I-I'm tired... I'm so tired, Mi..." Tears fell hardmy eyes as if they were already used to it. Of course. I've been crying for how many days? Oh... I don't know. I lost count. "How many more lives must be lost? How many more lives will be taken away from me? How many more of my loved ones must be sacrificed? Why can't I just die?! Why not me, instead?! I'm worthless... I am worthless!"

Instead they trampled over that love and destroyed my heart over and over again. Now he wants to be a part of my life but doesn’t he realize it’s too late? They shattered me to pieces and now I had nothing to give them. I was emptied when it came to them.

Now matter how much I drank, the pain wouldn’t ease. My heart had been shattered into irreparable pieces by a man I’d been in love with since high school—a man I would have killed for, a man I would have laid my life down for. Finn was everything to me. He was like air, and I swore I couldn’t live without him. But now, as the bitter taste of beer coated my tongue, I realized I had already been living without him. I just hadn’t noticed because I was too blinded by love to see the truth.