I Can't Control Myself Novels & Stories

“He wouldn’t listen and he tried to kiss me again” “oh but you should be happy you were able to regain control” She praised. “At what expense? What if I kill people?” I asked. “You won’t because you stronger than you think” “I’m so scared of what is in me” “Don’t me. You own it and not otherwise. You get to control how far it goes” “I guess. When I realized I was out of control I helped myself regain the control once again. I can do this” I suddenly felt a rush of happiness and excitement.

It was not like I had a shortage of women at my disposal, so what exactly was the colour of my problem? I was so angry with myself, and I didn’t even know what to do. The mate bond connection was making me loose control of my senses. I was acting like I was sex-crazed now, and I didn’t like it one bit. Why the fuck does this have to happen to me? I stared down at myself, and I was painfully hard. I had no idea what I was going to do to bring the desire down a bit. I hated feeling so weak and having next to no control.

Crushes are simple. This isn’t simple. I genuinely like different things about both of them. And that’s a problem. A huge problem. My phone buzzes. I ignore it. Immediately. “No.” Another buzz. I keep staring at the wall. “I am not looking.” Buzz. I cross my arms. “I have self-control.” Buzz. Silence. I last maybe four seconds. “Ugh!” I grab the phone. Because apparently I have the willpower of a squirrel. My stomach immediately drops.

I shivered when his hot breath grazed my nape , I was begging , mewling , gasping and panting . And the worst part of this torment ? I had no control over it . Even though I was in a completely different and strange place , with half of the school partying outside , I knew that everyone was walking past by this room , if anyone walked in closer to this room , they could hear my moans . Yet I can't control myself . I can't stop myself even when I want to . I want to stop him but I can't think , I can only feel - what he was making me feel .A need was building inside me and I could no longer think straight ..

I should have said something. Done something. But I didn’t. Because for the first time… I didn’t want to. And that was the problem. That was the crack. Because control was slipping. And I wasn’t sure I wanted to stop it anymore.

There’s this illusion that it is, but quite frankly- it is not something controllable at all. And I know this because I’ve tried. I’ve tried to not lust after my father’s best friend, to stop dreaming about his body, and to stop visualizing his cock inside of me. I’ve tried and really tried. Tell me why I’m ended at this junction if my desires could be controlled? He wouldn’t be in his own dilemma too if he had control over his desires. He claimed himself to be a man of control, yet lost that control and subjected to the fervent taste of me.

I can't keep my control over things I don't know about! I grab another glass and pour a generous serving of whisky before knocking it back. I focus on the burn churning in my belly. I need to focus and get my answers soon. I can feel my hands start to shake. A sure sign I'm losing control. But I refuse to lose my control! I'm always in control! I'm the one with all the power! I'm going to take it back from him.

The magnetic pull I have with this man can’t also be in my head yet he seems to have it all figured out. I swallow. “I don’t mind a man who deludes himself about the present.” I say, trying to get a reaction from him. He just smirks. This makes me blink. I drown the content in my glass forcefully down my throat, emptying everything in my mouth. After this, my hand lets go of the flute, dropping it on the counter. My whole body is begging to be fucked. My mind is ridden by the desire yet I have to activate ‘self control’. Something I never thought would be hard to achieve until now. Plus, this man wouldn’t touch me. This fact is also there.

But no matter what I can't stop my mind to wander. I just can't stop thinking about her. And that... That scares me... In my world everything happens within my control. Not once have anything happened that's out of my knowledge , out of my control. The world that I live in is ruled by me run by me. And nothing can happen without my consent in this world. And today I can't control my own mind own wants and my own feelings. No matter what I do my mind can't stop thinking about her and my body can't stop craving for her.

Bella's mouth was wide agape " Are you kidding me? Not again Allyson. Please don't tell me you had unprotected sex again" I got up instantly and began to pace around the room " I'm a slut. I'm the biggest slut ever. What have I fine ?" She got up and stopped "You need to calm down. This isn't the time to blame yourself. The deed has been done. Please seat " I sat down " I can't believe I did it all over again" "But why would you do this to yourself? I thought you said you have control of things but what happened ?" "I don't know what came over me. He came over last night to talk and one thing led to another. I thought I have it under control but I failed badly. I allowed my emotion to take c