I Can't Control Myself Novels & Stories

It became very difficult for me to control my self. I really wanted to lick that chocolate from her mouth very badly. I fisted my hand becoz it was really very difficult for me to control. I never felt this kind of urge to do something. I closed my eyes to calm down my self. Anyhow I controlled my self, but still that urge was still awake inside of me. Soon after everyone decided to leave , as it was already quite late. But I think these girls don't want to leave our company now. They have some other plans.

he asks, moving into the room. My smile slides down and I force myself to breathe slowly, focusing on managing my blood pressure. I don’t know what it is about this guy, but whenever he’s around I start losing it. It ticks me off that I can’t seem to control myself. I don’t want to like him, and I don’t want him to send my system offline every time he’s near. Too bad I’m not the one calling the shots up in my brain. Down, Hootchie, down! Control yourself!

I could take the day off and just leave but it was out of the question. I do not want to be all myself, I don't want to go be in the house cause I know Barry would drive down the next minute he doesn't get through to me. “Lunch?”. Amber asked. I didn't take my eyes off the system, it felt like I was just there lost in thought. I was in the office physically but my mind was elsewhere. Why did I do it?. Why the hell was I unable to control my hormones and I had to fuck myself up this bad?.

The emotions kept flooding into my soul and I couldn't push them out no matter how hard I tried. "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. I'm trying to stop it. I cannot control myself," I pleaded. "Well, I don't care. You have to learn to control yourself. This cannot keep happening, okay? This has to stop!" he yelled, sitting back on his bed, feeling frustrated.

"It's about giving as much as you are receiving. Anyone can be in control." "No, I have to be in control," she insisted. "If I am not in control, I can't breath. I'm reminded of my father. He beats me, he cuts me with sharp objects, he chokes me. If I let my control go, someone else is going to do that to me." "Not everyone is going to be like your father. You have to stop chasing after what's not there." "Then what's the point of my life? If I can't have sex..."

So that he can clearly understand I pushed him to let me go. "Restrain! Control Amanda," actually he was surprised to see my reaction of struggling to get free. Control............ what a shitty thing to say, yet the most difficult thing to do! But Cole how can I control myself? How can I control myself? When I don't even know me! How can I look through the edges? When I don't even feel it! How can I control my anger? When I don't even understand why it is for? How can I control my emotions?

Especially after what almost happened three days ago. If I hadn't controlled myself when I did, I have no idea what would have happened, and the scary part was that I wanted it. I don't know where this...this whatever it is came from, it just came all of a sudden and out of nowhere, and I can't control it, hell, I don't even know if I want to control it. This…this attraction? Or I don't even know, maybe just me being stupid? Whatever it was, it was like it took over, and I couldn't even control it. I don't even know if I want to, like I said. And now I just dug a big pit and practically jumped in myself, by telling her to spend the whole day with me.

I was slowly sinking into my own demise, and lately I felt like I was lacking the strength to push further. I got up from bed and stretched my body. Looking around the room, I saw Adriano's laptop and a few files open on the plush cushion in the room. Then it hit me. Me acting like a deprived sex addict. Me breaking down in front of him. Me saying stupid things I shouldn't have. "What have I done?" I gasped. My eyes brimmed with tears once more. Why do I lack so much self-control? "No. No. No." I shook my head in disbelief. Have I ruined everything? What was I going to say?

I chuckle and look away from her as I rub my mustache staring outside my own side of the car the window. I need to control myself. I have to do things right from this moment. As from now , this shit cannot continue any longer. it is absolutely absurd. It's totally insane. For heaven's sake, she is my daughter's best friend. I am fucking married. What is my problem? Why the hell can't i control irresistibly lust I feel for younger women? it's driving me crazy without control and I feel like I should just...... My God. I facepalm myself and take a deep breath. Take it easy Daniel. Just take it easy. Please.

He says "I do and I am following it. I took my medicine first thing waking up," I respond "Good to hear but that is not what I was talking about. I was talking about your composure and ability to control yourself." "I can do that, I have trained myself for five years and even though I am not very good at handling myself I can try and work on it." "The medicine will help you do that but you need to add more effort. You can not lose control of yourself anymore because if you do, I am not sure if I will be able to help you again." He says